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I may or may not be going through a phase…..

winter ✰ 241117

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“I shaved”

“I dont care about that but okay” A WOMANNNNNNNNNNNN

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“I want to beg you to stay but I won’t” YOU HEAR THAT ***????? THATS A WOMAN RIGHT THEREEEE 😩

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I told her to think of me one last time before she gets engaged, and married because we both know, if things were a little different, the one marrying her would be me

“I’ll always remember you as the girl I got a binky bong for before myself 💙”

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Idk what makes me wanna cry more, the fact she told me to love myself because I’m worth loving or the fact that my headphones are dead

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so that really, really really really really fucking hurt

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and I will be that friend to write four paragraphs in a birthday card because it’s the least I can do for someone who I think saved my life and was part of the change that makes me the girl I am today 💓 of course I was first to show up too, what the others said was in a joking way but I do in fact consider myself “a real one”

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I do nawt play about my besties ☝️yes we’re all jokes and games but at the same time I WILL raise my hand and say mememe! to give a speech at your birthday, I WILL take that microphone and stand on the dance floor, I WILL pour my heart out into those 30 seconds I spoke for and I WILL smile and say thank you to all her family members that came up to me and complimented my speech because I DID in fact mean every word and I will for the rest of my life 💕

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gonna go sleep cause I dont wanna deal 🙂‍↕️

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it’s been awhile since I’ve written a love letter… appreciating the fact I’m not currently being scolded or questioned about the fact

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looking for a sign that’ll tell me things will get better

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they may be hella nugu but this eats

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“I dont think your style suits you” 🤷‍♀️ “I think you should dress sexy” 😕… “I think you should dress handsomely” 🫳🔫

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i’m… i’m a lesbian… I always have been… what man 😭?

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“crying it out is healthy” okay but i dont want a blocked nose 😭! and yk i put on toner and moisturiser so I can’t have my tears messing with allat 🙂‍↔️

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gehluv or gay love? either way she fits in perfectly 🙂‍↕️

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suspected depression? maybe, but I think about locking in and it makes me feel a bit better 🙂‍↕️