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I want to end this life

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I’m cold... im so cold right now..

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Tried my best but was not enough

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i know you read everything i write, but do you get the message?

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not being loved by you is hard but you constantly showing how little you care is the hardest

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cutting you off hurt. but what hurt more was the fact that you didn’t care

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I’m wondering how you manage to sleep at night knowing that you completely destroyed me. Are you finding any peace knowing that you’re the one responsible for all the pain I felt?

But I guess you do what you always did, you put the blame on me and pretend that I am the guilty one.

- and that’s how you sleep perfectly fine (no fucking way that I am the one to blame)

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You lied to me. You hurt my feelings. And yet for some reason I was walking on eggshells around you. I was apologizing for how I was feeling because of your actions. Like I did something wrong? Fuck you for making me apologize when you were the one who ripped my heart into two and handed it to me.

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Love Rosie (2014)

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“Yeah I know. This distance can be tough but there’s nothing I can’t handle. I will wait for you as long as I have too. I’m not willing to let a love like this go. You are my love, my everything and someday, we are going to have an amazing life together. So please, hang in there.”

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يمتحننا اللّٰه بما نحب

Allah tests us with what we love.

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“It’s been a month and I still cry myself to sleep. You shouldn’t be able to do this to me. You don’t deserve a single tear from me. But yet here I am. And there you are, much too far away from me to wipe these tears away.”

— S

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I realized that if someone ever really did matter, they'll find a way to be back into your life. Maybe the timing was wrong. Maybe life just needed to mature the both of you. Maybe life just needed to teach you how to act. And maybe, maybe my life knew it was you. I just had to mature up and know how to love you the way you deserve to be loved.

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i am no longer the girl i was when i loved you. i have reinvented myself. i no longer like coconut chapstick or gold eyeshadow. i no longer like horror movies or your stupid posters in your room. i no longer stay up until 5am just waiting for your name to pop up on the screen. i no longer cry everyday. i no longer barely make it through the day. i like sunshine and pale eyeshadow and coffee and art and thunderstorms and i am now everything you will never get the chance to know. i am better. i have found sunshine rooted in my very own veins. i am new, and i hope you envy the newfound warmth that i have found in myself.

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“Once, I held on tighter instead of letting go. And at the time I thought that was the right thing to do. But the truth is, it doesn’t matter how tightly you hold on, because what is meant for you will always be yours. You shouldn’t have to fight for what is truly yours. So if some wants to go - please just let them go.”