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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Marleyans
Porco Galliard
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Gaby Braun
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Falco Gleis
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Pieck Fingerone-shots/scenarios/drabbles
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Zeke Yeager
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Annie Leonhart
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Reiner Braun
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Eldians
Eren Yeager
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POV : You have to let Eren go but you keep holding on
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Mikasa Ackerman
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Armin Arlet
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Levi
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Hanjie Zoe
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Historia Reiss
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Sasha Braus
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Conny Springer
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Jean Kirstein
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Shingeki No Kyojin - Masterlist
Eldians :
includes : Eren Yeager, Mikasa Ackerman, Armin Arlet, Sasha Braus, Levi Ackerman, Historia Reiss, Hanjie Zoe, Erwin Smith, Conny Springer, Jean Kirstein
Marleyans :
includes : Reiner Braun, Porco Galliard, Annie Leonhart, Pieck Finger, Zeke Yeager, Gaby Braun, Falco Gleis
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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POV : You have to let Eren go but you keep holding on
POV : You have to let Eren go but your selfish love makes it almost impossible. How does your tragic love story sound ?
Type : angst ? ; song!fic ? ; gn!reader
Before reading : may contains spoiler even if I will stay vague. If you don't know how SNK end for Eren I would not advise you to continue. Not proofread.
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He knows he cannot escape his fate
"Something bad is 'bout to happen to me I don't know it, but I feel it coming Might be so sad, might leave my nose running"
Eren knew. He knew it from the start. It was when he discovered that humanity had not disappeared that he was certain of this, and this idea that something terrible was going to happen was reinforced when he had finally discovered the ocean. He knew that on the other side were the real enemies. If at that moment he had not made any decision he had felt that something terrible would happen. Something bad from which he might not come back alive.
"I just hope she don't wanna leave me
Don't you give me up, please don't give up"
He didn't look it anymore, but Eren was just a child of his time, a victim of the cruelty of history. Heavy responsibilities weighed on his shoulders, suffocating him. Was he afraid to do the right thing? At that moment, he just hoped that you would not abandon him. No matter what would happen, no matter what people would think, he would need your support. Eren needed to know that you would understand him even if he couldn't tell you everything, that you would trust him in the worst of times. That was the only certainty that would give him the strength to move forward and face his fate.
"Don't you give me up, please don't give up Honey, I belong with you, and only you, baby Only you, my girl, only you, babe Only you, darling, only you, babe" More importantly, he had to be sure that you would not give up. That you would have the strength not to give up, to fight for your life before others. Eren felt he couldn't be by your side and the thought twisted his stomach.
"Eren ?"
"Hm ?"
Your voice drew him out of his own torment. A silence passed in which you seemed to be looking for something in his eyes, a proof that your worries were perhaps unfounded :
"You're not going to leave, are you?"
Oh, so you knew too. He hesitated between a hurtful truth and a pleasant lie. It was too early for the first option. He gave a false laugh that was meant to be reassuring :
"What ? Of course not. Where would I go ?"
When you didn't seem convinced, he hugged you from behind, his comforting arms wrapped around your waist with a softness that was rare from him :
"Where would I go without you ? I belong with you and only you."
You felt comfortable in his embrace, safe from any danger. Eren felt your body relax, you believed him. He had not lied. He belonged by your side and that would only make what happened next more painful. He placed tender kisses on the back of your neck, etching every sensation into his memory. How could he leave you behind? It wasn't as if he had a choice. At least he was happy to have you in his arms, safe, and he would cherish this memory as his most precious treasure.
You miss him. You miss him so much that it's painful.
"Where have you been? Do you know when you're coming back? 'Cause since you've been gone I've got along but I've been sad"
Incomprehension. You were stunned. The night before you were sleeping next to him, the warmth of your bodies merging in that little piece of paradise that was your home. And now Eren, your Eren, the Man who promised to never leave you, was nowhere to be found. When he contacted you again and you were lucky enough to be able to send him a letter, the first thing you asked him was "when are you coming back? Eren had betrayed you, he had lied to you but you weren't angry, just sad. It was as if your body had forgotten how to live without him, you always seemed to be sick. Sick with worry for sure. And maybe that's more than a figure of speech. You were learning that love is a pathetic pain because after a while your whole being forgets how to be happy without the loved one. Yeah, you weren't physically hurt or to be pitied, you were just sad. Because of him you were experiencing the purest but also the sharpest saddness that a human being can feel without loosing his mind.
"Where have you been? Do you know if you're coming back?"
As time passed, the question was no longer when Eren would return, but whether he would ever return. Everyone was getting restless, some wanted to join him, others wanted to kill him. No one kept you informed, either out of fatigue or to preserve yourself. No matter, this question was always on your mind. What if he never came back? You chased the idea away as soon as it came up, but it remained somewhere in the back of your mind and it was unbearable. What hurt you most was no longer his absence. No, a more terrifying idea had taken up residence: you were beginning to love him alive as if he were dead without being able to say so. What a mess.
"I know you're sick Hoping you fix whatever's broken"
They didn't let you go to Revelio. You found Eren in a different man than the one who had left you. When others began to despise him, to distrust him, you did nothing. You took the face of your beloved who was now a prisoner and saw how broken he was. "Oh Eren, tell me you will fix what is broken in you. Please heal yourself. You deserve so much better...".
You really hoped he will fix it. HeHe abruptly removed his face from your hands and you realised that your wishes would not be fulfilled.
"Maybe it's a blessing in disguise (I sold my soul for you) I see my reflection in your eyes"
Whatever crimes Eren committed, you hoped it was an evil for a good. You never stopped hoping that you would have a happy ending that was worth all the sacrifices, all the suffering. Even if he had changed a lot, one thing hadn't changed about him: the way he looked at you. With a vivacious love and a slightly unnerving determination. And he looked at you often, he didn't lose sight of his reason to fight.
"We were too close to the stars I never knew somebody like you, somebody Falling just as hard"
Long afterwards you thought about your story. Eren was truly unique and so was your relationship. Why couldn't you have had your happy ending? Thinking about it over and over you come up with the strange theory that God or gods were jealous. Yes, that must have been it. They get jealous of mortals who have something precious, so beautiful and precious that heaven loses all value. So they take it, they destroy it, they make you miserable. If men were not a little unhappy they would never want to die, they would run away from death with all their might and maybe they would escape it. Yes, that must be it, your story was too good to be true. Eren was too good to be true. What a shame.
This fanfiction is based on a playlist. You can find it on my spotify :
Hope you enjoy it and that you choke on your tears imagining a tragic love story with Eren.
Part 2 : He misses you too + Your pain is his + It's time to let go (coming soon)
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Tokyo revengers - masterlist
Sano Manjiro "Mikey"
• Pov : You deserve better : angst, song!fic You're hopelessly devoted and in love with him but he doesn't even care
Ken Ryuguji
• POV : You deserve better : angst, song!fic You're hopelessly devoted and in love with him but he doesn't even care
Sanzu Haruchiyo
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Rindou Haitani
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Ran Haitani
Nothing for the moment...
