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Regarding Dean,

Dean: My name is Dean Winchester.

Dean: Sam is my brother,

Dean: Mary is my mother,

Dean: Cas- Castiel is....

Sam: Your boyfriend.

Dean: My boyfriend?

Sam: Yes.

Dean: Castiel is my boyfriend.

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There were things I wanted to tell him. But I knew they would hurt him. So I buried them, and let them hurt me.

Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via sherlockhxlmes)

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I’m not as innocent as you think I am. I’ve done things and I’m not proud of it. I’m more fucked up than you think. I am not the good little girl my daddy told me to be, I am nothing but a bad girl who is foolish enough to believe that a nice guy like you could accept me. 

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He haunts me in my sleep and he haunts me when I’m awake

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I fear my capabilities. I fear the day that no one will keep an eye on me and eventually I’d end it all.

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How do you cope up with it?

I sat in silence my eyes wet from tears that I try so hard to hold back. How do you cope up with everything? I shivered at the memories of how I dealt with all of it. Alcohol, smoke, drug ... my heart was pounding so hard I could feel the heavy weight of guilt starting to eat me up. And so I answered “I just have to think of my father” I felt liquid dripping in my arms and legs and i was wet of blood. I was confused of seeing scars all over my body and then I realized I did this. I did this to myself. 

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Love is what?

Once there was a time when I thought I really know what love is but then I figured out that love is not attraction, love is not compatibility, love is not instant. Love actually takes time, love is patient, love is kind, love is calm and messy. Love is all things nice and difficult. Love is a puzzle waiting to be unraveled. 

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Next time I serve my heart on a platter just stab me in the heart

bitter

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We tend to care for the ones who don’t care about us

We love the ones who can’t love us

We cry for the ones who smile without us

We end up broken for the people we treasure

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Even when surrounded, people feel alone.

Observer. (Six Word Story.)

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me: I'm gonna activate my account when destiel becomes canon

friend: Goodbye facebook forever and twitter

me: hears my heart shattering into pieces, tears falling hastily like waterfall. Spn do something

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Supernatural

The reason I started watching Supernatural was because I thought there was a gay ship (destiel) that becomes canon later on the series. Nope. Not at all. Instead I’m stuck with a moose, a ship that refuses to become canon, Crowley, 173739362 dead characters, a broken heart, and the longing for a ship to sail although it probably won’t leave the docks.

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Ain’t this true

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how sign traits manifest, when energies are focused outward vs. inward

ARIES outward: snarky, charismatic, exuding an aura of confidence mixed with superiority, ambitious and willing to do whatever they can to achieve their goals, assertive, impatient, strong physical energies  inward: wildly intelligent, existential, well-intentioned and seeking to self-improve, thoughtful, loyal, frustrated and overly critical of themselves, desiring control 

TAURUS outward: stubborn, hardworking, super cute, patient, very committed and focused to whatever they’re doing at the moment, great listeners inward: always excited about relaxation and downtime, those people who wake up in the morning and are already looking forward to climbing back into bed, hopeless romantics, fearful of change, emotional, analytical

GEMINI outward: talkative, blurs of motion, excitable, lovers of debate and low-key always looking for a friendly fight, adventurous, internalizes stress to the point where it becomes physical illness, curious, expressive, fun-loving, adaptable and able to get along with many different types of people inward: talks to themselves in the shower and goes over possible argument positions just in case someone tries to start shit. excellent writers, philosophical, thoughtful, always seeking stimulation and fulfillment, conflicted in their own thoughts, can often feel isolated within themselves and misunderstood 

CANCER: outward: heart-on-sleeve type of people, extremely supportive, excellent maternal instincts- the “mom” at all the parties who takes care of too-drunk friends, always looking to help others, easily teary, communicative, kind, thoughtful and excellent gift givers inward: creative, sensitive, spiritually and karmically mature, understanding of their need to feel things fully, meditative, lovers of quiet and alone time, always seeking understanding from other people and genuinely deep connections

