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since we all use the same lingo here on tunglr.hell add the tags that come up when you put in “lmao” “kin” “mood” and “worm”

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a lot of fic and discussion seems to center around this idea of crowley discovering how horrible the other angels are to aziraphale during the body swap and being so surprised and upset and taken aback by it. but i don’t think that’s really what’s going on here.

i think crowley knew all along what was going to happen to aziraphale in heaven.

that’s why crowley’s so patient with aziraphale. that’s why crowley’s so protective of aziraphale.

that’s why crowley’s so willing to pine from afar and to be aziraphale’s friend even though aziraphale won’t admit it. that’s why he’s so willing to do the song and dance of careful phrasing and rephrasing his requests until he hits on the one aziraphale can agree to. that’s why he’s there is 1793 and 1941 and 1800. oh, 1800 - textually, literally saving aziraphale from having to go back to heaven. that’s why crowley’s always circling him, literally watching his back. 

crowley understands all of aziraphale’s reluctance and dodging because crowley knows what heaven’s like. he knows first-hand how arbitrary and capricious it can be, how vindictive and how dictatorial - whether you read that as coming from god herself or just from the archangels who say they act in her name. he understands what it’s like to be under the thumb of an abusive, uncaring family that wants you to conform, because crowley was part of that family. and although the show focuses on crowley’s angst at having been cast out, i don’t think it’s confusion over why he was cast out - it’s confusion over why god cast him out. he was cast out for asking questions, maybe hanging out with the wrong crowd on the wrong day, but his confusion is what happened to god and to heaven that it became the sort of place that would cast him out for such a thing. 

crowley knows that aziraphale isn’t valued by heaven. crowley knows that aziraphale is mostly ignored by heaven. crowley knows that heaven doesn’t understand aziraphale, and that aziraphale aches to conform to heaven’s standards but can’t help that he just isn’t like them, and what aziraphale has to lose if he is caught failing to conform to heaven’s standards. crowley knows that heaven isn’t coming to save aziraphale, and he knows that aziraphale is afraid of heaven, of what heaven would do to crowley if they were caught, of what heaven would do to him. crowley knows all that in 537 and in 1601 and in 1941 and in 1793 and 1800 and 1861 and in 1967. he knows that. 

so, no. i don’t think crowley was surprised by the treatment aziraphale receives in heaven. i don’t think crowley is at all taken aback by their glee at finally pruning aziraphale from their ranks. i don’t think he’s unprepared for them to give the demon permission to punch aziraphale, and i don’t think he’s surprised to hear gabriel tell him to just shut up and die already. 

i think crowley knew all that was coming, and i think part of what he wanted, in body-swapping, was to protect aziraphale from it. 

of course they also want to survive their respective punishments, but they know they’re going to be punished, and crowley knows that aziraphale expects hell to be horrible. that’s easy to deal with, when you know what to expect. of course you expect your sworn enemies to treat you terribly. of course aziraphale knows that hell is dangerous and brutal and sure to be merciless in punishing crowley. aziraphale expects that. 

but aziraphale didn’t expect the angels to confront him on the street and punch him in the stomach and shove him around. he didn’t expect heaven to turn its back on humanity and choose to go to war over choosing to end it. he really thought that he’d be able to avert the war, and that heaven would want to avert the war. and crowley knew that. 

crowley’s not surprised that heaven is vindictive and hateful when he goes up wearing aziraphale’s body, and he can protect aziraphale from the reality of that. crowley’s ready for it. crowley knows its coming. and crowley’s protecting aziraphale from it, and at the same time, finally putting to rest his own demons about being cast out. it’s his confrontation of the family he was turned out from when he couldn’t understand why. he’s facing up to the fact that they don’t love him anymore, and that that’s not on him - it’s on them. he’s ready for them to be mean. he’s ready for them to be apathetic. they didn’t care what happened to crowley, and he knows they won’t care what’s happening to aziraphale. 

but crowley cares what’s happening to aziraphale. crowley is fierce in his protection of aziraphale and always has been. crowley is glorious in his love of aziraphale and always has been. crowley is calm, and he is centered, and he is sure that this is the right thing.

crowley isn’t surprised. crowley’s in love, and he’s certain of what he’s willing to give for it. he’s certain of the importance of saving it. he’s certain that aziraphale is everything heaven should be and isn’t and he’s willing to die to protect it, and it shows in every frame he wears aziraphale’s face. 