Kakucho Hitto
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Izana Kurokawa
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Shinichiro Sano
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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POV : You deserve better - Tokyo Revengers
POV : "You deserve better but you don't want "better", you want him" or "You're hopelessly in love and devoted to him and he doesn't even care"
Include : Sano Manjiro "Mikey", Ken Ryuguji "Draken
Genre : angst ; fem!reader ; song!fic ?
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Sano Manjiro "Mikey" - You get me so High, The Neighbourhood
" I wish I never ever told you all about it
But I just had to let you know
I never meant to hurt you though"
If you could go back you would. You would go back to the past, to the time when you could stay by Manjiro Sano's side or rather by "your Mikey's" side. The Toman was no more but you stayed by his side, you could see that something in him was breaking a little more every day but naively, you thought that your love could heal his wounds, soothe his heart and protect his smile.
Mikey rejected your feelings so abruptly that you wished you had never spoken. Why didn't you just settle for your platonic relationship, follow him quietly, accept that no, you couldn't make things better? For his part, Mikey regretted not being more gentle with you. He knew what love could do and knowing that you, his best friend, loved him that way terrified him. How could he accept the love of such an angel? He didn't deserve it, he would never deserve it, he would only put you in danger. He didn't regret his decision, but he wished you knew that he had never meant to hurt you.
" Used to stick together
You're my best friend, I'll love you forever "
Even years later you never stopped loving Mikey. He had been your one and only love no matter how hard you tried to love another, you just couldn't. Mikey, although he was the head of Bonten, still had a very special place in his heart for you. You were and would remain his best friend. Did he ever hear from you? No. Did he ask you out like the old days? No. But he loved you and would always love you. That's why he asked his executives to watch you, to protect you from afar. And you were the same. That's why at night, before going to sleep, he was your last thought and you were his.
Neither he nor you will forget what you had shared, joyful and dark moments, sometimes painful, but that you had always gone trough together
"If you can just let me know if it's okay
To call you when I'm lonely"
One day, Sanzu reported that he had seen you with a man, alone and smiling "like newlyweds".
You were already devouring his thoughts, when loneliness was eating him up he was dying to come back to you without ever doing it. This new element changed the game... not for the better
"Y/n ?"
You were stunned. How many years had it been since you heard his voice? You had called him dozens of times, and he never picked up, and now he was calling you.
"Mi- Mikey?"
On the other end of the line you could hear his heavy, irregular breathing. Mikey knew what he was doing was wrong, but some dark, selfish, love-starved part of him couldn't stand the thought of you loving another like you loved him.
" Can I call you... When I'm lonely ?"
You accepted without a second thought, full of joy, a joy which didn't last long.
Mikey called you, yes. He called you when he needed to feel safe and loved, when he was lonely and vulnerable but he never accepted your love, he never acknowledge you as someone important to him like he did before. He couldn't let you love him like you wanted but he didn't wanted to let you be happier with an other man.
In the end, you were the lonely one, the hoplessly devoted, always here for him when he needed you and alone when he was fine by himself.
Ken Ryuguji "Draken" - Washing Machine Heart, Mitski
"I'm not wearing my usual lipstick
I thought maybe we would kiss tonight"
You can't remember a time when you weren't head over heel for Ken Ryuguji. How could you? He was always strong, brave, kind. He is a perfect boy, a golden friend. He is the man that little boys want to be and little girls want to marry. Not that you ever imagined that your feelings would be reciprocated, Ken was always nice to you but it was all platonic. Yet you hoped that one day that would change. That's why you were shocked when he asked you to meet him in the evening, in a park known to be frequented by lovers. You tried to look your best, you had never spent so much time getting ready. As you were leaving, glancing at the mirror you stopped for a moment. You couldn't wear that lipstick, what if he wanted to kiss you? On that silly thought you took the time to wipe your mouth, removing all traces of your favorite lipstick.
Yet that day Draken did not notice any of the efforts you had made. He told you about Emma's death, which had happened a month ago but which you knew nothing about. He told you how much he loved her, how perfect she was and how he missed her. He couldn't seek comfort from Mikey who was grieving himself so he turned to you, who had always been there for him, who had always cheered him up.
At first your heart clenched with jealousy as you heard him talk about this girl you could never live up to, then you felt like throwing up, disgusted and full of guilt as you noticed that you were jealous of a dead girl, a girl who didn't deserve to die and who had left too early.
You didn't get your kiss that night
"Toss your dirty shoes in my washing machine heart
Baby, bang it up inside"
Thinking about it, you only owed your misfortune to yourself. It was you who invited Draken to cry on your shoulder. He used, because you wanted him to, your heart to soothe his own, to fill the gap caused by Emma's death and wash away his regrets.
"Baby, though I've closed my eyes
I know who you pretend I am
I know who you pretend I am"
More out of attachment than love Draken had ended up asking you to be his girlfriend. If he was a nice and romantic boyfriend you were still unhappy. You could see that he was projecting Emma onto you. He gave you gifts that she would like, not you, he put her favorite songs in the car, and called you by her name in the bedroom.
At first he denied it, telling you that you were imagining things, but now he didn't hide it anymore.
"Emma wouldn't have chosen that dress, she was better dressed".
"Emma would have told me what was wrong, she wouldn't have acted like a spoiled brat.
And if by chance you dared to take it back, telling him to stop talking about Emma was worse.
"Don't talk about her, you'll never live up to her that's for sure but being jealous of a dead girl... really Y/n? Grow up."
"Why not me?
Why not me?"
You were trying, really trying in spite of yourself, to be more like Emma. But you were never good enough for Draken. Why not give up and find someone who would love you for who you are? If you were tempted by the idea, you would give up quickly. Who were you again? Did you really love those stuffed animals or did you start loving them to be more like Emma? Were you still yourself or a pale imitation of the one Draken really loved? It was so cruel, almost tragic. In spite of all your efforts, he could only think of her. At night when he was sleeping peacefully, whispering her name you thought "Why not me? Why not me?". Knowing that the answer was obvious: you were not her.
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Part 2 : akashi "sanzu" haruchiyo, rindou haitani (coming soon)
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Hello! This is my first time interacting with you but uh I’d like to make demon slayer request: where reader is a half demon and has the sharp nails of a demon and like their ability relies on them?
Characters: Mitsuri, Sanemi, and Giyuu also have a good day ❤️❤️
Author's note : Hello cutie ! Thank you for you request, I really loved to idea ! However, I am not sure about what you mean by "their ability relies on them" so don't hesitate to tell me if my work isn't what you expected I would correct it gladly ! Also, I did it as headcanon/preference but if you want another format just ask for it (I don't bite I swear). Have a good day/evening too !
