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Turns out it literally was this image. Made two new side blogs with this icon and tumblr nuked them before I could reblog anything

since my side blog is nuked rn everyone enjoy the lesbian buck icon that did it in

he's not a lesbian i just think he's neat

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Congrats to Brennan for taking over as Game Master for Critical Role's upcoming Campaign 4! We know he'll miss making custom shoes for American Girl Dolls, but this feels like the right move.

For Dropout & Dimension 20 fans - don't worry, Brennan's still at the helm of Dimension 20. New Intrepid Heroes season(s) film later this year...and we just finished production on a side quest season that'll be arriving shortly after the conclusion of Cloudward, Ho!

Plus, there's one more Game Changer this season - featuring Brennan and a few others, and it's a doozy.

In short: don't worry, internet, you're about to get even more Brennan Lee Mulligan, Dragon Master-ing like nobody's business.

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Sometimes reading Arthuriana feels like reading Alice in Wonderland.

“Well,” said Alice, “these are a dreadfully strange assortment of objects!”

“They all symbolize different aspects of Our Lord’s martyrdom,” said the Fisher King, casting a line into his teacup.

“Indeed. I am sure everything symbolizes something else, for if everything was only itself I should be very confused. Might I ask what the point of the bleeding lance is?”

Alice regretted asking the question as soon as she had done so, for she saw the pun that would likely be made about the word point. Instead, however, the room erupted in applause and shouts of “The Grail! She has achieved the Grail!”

The next castle she visited, Alice resolved to herself as the inhabitants of this one danced for joy, would be more sensible.

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@staff okay now why did my BRAND NEW side blog, literally MINUTES old, not a damn post on it, get nuked. do ya'll not like my icon??? my background??? my custom theme??? what the fuck is happening

both my Lesbuck and Bestfriendbuck sideblogs nuked within 2 weeks. im not even joking Lesbuck was less than 20 minutes old. i was in the middle of customizing the theme. what the fuck is happening. nobody is responding to my tickets.

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idk i just really want everyone to know about the word vermiculation

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eddies rant in the grocery store is so absolutely crazy girl bc he says “you know how much christopher misses you? how could you? youre not around” (which is something you could say to a wife who left without contact for two years and then Died). except he cant say that to his wife bc shes dead! and he doesnt want to be the man mad at his dead wife! so he has to say it to the next closest person: his extremely platonic coparenting best friend that he misses so badly he has to hide behind his sons sadness instead of admitting his own

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Okay so @ballroomeddie’s magnificent aspec!Buck post has my mind buzzing and finally got me to type out my thoughts on reading Eddie as grey/demiromantic. This is kind of all over the place but I’ve had this saved in a draft for like a year.

To me, Eddie does not seem to be someone who inherently loves or even understands romance. He loves stories about love, but the way he talks and acts about romantic love, reads as aromantic, but because how he acts with Buck and (somewhat, though it’s hard to tell with so little) with Shannon, he seems to be demi-romantic, in that he feels it for specific people, not generally, and only after a strong bond is formed.

To me, Eddie seems not great at romance generally, and more so at the start of relationships, when he does not know the other person very well. And once more time with a person has passed, that “need” for romance seems less important, and so it matters less and can be dismissed as nerves or whatnot. We seem him at ease with Ana when Carla comes for dinner. At the “date” at her house they talk about Chris before it leads to the flirty teacher math conversation. But he didn’t set up the candles. We don’t find out if he got her flowers. She cooked the meal. We never really see him on a date that he’s planned and he doesn’t seem to ever talk about romantic love outside that one time that he mentions wanting it to feel like magic. Which is the quintessential way to talk about romantic love because it’s easy to fall back on cliche definitions of something you’ve never really felt. And he says he wants magic, but imo what he really wants is intimacy that comes through knowing someone extremely well and (for him) can only happen naturally—never from a hook up, or a dating app, or a blind date, or a set up.

This got long so the rest is under the cut.