LEO:  outward: loud, bright and sunshiney, natural leaders, energetic, affectionate, extremely generous, proud, protective over and loyal to others, dramatic, flirty, demanding and resilient with a visibly strong spirit, able to naturally attract people, queen bees inward: interested in making life better for themselves and for others, always trying to look at things positively, idealistic, highly emotional, perfectionists, constantly nursing their tender egos, constantly trying to fully understand themselves, relying on gut instinct

VIRGO outward: skeptical and critical of the world around them, organized, clean, cautious, practical, hard-workers, naturally intelligent, visible perfectionists, fascinating people to talk to, dedicated, detail-oriented, looking for simple pleasures in life inward: realistic, highly critical of themselves, able to remember a great deal of information easily, passionate about particular things that they love, can often feel a heavy self-imposed pressure to succeed, focused on the moment, prideful in the quality of their work 

LIBRA outward: flirty, people-pleasers, outgoing, charming and eloquent communicators, love to be shown affection, argument mediators, reasonable, graceful, those people who look like they never have an off day, dedicated to their appearances inward: indecisive, understanding of others and very capable of understanding many different perspectives, calm, naturally inclined towards contentedness- and determined to find contentedness even when their situations seem shitty, hopeless romantics, creative 

SCORPIO outward: intimidating, magnetic, overtly sexual, hard to approach for many people but everyone wants to approach them anyway, impossible to ignore, often effortlessly the center of attention, masterful in their chosen disciplines, influential inward: controlled by their emotions, constantly questioning themselves, seeking approval from others, can often be self-destructive, obsessive, determined, self-interested, sensitive, fighting spirit

SAGITTARIUS outward: popular, jovial, spontaneous, effortlessly good with people and attractive to others, competitive, relentless with whatever they set their minds to, always on the go, notorious show-offs,  feeling as though the world is their oyster and ready to work hard to find what it has to offer inward: strong sense of self, unafraid of new things and taking risks, optimistic, independent, always thinking about the big picture, always craving understanding of themselves and the world, strong gut feelings

CAPRICORN outward: hardworking and ambitious, down-to-earth, aloof exterior, mysterious, mature, always appearing in control, consistent, guarded, very responsible with a clear idea of what they’re meant to be doing at any moment, practical and methodical, self-sufficient, extremely capable inward: traditional, level-headed, patient, realistic, excellent judges of character who rely on gut instinct to tell them who to trust, resilient, strong, courageous, with good humor and a genuine interest in others lying at their core beings

AQUARIUS outward: very friendly and open, unique, independent, often seen as true individuals, original, creative, spirited and energetic, inspirational, with a universally accepting attitude towards all people, and a detached/thoughtful way of looking at the world inward: sensitive, caring, opinionated to the point of stubbornness, open-minded, unwilling to let go once they commit to something, curious, always thinking and considering all possibilities, clever, capable of personal transformation 

PISCES outward: very mature, compassionate, loving, sensitive to the energies around them, instinctive with other people’s emotions, thoughtful with conversation and advice, receptive, gentle, always appearing as an older wiser soul despite actual age inward: daydreamers, extremely reliant on gut instinct and uncanny abilities for prediction, idealistic, emotional, very intelligent, interested in culture, hypersensitive and will often absorb negative energy, observant to the point of feeling isolated or disconnected

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Can your heart be broken if you were never together?

Sidney Chambers, Grantchester (via bibliophilebunny)

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Take it

hey you, I know its been really hard but hold on okay? Your daddy still wants to see you alive and happy. But being happy is hard right? But that’s fine since you can always plaster a smile on your face and act as the happiest person even though you feel like killing yourself. Now now get rid of those thoughts. You don’t want your daddy to see you inside a casket. You can cry but please keep it inside. Don’t show anyone okay? Because they don’t care about you. They only care about what they get from you. Nobody cares about how you feel. Nobody notices those pain in your eyes. Only you know how painful it is. I know its sad but hey you have no other choice but to just go with the flow of this miserable life. If its too much to handle, if you know you can’t continue then please do yourself a favor and pull the plug. You never asked to live. You never asked for life. You have every right to take it. 

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Pretentious is different from moody

Her: Why are you so moody?

Me: I'm not moody

Her: A while ago you were laughing your ass out

Me: I'm just sleepy