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when they're remodeling houses on those HGTV shows and they rip out the most amazing seafoam green or baby blue or blush pink 70s tile....why do you hate style and fun

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Tilda Swinton photographed by David Thompson

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True Stories (David Byrne, 1986)

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Hey congrats on making a human and I'm very sorry for your recent loss, my warmest thoughts to you x

Thank you, I appreciate both sentiments a lot

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I'm just doing them all.

Song of the year - somehow the wonder of life prevails by Mark Kozelek

Album of the year - Benji by sun kil moon

Fave musician that I started listening to this year - Joan Shelley

Movie of the year - hot frosty lmfao. this is the worst year for cinema ever.

Tv show of the year - I didn't watch hardly any tv, but Clarkson's farm or the bear probably

Episode of tv that defined the year for you - ice chips, the bear

Favorite actor of the year - for this year's films? I don't even know. Honestly Josh Hartnett in trap probably. What a fun and odd performance

Game of the year - stardew valley updates

Best month this year - July. Found out I was pregnant, was using the swimming hole and gardening, mom was still alive, and I wasn't violently ill yet

Something that made you cry this year - so much but watching my mom die mainly. And containing her denial that never moved to acceptance or peace was nearly unbearable

Something you want to do again next year - visit local swimming hole many times

New friend you made this year - I met no one lol. Moved to a new place but I was driving 14 hours like every 2nd - 3rd weekend and the only people I met through work are clients who I can't befriend. New friends are for later.

How was your birthday? Ross made me a croque which was sweet. Other than that I think I worked and puked

Favourite book read this year - honestly the Amish romance book I'm reading rn is pretty nice, but it'd be a river runs through it. I read a bunch of duds this year unfortunately.

Bad habit picked up - too much phone. But I've also had to be sober on this, one of the most difficult years of life so I'm not going too hard on myself

A memorable meal - morel mushroom pasta! Our house has morel mushrooms growing in the yard naturally in the spring!

Most excited for next year - baby, and not being on call for any moment crisis for years straight

Something you learned this year - Things can seem impossible and still get done sanely somehow and mysteriously. That having someone to anchor in who feels safe to love is literally magic when things feel impossible. That tarot works well but is ultimately useless and not seeking answers or certainly re: the future is better.

Something new about your place of residence - baby room in progress. Will have a tapestry style wallpaper.

Favorite place visited - I only visited my mom's house and the hospital 7 hours away like 30 times because she was dying. The swimming hole by our house was the best place. Other than the house.

If you could send a message to yourself on the first day of last year what would it say? That you think you just experienced burnout and external stress, but it's about to get so much worse budday, yet you're also going to mentally improve somehow. I don't know why humans make no sense but there it is.

Did you keep new years resolutions? YES. Resolved not to protect people from reality and I became about 400x firmer with family out of necessity this year. Except my mom who had a right to be as detached from reality as she wanted, and she indeed did want. but other people got a lot of reality checks.

Did you create any characters? I did 0 art this year, some of my harp strings broke :(. I made a human though

End of the year Asks

Song of the year?

Album of the year?

Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year?

Movie of the year?

TV show of the year?

Episode of tv or webisode that defined the year for you?

Favorite actor of the year?

Game of the year?

Best month for you this year?

Something that made you cry this year?

Something you want to do again next year?

Talk about a new friend you made this year

How was your birthday this year?

Favorite book you read this year?

What’s a bad habit you picked up this year?

Post a picture from the beginning of the year

Post a picture from the end of the year

A memorable meal this year?

What’re you excited about for next year?

What’s something you learned this year?

What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year?

Favorite place you visited this year?

If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?

Did you keep any New Year’s Resolutions?

Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

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Before Sunset (2004) — dir. Richard Linklater

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Diaries, Notes and Sketches (1968) dir. Jonas Mekas

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‘Before Sunrise’ (1995) dir. Richard Linklater // ‘Before Sunset’ (2004) dir. Richard Linklater

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mary oliver, staying alive

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Epitaph

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PS I love you, 2007

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Eartha Kitt (and one of her cats) at home in New York, photos by Ben Martin, January 1957.

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SpiritFarer

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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:))

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how do i clean my room if i dont own a maid dress?

its over. you're fucked