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CLICK ON THE PICTURE!!! Here’s a little experiment that didn’t go very well, so I’m just throwing it out there.

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kinda think the last great american dynasty is one of taylor’s best ever songs???? the songwriting is literally insane she fit a woman’s entire biography into a 4 minute song with intricate details and an easy-to-follow storyline and then connected it back to herself…..jesus i hope she is proud of herself for that one. like she really is the best songwriter of our generation it feels so much like a billy joel piano man type song god i’m just proud of her whO ELSE IS DOING IT LIKE THIS GIRLY??? NO ONEEEE

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Okay but has anyone heard the lakes yet?! I think it will solve the questions on if all the songs are related to Betty and James and how Taylor is tied into them...

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Meet my new fish in my lover inspired fish tank.

Their names are Miss Americana & the heartbreak prince

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Soon you’ll get better really hit home tonight but in a good way. Thank you Taylor

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I haven’t been on tumblr in a while. I was busy with work to try and pay my school loans and struggled with health issues. but recently I have been struggling horribly with this quarantine and my anxiety, depression, and OCD have just come flooding back. Recently it’s been so hard. I’m just thankful for the essential workers like grocery store workers, doctors, nurses, post office/ ups/ fed ex, janitors, and any others I forgot. I appreciate how everyone has come together during this. Just personally struggling...

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Quarantine crafts. @taylorswift made it myself. Your songs have been supporting me

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@taylorswift what do you think of this plate I made yesterday!!! Love you so much

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Today, I watched every video I took from the reputation stadium tour reliving that amazing moment. It was a year ago today I was there, looking at taylor, singing along with her, and dancing with 50,000 other fans. But it’s bittersweet for me-not because of Taylor- but because of where I was a year ago.

One year ago, I could barely leave house, let alone my room. I had to drive over an hour to go to an intensive partial patient program at a hospital. I hated myself. I hated my life. I was never smiling, never feeling happy, and was in so much pain. I’ve always struggled with OCD, depression, and anxiety my whole life but it never got that bad. I had to start taking a new kind of medicine everyday. One that helped my brain function just a little bit better than the other ones I’ve taken. I cried. A lot. I was in such a miserable place.

Somehow that night, I got out of bed. My best friend and I drove to Gillette and we saw Taylor perform. I felt so guilty, as I always did. Here I was seeing my idol perform and I was faking my excitement since my best friend was loosing her mind (her first Taylor concert)! Don’t get me wrong: I am a HUGE Taylor fan. She means so much to me and has helped me previously through her music with my struggles. But, I was excited but felt so empty inside. I was so guilty that I couldn’t just be in the moment or so guilty I wasn’t jumping up and down. I spent so much money on these tickets, money I didn’t really have. I was worried about being in the huge stadium. I just was so depressed.

Somehow though @taylorswift you gave me a smile. This was the second time I had smiled since I fell into this place. You made me forget about all my pain and suffering for one night. Once you came on stage it was like you were singing to me. You saved me that night. And frequently many other nights. I laughed and cried at Reputation. I screamed on the top of my lungs. I used these angry, edgy songs to push away those hateful thoughts. It worked. Taylor, you are always my life saver when I feel like I’m drowning or suffocating. I was happy, even though just a short time, for once I finally felt a sense of happiness.

From teardrops on my gutair to fifteen to the archer you have shaped my life for the better with your music, Taylor.

I have worked so hard since I fell back and I am proud to say I am no longer that person who can’t normally operate on a daily basis, who doesn’t have severe brain fog and sadness. I am ME! And I finally feel okay. It took a while but now I think I am finally clean.

So thank you Taylor. Your music inspires me everyday. You don’t even know the significant impact you have had on my life and I could never repay you for that.

After the concert, getting over the worst slump for a little, and serious reflection I got a tattoo to symbolize everything you have done but also I remind myself daily of my strength, worth, and so much more.

It reads:

Fearless;

I wanted to incorporate the semi colon but also a word that has helped me get through my darkest times. A word that has proven time and time again that she and many other women are. So thank you Taylor. Reflection today was bitter sweet but are invincible and incredible Taylor.

Thank you for being you

Xo

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A year ago today I was at Reputation.

6 years ago today I was at Red.

I can’t believe that Speak Now was my first Taylor tour & I haven’t stopped going since 😍😍

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My phone is still blowing up

SO THIS HAPPENED…MAYBE @taylorswift WILL NOTICE IT TOO!!!

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i am never going to shut up about how important the message behind you need to calm down is because it literally does you no good to attack people for the way they live their life and there are so many people out there that really just need to hop off our gowns

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SO THIS HAPPENED...MAYBE @taylorswift WILL NOTICE IT TOO!!!

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Like can you just not…

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There’s also 18 songs...EIGHTEEN! I’m sure there will be more than just summer bops.........

One slow emotianal songs would be nice so everyone would see that its not fun summer songs only

well i think she has probably included that in the album because she said that with lover she’s exploring all aspects of love and not only romantic love so i think we’re gonna be served with a lot of emotions

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This is amazing. I FUCKING LOVE HER

we have decided to stan forever