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Sanemi Shinazugawa : At first Sanemi hated you. To be honest he wanted to kill you. He hated your nails as well because it was a mark of your demon part. But with time, when he realized you didn't eat human he accept you. He find your nails quite usefull during fight like you can easily inflict damage you can inflict damage on your opponent with only your hands. He likes that with it you're quick to intervene in case of danger this way he knows that you can handle demons easily without help. Moreover, it gives your fighting style an animalistic side that he appreciates a lot. He should hate that demon part of you but it's the opposite and if someone says something rude about your fingernails he won't hesitate to stand up for you by telling them that it's especially useful for fighting.
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Tomioka Giyuu : Giyuu was suspicious at first, because you are half demon he didn't trust you but unlike Sanemi he accepted you more quickly. At first he won't pay attention to your fingernails until he sees you using it and realizes how sharp it is. He likes knowing that you can defend yourself quickly and that you don't have to fear most demons. For him it's a bit as if you always have a weapon at your fingertips to defend yourself no matter the situation. Nonetheless, if he likes you (as a friend or a lover) he would be worried that you hurt yourself with it. He'll ask you to cut them sometimes because you would only need to form a fist in a moment of anger to cut yourself but he won't insist if you refuse.
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Kanroji Mitsuri : One who loved you since the start. She thinks your demon side makes you special and appealing. She immediatly noticed your nails and found it pretty. She thought that it was really feminine and badass at the same time. She would definitly paint your nails with many color, carefull not to cut herself with it. Just imagine Mitsuri gently taking your hand in hers as she gives you a manicure saying how beautiful your hands are. She will really admire your fighting style, sometimes she would watch you rather than her oponent. She also relates to you al lot because she knows that being different isn't easy, she would compliment you all the time to make sure that you know that your difference (specially your nails) are beautiful.
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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Fushiguro Megumi x reader : I want you in my life
Summary : After a long time without any news, you meet your crush and friend from college by chance. You want to spend time with him, to understand why did he leave but maybe you've taken paths to differents.
Warnings : a really cliché scenario but written with love so you will forgive me :)
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Nobara, Yuji and Megumi were on the bridge for a mission. They had been sent to investigate some strange phenomenon taking place near Megumi's old school. They had been advised to look for a bridge that was apparently "haunted" but there was not the shadow of a curse. Just as they were leaving, a voice interrupted them :
_"Megumi?! Wait !"
The dark haired boy immediately recognized your voice. He hadn't expected to see you again and yet he had hoped. The three stopped walking and turned around, they saw you scampering behind them, you stopped once you got to Megumi's level, his two comrades watched the situation carefully, trying to find out who you were.
_"It's been a long time ! I can't believe it's really you!"
_"Um... yeah, it's been a while. What are you doing here Y/n?"
_"I live here remember? It would be up to me to ask you the question, you disappeared without warning! What brings you back ?"
_"Erm... Listen Y/n, I'm really busy now, I don't have much time to chat ... sorry"
_"Oh, okay ! I didn't mean to bother you! I'll leave you alone but... can I get your number? It would be nice if we could see each other just to talk a bit like before. You do not mind ?"
You thought for a moment that he was going to refuse but he sighed, knowing his two friends wouldn't stop teasing him afterwards, and pulled out his phone. You gave him your number happily and he did the same. You wished him a good evening and greeted his friends before continuing on your way. Nobara and Yuji hastened to question Megumi :
_ "Who was she??", Nobara was so virulent that Megumi almost felt attacked.
_ "She's..."
_ "Where do you know her from?", Yuji wasn't better, trapped betwenn the two, Fushiguro couldn't place a single word.
_ "She asked for his number, she probably wants a date with our Megumi. Did she hit on you before?"
_ "What? One time she said..."
_ "You are right Kugisaki! Maybe she wants to become his girlfriend, that's why she wants to talk to him! We have to call Gojo sensei!"
_"Why don't you answer our questions? Talk!"
_ "I'm trying but you won't let me say a word!"
They fell silent and looked at Megumi intently, waiting for answers. Megumi scratched the back of his neck nervously.
_ "She's Y/n, a... friend from middle school"
On the way back Nobara and Yuji asked more questions and complained that Megumi never said anything to them.
The next day, the sorcerers still had no further leads on the disappearances, Megumi's lack of focus wasn't helping. Indeed, he regularly glanced at his phone and seemed lost in his thoughts, which was in contrast to his usual seriousness. Akari Nitta, head of the exorcism school assistants, tried to trace the thread of events with them but it was useless, each time they went back to square one. Megumi's phone suddenly began to vibrate, he hastily pulled out his cell phone and, over his shoulder his two friends could read: A new message from Y/n. Their reaction was immediate :
_ "It's Y/n! What is she saying?"
Megumi was tempted to answer "None of your business" but reading your text, he thought to himself that the advice of his friends was perhaps not too much because he had absolutely no idea what to answer you. Either way, Nobara would have been able to grab the phone out of his hands to read what your message.
_ "She asks me if I am available this afternoon or tomorrow so that we can meet at [insert the name of a fast food restaurant that you like]."
Nobara pokes his cheek with a smirk :
_ "Anw Megumi has a date ! ~"
Her little remark sure made the teenage boy blush.
_ "It's not a date ! She said I could invite you, that she would be happy to meet you."
_ "It is really nice ! Tell her we're coming!"
_ "Yuji is right! What are you waiting for?"
_ "We have a mission to accomplish dumbass !"
Akari intervened :
_ "You can go. We're turning go round and round in circle here. I will return to question the comrades of the missing, your presence will be useless. I call you if I have anything new"
Having no other choice, Megumi quickly replied that he would join you in half an hour with his two friends.
While walking, Yuji noticed that his mate looked a little anxious :
_ "Something wrong Megumi? You don't want to see her?"
_ "No! Yes! I mean... It's been a long time and..."
_ "And?"
_ "Nothing, forget it."
Fortunately for him they had arrived at their destination, so Yuji and Kugisaki could no longer bother him with all their questions. All four of you took places and the conversation flowed naturally. It was your turn to endure an interogatory :
_ "So Y/n, you're Megumi's friend? How you got to know each other?, started Nobara
_ "We were in the same class at college and ... I don't know. We always got along well I guess. Since we were two rather serious students we got together all the time to work."
Megumi was watching your face intently, your smile was so sweet when you mentioned him. You hadn't changed, you still radiated kindness, love and enthusiasm.
_ "Oh you were study-buddy ! , Yuji exclaimed, So Megumi was a super cool delinquant and a good student at the same time !"
_ "Huh? A delinquant? Not at all ! He fought sometimes it's true, but he always was a really nice boy... He is so tranquil and relaxing. Nothing to do with a thug."
Megumi felt himself blush slightly upon hearing your compliment. You recounted some of your good times, your voice was so tender that even these two friends kept silence.
_ "It was funny to see this idiot put in his place by Megumi, even if I don't necessarily like violence. Oh! There is also the story of abandoned dogs! And evenings with Tsumiki! Ah, these were good moments... Don't you think 'Gumi?"
"Gumi", he had forgotten how much he loved his nickname, although he had spent all of his middle school pretending otherwise.