I’ve seen a lot of people (generally not 911 specific) refer to these activities in relation to sexual orientation, and aspec versus allosexual, and I don’t know if it’s because aromanticism is less well known or (and in my biased opinion) because dating and romance are often referred to synonymously with sex because, generally speaking, most people are allosexual and alloromantic, and I suspect (but someone would have to tell me) that it's very difficult to completely separate the two, if at all. But to me, dating is a romantic activity more than it is about sex. a person can have sex with a friend; but if you were to ask a person, what makes friendship and romance different, a lot of people’s first answers would be “dating.” What’s different about dating versus hanging out with a friend: romance. And romantic gestures. flowers. flirting. It’s about intent to have it feel and be different than friendship that does not necessarily mean sex and being sexually attracted to someone

So Eddie not wanting to casually date seems like it's because he's aspec, but to me, and in conjunction with how he both approaches and talks about dating and romantic love, as well as how he seems to genuinely enjoy sex, and that he seemed genuinely attracted to Ana only having met her, (as well as his first interaction with Buck! He was checking Buck out in that gym and I will need a lot of convincing to disagree.), he can also be read as bisexual but demi/grey-romantic. He is flustered and knows her eyes are brown because he can’t stop looking at her. He looks floored when she walks out to his table on their first day. Both moments happen before he even knows her. And if being demisexual means a sexual attraction only after a deep bond is formed, it seems difficult to reconcile that definition to how he acts when he meets her.

He only asks people out after knowing them already and knowing that the other person is interested first. He met Shannon at 14 and then again at 18. Shannon came up to him and started talking to him at the lake. Ana he knew first as Chris’ teacher before they met again on the street with the coffee spill. And doesn’t she say she’s surprised when he calls. He met Marisol when he helped destroy her house and spent the day helping her put it back together. And they obviously talked that day, otherwise how did he have her number when he called to ask her out after the hardware store. She particularly has to goad him into asking her out.

He talks about dating as a performance—not because he doesn’t want to date women necessarily (although if he is sexually attracted to women, he could also be homoromantic but that’d be another post)—but because he doesn’t want to date at all. There was a part of me that loved being married to Shannon—a very specific wording he makes, not that he loved Shannon full stop (which, I’m not saying he didn’t, but to me it seemed that they loved an idea of who the other was instead of actually loving the person despite having difference, but again that’s a different post I’ve already made and doesn’t change how Eddie saw the relationship). But that he loved the commitment. And even then, he says a part of me. It’s such a strange way to phrase something that he seems to carry around with him permanently. He doesn’t want the “get to know you” stumble that happens in dating, which is a different type of pressure than getting to know someone generally or as a friend. He wants the stability and the familiarity and the solid loyalty of an already established relationship—which, when you remember that the relationship that fits that the most, is with Buck. Something he isn’t defining as romantic, yet he wants his romantic relationships to look like the relationship he has with a friend. Which is extra interesting to compare to how he literally panics at the idea of a ready-made family with Ana, something he genuinely seems to want, but panics because he does not know her as well. They’ve only been dating for months. And he’s had to do the “really get to know you” stage alongside the romantic/sexual dating.

He doesn’t think anything is missing from his life until Pepa tells him, well you can’t be alone. Because of course not, everyone has to be coupled or you’re miserable or so society is always telling people. Despite the fact that s6 Eddie is happy. He isn’t alone but Pepa (while well intended) worries about him being alone forever, because nothing is more tragic in a society that institutionalizes romance into the very foundations of daily life. (I'm thinking tax breaks for married people, how we name and identify ourselves, how single or platonic roommates have a harder time finding housing or rental places because romantic couples are seen as more stable, etc etc.) And he doesn’t start to see his life as missing anything until she suggests it. And yet still follows up the plan to be set up dreading it! Because dating is a performance to him. It doesn’t feel honest, or easy, or something that comes naturally, but something he’s obligated to do a) because he’s “supposed” to and b) because (for a variety of reasons) he doesn’t equate or consider developing a romantic relationship out of a longstanding friendship, despite that long standing friendship having the most appealing traits of what he’s looking for in a committed relationship.

