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Ice Storm ~ Montreal, Quebec, Canada 1998

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The Birdcage (1996) dir. Mike Nichols

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last trip to hometown for indeterminate time

day 1: my mom's funeral, day 2: my baby shower, day 3: spreading my grandpa's ashes where my mom wanted to but she wasn't well enough, and probably the last time I'll see the cabin that was so instrumental in my formative years

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i read CS Lewis’ A Grief Observed one time years ago and i’m still not recovered from it

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cats are really useful for when you need a small animal to sit 10-15 feet away from you and stare at you with unceasing neutrality

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Have become such an expert at curating others' funeral playlists this year, that here is mine as a living doc.

My funeral plans: cremated in plywood or whatever else if there is a cheaper option, whoever wants gathers in a field, and there are white Russians. everyone wears and does whatever they want

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“A photo my grandparents took of themselves via self timer,1950.”

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Cornelis Kloos (Dutch, 1895--1976)

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Joan Didon, On self respect, 1961 (x)

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Kyōko Kagawa and Setsuko Hara in Tokyo Story

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have I ever accomplished the second part of this resolution this year, holy shit. feels like being direct and blunt without sugar coating difficult realities is all I've been doing lately

New years resolution: to accept compliments, and to stop protecting people from reality

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Meeting the Man: James Baldwin in Paris (1970)

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The New Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1988)