_ "Erm, yes, i guess we had good times"
He had never been too talkative. You would have liked to ask him why he left without telling anyone, without warning you, how was Tsumiki ... You would have liked to tell him that you really missed him, that you were worried ... You wanted to asks him about your friendship. But you weren't alone so you simply asked :
_ "How is life in Tokyo ? You're happy in your highschool ? You have other friends ?"
_ "It's fine. Friends? Mmh... There are Inumaki senpai, Maki and Okkutsu-senpai. They are quite nice."
At the end of the meal you had a good time but you still had to talk alone with Megumi, so you offered to walk with him a bit. He must also have things to tell you because he naturally accepted.
_ " 'Gumi?"
_ "Hm?"
_ "Why did you leave without warning?"
Your voice was weaker and you avoided eye contact. Megumi thought he must have really hurt you, left without warning when you had just tell him ...
You were at the park with Megumi, it was a Saturday afternoon and the two of you used to go out. Sometimes you were talking but most of the time you were working or enjoying the sun in silence. Megumi was reading a new book on a bench while you walked among the birds a bit. Suddenly you sat next to him :
_ " 'Gumi?"
_ " Hm?"
_ " You really are an amazing person."
_ "Huh? Don't say things like that, you're..."
You seemed so sincere and you were so cute when you spoke to him like this that Megumi was getting terribly embarrassed. It was like he couldn't say anything other than "shut up" or "stop saying things like that".
_ "No, I really think it. I really like you Megumi."
You regularly told him that you like him but this time he felt it was different. Maybe it was because you put on a new dress or because you kept playing with your fingers nervously. Anyway he felt that you were opening your purest feelings to him.
_ "When I am with you I am really myself. I feel really good by your side..."
His breath caught in his throat, were you confessing your love to him? One day Tsumiki had told him that it was obvious you had a big crush on him but he had never taken it seriously.
_ "Y/n, are you ..."
_ "I just want you to know that ... You are the best person I have ever known 'Gumi. Even if we take different paths, I wish you were always a part of my life, as long as it lasts "
Silence. What could he have answered you? That he also want you in his life no matter what ? That right now, like most of the time since a while, he really wanted to kiss you? Over his dead body!
He must have been silent a little too long because you quickly apologized for making him uncomfortable and left without another word.
Whatever. His hands became sweaty, he couldn't explain everything to you. Not now. How could you have understood a sorcerer's world to which you did not belong?
_ "Did you not tell me because of what I said ? I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, it wasn't a declaration of love. Well, it was one but ... I mean ... I wasn't expecting any response I just wanted to... Forget it ... It was stupid"
He stopped walking :
_ "It wasn't stupid... It was one of the most beautiful things that anyone said to me..."
You were happy to hear it but you still did not understand : Why did he leave and never have contacted you again, you who was his friend
? The best he's ever had to be honest. He ran his hand through his hair, frustrated :
_ " Argh Y/n ! You know I suck with this ! It's complicated... Let's say I left town to go to a very special school that you can't find elsewhere and... We've taken different paths. "
That's when Ikari decided to call. Megumi picked up and mumbled a "okay" before looking at you, embarassed. He wanted to stay with you but he needed to do his work.
_ "Erm, I need to go but..."
_ "Oh! It's okay... Are you staying in town for a long time ?"
_ "In fact, if everything goes well I am leaving soon but..."
Oh? He had come, he had turned your feelings upside down and soon he would be leaving and for good this time. What a fool to have thought that you could get as close as before ...
_ "You can call me if you want. We... Maybe we could see eah-other during holidays... So I could explain everything to you."
A huge smile appeared on your face. You nodded vigorously. Fushiguro sighed and wanted to tell you "no need to be so happy" but he restrained himself. He left but stopped on the way :
_ "Y/n?"
_ "Hm?"
It took a deep breath and courage to tell you :
_ "I want you in my life as long as it lasts too"
And just like that he was gone but this time he left butterflies in you stomach. You knew you would see him soon, would become the same friends as before or ... a little more.
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fangirlsmood · 3 years ago
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When you gives the jjk's men compliments
How the Itadori, Megumi, Inumaki, Yuta & Gojo would react when you compliments them ? What kind of compliments are the best to give them ?
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Itadori Yuji : Itadori have one objective in mind : becoming strong enough to help and protect others, specially his friends and you. Despite his incredible strength, he often feels like he is too weak to achieve his goal. Therefore, it would make him really happy if you pointed out to him all that he managed to accomplish. He would also love when you tell him that he is really strong, that you trust him to protect you and the others.
Even if he appreciates receiving them, he will just thank you before moving on :
"Thank you Y/n ! I'm going to train hard to be even stronger !"
However, if on the moment he will not give it much attention, later he will rethink about it. It would be a motivation to surpass himself :
"Y/n believes in me, she said I was strong, I can't disappoint her"
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Megumi Fushiguro : Megumi won't be particularly touched if you compliment his looks because he doesn't find that apparences deserve much attention. He might become a little a flustered because he wasn't expecting it but that's all.
Megumi is quite an insecure boy thus he need reassurance but not about how pretty he is. Because he often compares himself to others, although he will never tell you, he will need you to tell him that he is as strong as the others. If you compliment his efforts or his progress his little heart will melt.
He will also appreciate that you compliment his divine animals, when you do he feel like a proud father.
Nonetheless he is rather embarrassed when he receives compliments. Although he is touched he doesn’t really know what to say. He will surely turn his head and try to deny it :
"My technique isn't that impressive, you exaggerate ..."
"It was normal, anyone would have done it, no need to make a big deal out of it"
"Yeah, they are good dogs"
Sometimes when he is alone he will smile remembering it and wonders how true is what you said.
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Inumaki Toge : Since he cannot speak he is often afraid of being misunderstood. He is another one who really likes when you emphasise his efforts
"It's amazing that you created your own language to communicate with others!"
I think he would like discreet compliment about his cursed marks. As many people only notice his cursed technique he would like you to compliment him on other of his skills. He would also be really touched if you told him what a good friend he is.
"You're really responsive! Yuta was very lucky you were there to protect him!"
When you compliment him, he smile immediatly. Depending on the compliments, he can also make intense eyes contact with you (in a tender way) to let you know that it really touched him.
He won't actively think about what you said but it will fill his heart with joy at the time.
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Okkotsu Yuta : Another one who don't give a fuck if you point out his look, he doesn't really take care of himself so he won't believe you. He will really appreciates when you tell him that he did great things. He would be touched if you said that he is a good friends, a good boyfriend and why. Because he is really modest and total sweetheart he will always return back the compliments :
"You're so sweet and caring... I am so lucky to have you"
"You're the sweetest. I am the one who is lucky to have you, you're the best girlfriend we could dream of."
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Satoru Gojo : He knows he is strong and handsome but he will still appreciate when you tell him he looks good. He would tease you about it the whole day :
" Good? I am more than good, I am handsome !"
Seriously, you would be the one who end up flustered
" Oh Honey, I know that you can't resist my beauty but no need to be so flirty ~"
Gojo would be more touched if you compliment his quality as a teacher or is attitude (the fact that he isn't afraid to argue with the elder to defend his values). He likes knowing that you valid his way of seeing life and his opinion in general.