Plus, he is good he is so so good at making friend with people because he notices and remembers and TO ME likely never comes at it even thinking any of his actions can be misconstrued as flirting or romantically interested. Because if you aren’t used to feeling those feelings you forget that other people do, and that they will read your actions a certain way. He mentions having a kid to a woman flirting with him as if that would put her off.

Look at his suggestion versus Hen’s suggestion to Chim about the proposal. He initially says “it’s kind of a big thing these days” aka what everyone else does because it’s now expected. We know Shannon’s pregnancy and the church was the main reason he proposed (twice really). Versus Hen who both had a very romantic proposal with Karen but also insists to Chim that he just needs to focus on Maddie and what they want not what everyone’s telling him he should do. Because Hen understands that romance is specific to a person, not a stereotypical idea that’s fed to us in stories and expectations.

His Christmas gift to her was letting her back into Chris’ life. (And compare that to how Buck acted with having to get Taylor a gift in s5?) Because “hallmark” or cliched descriptions of love don’t mean much of anything if you aren’t used to or don’t feel the same way. So the gift he gets Shannon isn’t sentimental or typical. He gets her the think she wants most, that really, has very little to do with Eddie’s feelings for her and everything to do with Chris. His entire proposal to her in s2 is about Chris and how they function as his parents. It has nothing to do with how he feels about her. The closest he gets is saying, I miss her too, after saying Chris misses his mom.

And the Buck of it all, jfc the Buck of it all: tell me someone else who can say I love you couched in the most painfully true statements while also revealing the deepest core of himself? The post-tsunami, the entire will scene. It’s not nothing. The thing he wants, craves, most is a committed relationship with someone who understands him completely, who he can be himself with and doesn’t have to hide the messy bits of himself to be cared about and cared for. And the thing is: none of that is romantic!!! There is nothing separating that want from friendship versus romance except intent. Which is whyyy Buddie reads romantic but they can’t be until someone says something (even to themselves). Yes, there could be an underlying romantic attraction behind their actions that they haven’t admitted to themselves OR it could be (from Eddie’s pov) a deep love, care, and want to build a life together that looks like friendship and can also look like romance but really, at the end of it, aromantisim argues, it can be neither. It can be the secret fourth thing we all joke about: not platonic, not sexual, not romantic, but something else, something that may mix elements from all of those “categories,” something that shows itself differently in both Eddie and Buck. It could be romance romance, that doesn’t feel like romance until the bond is there, and he wants to treat it like romance.

The idea that Eddie loves Buck because he’s Buck is a facet of demi-romantic. And being anywhere under the aromantic umbrella does not mean that a person can’t be in a romantic relationship, lest anyone think I think that a romantic Buddie relationship couldn’t or shouldn’t happen. To me, it already feels difficult to categorize and I don’t think that’ll change even if they “date” or get married.

Edit because I forgot to add: this would also work with the idea that Eddie is bisexual, because he can be sexually attracted to multiple genders, while also only having certain romantic relationships work.

#mytruth

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distressing things to say to your friends

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Once you care a little about lettering and fonts there’s no coming back

(Top to bottom fonts are: anime ace, back issues, minceraft regular, white rabbit, vcr osd mono, and determination snas

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You will be asked to care about friend’s boyfriends you didn’t even think were possible

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Google docs isn’t deleting your docs just because they have lewd text.

OP turned off reblogs of the post due to being debunked, but here’s a link of the reblog so you can still read stuff. Hate Google all you want but misinformation helps no one.

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It's not like I like you or anything! P-Pendejo!

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does anyone wanna wear matching rings so I can give you +1 AC and saving throws and have resistance to all damage. you can't go more than 60ft away from me btw

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Start Your Firefighter Journey with the 118 by selecting a character! Check out their special skills and compare their qualities to select a character you like most!

Heart - This character often follow their heart Head - This character will often think things through Heroism - This character will often do whatever it takes to save someone.

((xx))

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BUDDIE + ANGST + BILLIE EILISH a @911fanworksfestival gift for @uhhrellys