He will brag about your compliments to others or use it to justify his actions, he might deform a little what you said :
"Meguumiii ! Y/n said that I was the best teacher in the whole world ! Aren't you lucky to have me ?"
"Why should I question myself ? Y/n agrees with me"
Gojo is already confident, he has a huge ego but he still appreciates your compliments, mostly because he loves to tease you about it.
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Jujutsu kaisen x insecure reader with nose bump
Summary : How the jujutsu boys will act as your boyfriend when you're insecure about your nose bump. Because, let's be honest, this complex (which shouldn't be) deserve more attention.
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Itaodri Yuji : This sweet boy would not immediately notice that you are self-conscious about your nose. He wouldn't really understand why your bump bothers you because for him your nose goes perfectly with your face. He would end up hearing you talk about your complex or notice that you often look at your profile with a pout. He won't pay much attention to it unless someone brings it up. He will naturally reassure you with sweet words
"It's a very nice curve, it gives you a nice profile".
If someone makes a comment about it, he would give his opinion without thinking.
"There is no problem with her nose. I found it gives her a lot of charm."
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Fushiguro Megumi : Megumi gives little importance to the physical, whether it is his own or others. Because of it he didn't understand why your nose made you insecure. He was suprised the first time he saw you examining your profile in front of the mirror, wondering what you would look like if your nose were different. Megumi isn't really good with words so for a while he didn't say nothing about it but one day he got tired of seeing you bothered by your own face so he speaks his mind
"Stop thinking 'bout your nose ! It's perfectly fine !"
"You can breath with it ? So what's the matter ?"
He can seem a little harsh but it's his way to assure you that your nose is fine. If he saw that it didn't work he would try to be more sweet in private.
" You have no need to worry, you are pretty "
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Inumaki Toge : Onigiri Boy doesn't talk much but he is very observant, especially with you. He will not confront you about your complex though he will make sure to reassure you through discreet but gentle gestures. He would peck the end of your nose (in your private moments (surely by wishing you good night when you are lying next to him). As every time you are not well, he will try to take your attention by doing silly things with panda for example or by taking you out. If he heard someone being rude to you he would glare at them, thinking they are idiots. He wouldn't become really angry, more annoyed.
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Okkutsu Yuta : This poor baby loves you more than he loves himself so it's hard for him to know that you feel so bad about yourself. He would try his best to cheer you up. He feels like he's bad at comforting you but he's one of the best. He will compliment you often and would be very tender in his words and gestures
"You have an angel's face"
He will tenderly brush his nose against yours whispering sweet words, he might hold your hands too during this moment, tracing soothing patern on the back of it. He just want you to feel loved and to love every inch of yourself.
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Satoru Gojo : Gojo is handsome and he always knew it so at first he would'nt take your insecurities seriously. He thought it was just a phase that would pass quickly. When he noticed that it really bothered you, he made his goal to make you feel better. Gojo would playfully boop your nose or peck it whit a smile just to see you embarassed face. If you decide to confide about your insecurities he would take for exemple Cleopatra, Annie Leonarth and other well known beautiful women just to show you that it's a very elegant and charming shape.
"No need to be embarassed by your nose, it is perfect in the middle of your face ~"
"Cleopatra had a nose bump and she was one of the most beautiful women in the world, but you're the sexiest I promise"
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Kyojuro Rengoku x reader x Tomioka Giyuu - Another love
_Warnings : spoiler about mugen train
Synopsis : After the death of your husband you slowly take back a taste for life ... with another man
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_ Senjuro ? Where are you going like this ?
_ Ah (Y/n)! I am going to take a walk in the village, to sell the wood that I collected this morning!
_ Oh Senjuro... You don’t have to do this.
_ I want to ! It won't bring in a lot of money, but you can buy yourself a new kimono or a pretty brooch. 
Knowing that he was as stubborn as his elder brother, you sighed :
_ Fine. But don't get too tired and get home quickly.
He embraced you tenderly before leaving, promising to be careful. Senjuro had always loved you very much, but it was only since his big brother was no longer there that he got into the habit of hugging you tight before each departure. You didn't know if he was doing this because Kyojuro asked him to take care of you or because he was afraid of losing you. 
Since your husband's death everything had changed. You would wake up every morning in a cold bed, the smell of your loved one was gone over time, and getting up was a struggle. Even though the pain was sharp you had no choice: you had to stay strong for Senjuro and Shinjuro. Although you had some money aside without Rengoku's salary, you had to accumulate the jobs while running the house. Senjuro was doing his best to help you, like this morning when he went to sell wood. He too had changed. He was even more determined to become like his brother, a demon slayer. You didn't agree, the idea of ​​losing Senjuro like you had lost Kyojuro made you sick and you had become a little overprotective with the child who for some time had ceased to be one. Shinjuro hadn't spoken about the death of his son. You acted like the perfect daughter-in-law and you took care of him the best you could. Sometimes you resented him for not having been more present for his sons, for never having told them that he was proud of them but now you understood why the passion that had inhabited this man for so long was extinguished and had given way to bitterness. 
You and Senjuro supported each other, he allowed you to face life one more day. He had become your reason for living. Him and ... Tomioka Giyuu to be honest.
The sun set slowly and you were worried to death. Senjuro had not returned. You were going out to get him when there was a knock on the door. You rushed in hoping it was him. 
_ (Y/n)! Look who I found on my way !
Tomioka stood beside him with a straight face. You laugh inwardly imagining your little Rengoku forcibly taking him to your home, you visualize very well Giyuu unable to say no to this child full of passion. Tomioka nodded polietly his head to greet you and you invited both to enter. 
You served dinner for the two boys. Giyuu wanted to help you but you declined. You brought his meal to Shinjuro who was eating alone in his room as always and when you returned Senjuro and your guest was in the middle of a conversation. Giyuu seemed to be telling a story and you were surprised at how attentive Senjuro was. Usually he was too talkative to listen to anyone, getting into long stories, unless it was his father or his brother. His eyes were shining, you didn't want to interrupt them so you took a seat discreetly. Giyuu continued his story :
_ The demons were not that strong but they were clever and numerous. The civilians were terrified but he told them "Don't be afraid, everything will be fine, there will be no deaths or injuries"...
You choked. He told of his first mission as a pillar, a mission carried out with Kyojuro. You knew it because your husband had enthusiastically told you about it in detail. Giyuu stopped the two boys looked at you worried :
_ Oh ... sorry, maybe I shouldn't...
_ No it's me ! I shouldn't have asked you to tell me about a big brother ... Sorry (Y/n) I didn't think ...
You drank a mouthful of water before smiling, reassuring them quickly :
_ No it's good, everything is fine. I was just surprised but keep going, i want to hear the rest.
Giyuu hesitated a bit but ended up continuing his story. His voice was very monotonous but he recounted the events with precision for your viewing pleasure. Senjuro let out little noises, sometimes of admiration, sometimes of surprise. It had been a long time since he had been so passionate and you were really happy to see him gesticulate all over the place and ask for more. Contrary to what you might think, hearing about your late husband didn't break your heart. On the contrary, it was like talking about good memories. This impression left you perplexed. Did you have the right to think so? Not crying anymore when hearing about him ?
At the end of the meal Senjuro went to bed, claiming that the day had been exhausting. You accompanied him to his room to tuck him in as if he were a fragile little baby. Being mothering like this embarrassed him but he didn't say anything knowing that this kind of thing would reassure you, so you knew he was sleeping peacefully and safe. When you returned to the kitchen Giyuu had cleared the table and was doing the dishes.
_ It is not for the guests to take care of this kind of thing, you said playfully taking from his hands the plate he was washing.
He then grabbed a tea towel and wiped up what he had already washed :
_ I want to. 
You knew him long before you got married but since the death of Kyojuro, you and Giyuu had become closer. He came to visit you regularly, to make sure you were okay. You even cry on his shoulder more than once. When you felt overwhelmed by your responsibilities his visits were a great support. With him you felt less alone and stronger, enough to face another day. 
You lost yourself in your thoughts for a moment and found yourself staring at him. You tell yourself that he was more than beautiful. You really wanted to put a hand on his cheek, just to feel the warmth of his skin. Suddenly you realized what you were thinking and your face flushed with shame. Noticing your change of attitude Giyuu broke the pleasant silence that reigned :
_ You should go to bed if you're not feeling well. I take care of the rest.
You told him where he could spend the night before leaving. This night you had a lot of trouble falling asleep. You rolled around, crying silently. You were falling in love with another man than Kyojuro. You felt terribly guilty, you felt like you were betraying him. You never thought about being with anyone other than Kyojuro, you never thought he would actually die before you. Now you didn't know how to shut up those emerging feelings and it was gnawing at you, you thought you must really be a horrible person. 
Giyuu didn't get much sleep either. He thought of you. When you first met, how beautiful he found you. Would things have been different if he had told you ? He  remembered your wedding, Tengen had said that you and Rengoku were "both flamboyant" and he had agreed. He had silenced his feelings but now he couldn't. Each time he told himself he wouldn't visit you but each time he couldn't help it. He had to be sure you were okay, he had to take care of you. He felt guilty for loving you, you who would never be his. You were Kyojuro’s and you will always be. He was so ashamed. Wasn't that disrespectful to his deceased comrade ? It wasn't the first time he thought of you before sleeping. Many times, before and after you were married, he had found himself imagining his life with you, but he always ended up telling himself that it was impossible. He wasn't as strong, sociable or funny as Rengoku. He wasn't as good as him and clearly he wasn't good enough for you.
You were awakened by noises coming from the inner courtyard. Going to see you discovered Giyuu and Senjuro training. The child tried to touch him with a wooden katana but Giyuu still dodged. You sat down and stared at them. Senjuro was really happy to be training with another person especially with a hashira. Someone took a seat by your side.
_ He's improving.
_ You should tell him to his face, Shinjuro.
_ The one with him... It’s Tomioka Giyuu ? The water hashira ?
_ Yes. How did you guess ?
_ Senjuro talk to me. He mentionned him many times recently. 
It was really unusual for Shinjuro to come talk to you, usually you just went through the formalities.
_ Can I help you ? You need something ?
He ignored your question. 
_ He seems to be a good men. Senjuro told me that he helped you a lot. 
You were a little uncomfortable.
_ Yes... He’s a really good person.
_ And a strong one. A good model for a boy, someone you can count on. 
_ What do you mean ?
It was really unusual for him to talk to you so much. Did he know your feelings ? His gaze fell on your hand :
_ You still wear it.
He talk about your wedding ring. You have been playing with it nervously since the start of your conversation. You didn't know what to say. The atmosphere was heavy. He went on :
_ Kyojuro isn’t here. We didn't talk much to each other but I know there were only three things that mattered for him. Become a pillar, the happiness of Senjuro and your happiness. He wants ... He wants you to be happy. Alone, with him or with... someone else.
You looked at him with wet eyes. It was as if Kyojuro, through his father, gave you permission to love someone else. You had the right to be in love with Giyuu, it was not a crime. You didn't have to fight your feelings, to blame yourself anymore, you thought you were going to cry in relief.
_ Senjuro is very observant. He told me that you and Giyuu were maybe more than friends or at least you could be. You look at this man like you looked at my son. You are lucky. I've never met someone like Ruka, if it had been things might have been different. I would have been a better father, a better man.
Your lip had started to tremble. You wanted to talk. To say what ? That you didn't know what to think anymore, that you were afraid to love another man ? Seeing that you were about to crack, Shinjuro tells you what you needed to hear :
_ You loved my son, you love him and you will always love him but now it's this man you are in love with and you have the right to.
You burst into tears. Shinjuro ran a comforting hand along your back. 
_ (Y/n) ?! Something’s wrong ?
Senjuro noticed that you were crying and he and Giyuu were running towards you. You tried to dry your tears but you couldn't control anything. He hugged you, his father left you and Giyuu stepped aside. It took you a while but you slowly regained your composure even though you were still crying :
_ It's okay now, don't worry. 
You offered him a big smile to support your point. In the evening, Giyuu's crow had come to warn him that he had to leave in the morning. 
Before sleeping you looked at your hand for a long time. You had a thought for Kyojuro before removing your wedding ring. It was strange not to feel the weight of the ring around your finger. Nonetheless you fell asleep peacefully.
You woke up at dawn. Giyuu was just getting ready to leave.
_ Giyuu ! Wait !
He stopped, he noticed that you no longer had your alliance which left him confused but he said nothing.
_ There is a festival in town next weekend. There will be a lantern throw ... If your mission is finished, would you like to go together? 
You thought it sounded a bit too much like a date so you pressed to add  :
_ Erm... We could take Senjuro and propose to Shinjuro even though I'm sure he'd rather not go out ...
He looked surprised but a small smile quickly lit his face :
_ My mission will be finished.
_ See you next Sunday then. Be carefull.
_ See you next Sunday.
You watched him go and when you no longer saw him Shinjuro appeared beside you. He had obviously heard everything. He looked at you smiling
_ What makes you smile ?
_ Nothing, I'm happy that's all. And I also tell myself that big brother is very happy at the moment.
And he was right. Kyojuro was happy knowing that you loved and was loved by a good men like Giyuu.
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author notes : After seeing the film this one shot had been running through my head for a while. I hesitated for a long time to write it, I even thought of making the reader pregnant but finally i like the result. I really hope Rengoku fans move on (with Giyuu maybe). Falling in love again after her husband's death is a sensitive topic, but I see Rengoku the type who wants his wife to be happy, alone or with someone else. Maybe i am wrong. There was no romatic interaction in this one-shots and I regret it a bit. Maybe I should do part two, now that I say so I could write about the festival ...
Thanks for reading, every time I see someone liked my story my heart melts. I take any criticism (positive or negative). And if you see a grammar or spelling error, please let me know (English is not my first language so I don't always realize it), I will correct it.
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Tomioka Giyuu x reader - inferiority complex
Summary : Noticing how Giyuu doesn't know his own worth, you try to remedy his inferiority complex.
Warnings : Spoilers about Giyuu’s past.
author notes : Seeing our little Giyuu blame and put himself down breaks my heart, it's time for someone to comfort him and tell him what an amazing person he is.
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_ Tomioka-san ! 
Hearing your voice, Giyuu stopped in his walk and turned to you, nodding his head to greet you. You noticed that he was holding a bunch of papers, probably a mission report he had to return to Oyakata-sama.
_ You’re already back ! After filing your report, would you accept ...
_ No.
_ But...
You've been begging him for a while to train you. He had saved you a few months ago from a demon and since then you had only one wish: to become like him. You were infinitely grateful to him and you were so admiring. Not really knowing how to fight but wanting to be useful you had started to help at the Butturfly estate. However you wanted to do more, you wanted to save people before they could get hurt like Giyuu had done for you.
_ Ask another person.
_ Kocho-san is already taking care of Kanao, Rengoku of his little brother ... Everyone else is too busy to spend time with me. I want you to train me... please.
He looked you straight in the eye for a moment then sighed, unable to resist your perseverence :
_ Fine. I will train you but don't expect me to be a good teacher.
Since that day Giyuu trained you every time he return from a mission. You couldn't be happier. The training was difficult, tiring and sometimes painful but for you it was an honor. Even if he didn’t said it Giyuu was proud to see your progress. Besides, it was nice for him to have company. 
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One day, at the end of a hashira meeting, Rengoku came to approach him.
_ Tomioka ! We don't see much anymore (Y/n) at the Butterfly estate. I heard that you train her.
 He nodded, Rengoku let out one of his loud laughs :
_ It's surprising ! I had offered to train her but she had refused. Is she doing well?
_ She’s not bad.
It was surprising indeed. You told him that no one was available to train you and he learned it was a lie. Why had you been lying to him? He didn't understand what you could gain from it.
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That night he found you serving dinner for both of you like you did almost every day since you had become his student. 
_ Welcome home ! How was the meeting ?
_ Good.
His gaze immediately made you uncomfortable. Usually he always gave you a warm look, while now he was looking at you coldly, as if he had difficulty recognizing you. He took a seat in front of you and began to eat. After a heavy silence which weighed on him as well as on you, he decided to speak :
_ Why did you lie to me ?
You did not remember having committed such an act against him. Seeing your confused stare he developed his point :
_ Rengoku told me he offered to train you. Why did you tell me that no one has time for you ?
You didn't think he would find out someday. Nothing in his attitude or his voice let show anger but you knew he was necessarily upset. Giyuu was a man of his word and honor, for him a lie was a lack of respect. You were terribly ashamed, however, you manage to stammer an explanation :
_ Oh ! It’s not what you think ! In fact it is but... I mean I didn’t really thought about it... Believe me it was far from my intentions to disrespect you, I would have never offended you on purpose ! I just... I just wanted to be trained by you.
_ Rengoku is a really good and strong man. You should have accepted his proposal. 
He marked a pause.
_ Go back to him, if you ask him I think his offer still stands.
Was Giyuu denying you? Did he no longer want you as a student? He got up and turned his back to you as if to end this discussion but you got up in turn, you wanted to stay by his side: 
_ I don’t want anyone else to train me ! 
_ It would be better for you.  He will be able to take care of you and make you evolve. 
Suddenly you realized what was going on. Giyuu thought Rengoku was a better hashira than him. Didn't he know how strong he was too? You stood in front of him so you could look him in the eye, so he would know you weren't lying :
_ You’re strong too. And you’re a good professor. 
_ You don’t know what you’re talking about. I am stronger than you that’s all. 
_ You’re a hashira ! You’re one of the strongest !
He lowered his head you saw in his eyes, him who was usually so impassive, a hint of sadness.
_ I don't deserve this title. I shouldn't be there.
_ What do you mean ? 
You noticed that his hands tightened on his haori.The words struggled out of his throat, as if part of him wanted to hold them back while another wanted to get them out :
_  Those who owned the two parts of this haorie should be there, they should be alive. Them, not me.
It was the first time Giyuu had talked about his past. You kept silent, you didn't want to rush him. You just wanted to understand him, reassure him, make him feel surrounded. 
_ (Y/n)... I know you admire me and it's nice to have someone so dedicated by my side but you don't know everything. You idealize me. I am not a strong. I am not a good person.
One of his hand clenched the red part of his haorie :
_ I wasn’t strong enough to protect my sister...
His other hand clenched on the other part :
_ I shouldn't have passed the Demon Slayer exam ... Sabito should have, he was much stronger, much better in everything, but he protected me and it cost him his life.
You were speechless. Knowing that Giyuu, who was so generous, strong and usually impassive, had suffered so much broke your heart. You wanted to cry for him but you knew it would only cause drama. You will cry another day, now you needed to cheer up your beloved master.
_ Rengoku will know how to protect you, you will be safe with him. 
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The next morning Giyuu couldn't find you anywhere. He assumed you had chosen to join Rengoku. He was sure it was the best option and it suited him for the moment. He felt ridiculous for confiding in you last night, and was too embarrassed to see you again. Nevertheless he had become so used to your presence that he already missed you. Part of him regretted telling you to leave. 
Fortunately you came back little less than a month after your departure and with a surprise. You ran to him yelling a "tomioka-san" as a greeting before handing him a package. A little taken aback he examined it for a moment. Impatient you pressed him a little : 
_   It's a gift for you! Open it !
He followed your instructions and found a nice little bundle of papers taht were of different sizes and different colors. The writings and the ink used were also diverse. You started to explain nervously :
_ I wanted you to know how amazing you are, so I asked the hashira, your old master and a few of the people you saved to write down what they liked about you or what you had did good for them ... Oyakata-sama and Gyomei-san could’nt write but they dictated to me and I transcribed everything ... I didn't think it would take so long to contact everyone, sorry ... 
He had already started to read. Everyone had written something even Obanai, Sanemi and Shinobu had found a few nice things to say. Shinobu had recounted a mission accomplished with Giyuu and admitted that without him it would have been a failure while Obanai and Sanemi were content to write a single sentence where they said that Giyuu was not "that bad" and that "some of these techniques were quite impressive". Urokodaki gently reprimand him so that he would stop always blaming himself and telling him that he was proud of him. 
And finally there was your letter. It was the longest and as he read it he wanted to cry with joy. He wondered what he had done to deserve so much praise, he wanted to deny all these compliments but you had written a real reasoning full of examples to support your words that he was obliged to recognize his qualities. 
He felt his heart melt. it must have taken so much effort from you to collect all these little words, it was a real treasure that you had just offered him. You watched him silently in his reading which lasted a long time and since he didn't say anything you wondered if it was really a good idea :
_ Erm... Do you like it ? It's okay if you don't, but keep them anyway. That way you could always reread them when you needed to ... you know ... know how amazing you are.
A smile covered his face and you noticed that his eyes were bright like a child who discovers the world. His smile was so faint you might not have noticed though it was the sweetest you've ever seen. 
_ Thank you. It's the nicest thing anyone's done for me. It must have taken a lot of effort from you to convince Obanai, Sanemi and Kocho and put it all together.
_ You deserve all the effort in the world.
You gave him a huge smile and he believed you. He felt all the weight he had on his heart, all his guilt shut up in the face of all these kind words. For the first time Giyuu told himself not only that he was lucky to have you by his side but also that he deserved to be happy. Every time he read one of the letters he said to himself, although it was still hard for him not to doubt it, that he was worthy. More than feeling worthy, he felt loved.
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Tomioka Giyuu x reader - Unloved
Tomioka Giyuu x reader 
Summary : You feel unloved
author notes : Thank you very much for your interest in my work. It’s my first time writting one-shots therefore I am reaaallyyy exciiited ! English is not my first language, there must be a lot of spelling and grammar mistakes, please let me know so I can improve and correct them.
I really enjoyed writing this one-shots, I hope you enjoy reading it as much!
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You've been by Giyuu’s side for several months now, however it was hard to read him. You loved him, no doubt about it. Everybody knows how much you cared for him, you showed it  every day whether it is by defending him against the other pillars, by surprising him with his favorite meal or by telling him what an incredible person he was. You were totally devoted to him, a little too much for your friend : Shinobu Kocho. 
_ (Y/N), I am being honest with you, you deserve someone better. You're wasting your time.
You were both strolling around the HQ gardens, enjoying the sun. Shinobu had just returned from a mission and you were impatiently awaiting your lover's return. 
_ How can someone be better than Giyuu ? He is handsome, strong, generous. He is one of the braviest man I know and...
_ Tomioka-san is a good Demon Slayer okay, it’s his only quality. And when it comes to you, he doesn’t treat you like he should. I don’t want him to broke your heart.
You stayed silent. You knew what Shinobu thought of Giyuu, although in your presence she avoided speaking ill of him. However she never hypothesized that one day he could hurt you. Seeing that you didn't know where she was going, she sighed :
_ It’s painfull to watch you showering him with affection and him being so... cold, so annoyed. You loved him too much... more than he loves you...
You knew she was only expressing her opinion, that she was just protective and that she didn't want to hurt your feelings but you started to feel insecure about your relationship. You didn’t answer, too busy thinking about Giyuu. Were you annoying him ? He had never said it out loud but you were sure that he loved you... until now.
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When Giyuu came back you weren't there to greet him with a hug like you always did. A little worried, he rushed to your shared house. He had miss you so much that he just want to feel you against him, to see you smile and hear you laugh. Where could you be ? Venturing around the place he spotted simmered salmon with daikon on the kitchen's table. It was cold but he didn’t care, your little attention make is heart melt. When he finally found you sleeping pacefull he admire you, thinking that he was such a lucky men and that you should really be exhausted to fall asleep before seeing him. He joined you carefully. It was hard for him to find sleep when you haven’t hugged him. He pressed his chest against you warm body, it was so good to feel you again but he thought that your cuddle were much better. 
The next morning you became distant. Giyuu was confused but assumed that you needed space. You were torturing your mind 
He desn’t love me
Why would’nt he said it if he was in love with me ? 
I am a bother, an annoying girl
He deserves so much better
He isn’t happy with me
You considered breaking-up with him and then you realised that even if you were leaving together for some weeks now you never started dating. He never asked you out, he never said that he loved you. The only times you kissed it was you who iniciated it, same for the cuddles or other acts of affection. What if he just tolerated your presence, too nice, confused or lazy to push you away ?
During this time, poor baby was touch-starved. You acted like if you were just roomates, avoiding him most of the days. His face was impasive but he knew that something was wrong without putting a finger on it. Soon he will be leaving again for another mission and he didn’t want to pass his precious time with you in this conditions. He coud’nt handle it anymore, he needed to confront you. 
_ (Y/N) ?
His voice was sweet but firm. You let go of what you were doing, giving him all your attention. Your beautiful eyes disarms him. Your gaze was so pure, full of adoration but this time there was a hint of sadness. Giyuu was not good with words, it took a little while for him to continue :
_ What’s wrong ?
you considered for a moment pretending everything was fine but you will never lie to him, not looking him straight in the eyes. Maybe it was the moment to solves problems 
or maybe it was the moment he broke your heart
_ Am I... Am I annoying you ?
You had spoke so low that if Giyuu wasn't so attentive he wouldn't have heard you. You held your head down, you had rarely been so anxious. Exposing your feelings made you inconfortable for the first time. Giyuu was one of the person you trusted the most, you knew that he  wouldn’t make fun of you but you were ashamed to expose your insecurities in front of him.
_ Annoying me ? 
He was clearly lost, in other situations you would have laughed at his confused look but it just made you unconfortable. He was so expressionless. It had never bothered you before because you knew what was on his heart. You understood him without words. But now you were wondering if you hadn't been an arrogant little idiot to think that you knew what he was thinking, what he was feeling.
Faced with his silence, you couldn't help but throw out all the questions that were running through your head.
_ I mean... When I touch you, when I'm always around you saying stupid things ... You must be so tired of putting up with me under your roof ... You don't push me away but you don't say anything to me either. You... 
Your voice broke but you continued tears streaming down your face, unable to control yourself. 
_ You... You don't love me, you don't tell it, you don't show it to me and yet ... I don’t why but I have believed that you do ... I tried to be the one who could give you back happy and I... failed ... 
Giyuu was shocked. Watching you cry was unbearable to him. He would have liked to be like you, you who always knew how to comfort him. Slowly, he approached you and brushed your hand with his. Gently, he intertwined his fingers with yours and squeezed your hand lightly in his as you had so often done for him. You stared at him for a moment, trying to read his gaze. 
He looked back at you and suddenly he pulled you towards him, pressing your head against his chest with a firm hand. It was the first time he initiated such an act of affection.
_ You’re too good for this world... You’re too good for me... 
He hugged you even tighter, he wanted to make you feel all his love with its tight embrace. The beating of his heart had calmed you down. You breathed calmly, feeling at peace in his arms. All those thoughts that had tortured your mind in the last few days slowly flew away by giyuu's gentles gestures and words. 
_ You don't know how happy you make me (Y/N)...
He paused
_ I am in love with you. 
He never told you. For him it was obvious. How could he have made you feel so unloved? You were his little angel and he blamed himself for not taking care of you like you took care of him. His cheeks were bright red from his declarations, he had never exposed his feelings like that before. 
He was a little bit embarassed about expressing his love, mostly because he didn't know how to, but in the end it wasn't as difficult as he thought. He pressed a kiss to your temple and pulled away from you. You smiled, your face lit with such intense joy that you thought your heart would explode with happiness. Giyuu wasn’t the best at expressing his feelings but he swears he would do it more just to see you this happy. 
You had never felt so loved and never again doubted your lover's feelings. 
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