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how to sleeb (a guide by me, an intentionally sleep-deprived person)

music! lofi helps a lot personally, but try to find something that you can tune in and out of, so while you’re lying there you have something to occupy your mind if you want. i developed a playlist personally and you can listen to it on spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IpykcRdawzoNYjlLPzeoo

blue light! it’s pretty obvious but trying to not expose yourself to tuns of blue light before bed is probably not a Good Thing 

breathing exercises, like square breathing are nice. 

i mean there’s also just purposefully staying up until you can’t keep your eyes open but that doesn’t strike me as healthy and you can’t really function after a day or two of that 

if you can’t fall asleep, or you’re just lying there, don’t look at the clock! it will just stress you out more if you know, since it enables you to calculate the supposed amount of sleep you can get. 

ok this is dumb but honestly finding ways to get weight on top of you or something to cuddle with or tuck under your shoulder sometimes helps

no counting sheep we die like men count fucking rhinos 

actually my fav tactic currently has been listing all of the books i own by where they are on my shelf. i can’t do that rn because i’ve packed boxes, but having something to visualize can help.

speaking of which!! visualization is a like proven relaxation technique! you can pick a memory you like, or a place that makes you feel safe. imagine it in detail. ask yourself questions. for example, say you like being at the beach. ask yourself, “who is with me? what are they doing? what am i doing? where am i? what textures am i feeling? what sounds are there? is it windy? why the fuck did that seagull keep eating my spilled cheezits?” 

again these are all personal strats

i’m also having no filter atm because its’ 3:45 am where i am so i’ll try to delete this later if i remember that i made it

oh also apparently my mom’s a chaotic good and i,, didn’t know that

goodnight

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rare picture of,,,baby boy

i was going to add to this meta but ‘tis 230 am and i’m so fucking tired. 

For the Sanders Sides fan asks: 🐍 (What’s your opinion about Deceit)

(lemme tell you when i first saw this ask this was basically my reaction)

But I Love the boi. He’s my fave, and admittedly by a lot bigger of a margin compared to a couple weeks ago. Don’t ask me why??

But he’s my favorite type of “villain,” even if we don’t know everything about him yet. The style/character design? The wordplay? The entirety of the courtroom scene? Not to mention I find his reaction to frustration at the end of that bit both hilarious and a little relatable. He’s doing his best and I’m very grateful for that. 🅱️lease listen to him. It’s all he wants.

Also: I can generate so much angst. So so much. It’s a gold mine.

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SLKFJLKDFJS:F

the mothman statue really didn’t need to add that but they did (x)

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y’all sleeping on ryan “foot in mouth” bergara’s face after he finishes turning away. this is how it feels to kill a group chat. 

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honestly logan’s outfit is so simple but like he interacts with it so much more than the other sides do, with the exception of maybe deceit, who’s a fucking fashionista diva. like him straightening his tie and i also think about this gif every fucking day. 

I’m sorry but can we just take a second to just,,,,

hhhhhhhhhhhh

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My personal headcanon

I refuse to believe Remus didn’t take the chance to stand on Roman in Dealing with intrusive thoughts

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OH YEAH I REMEMBER YOU THAT’S HOW YOU GOT ON MY DASH 

I need more people to follow who watch Sanders Sides!!!!! Rb or like if you’re a blog who posts a lot about The Bois™️, and I’ll check y’all out? My faves are Deceit and Logan so keep that in mind uwu

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HI HELLO YES I AM A LOGAN STAN AND I WISH I WROTE MORE BUT I JUST DON’T HAVE THE T I M E 

I need more people to follow who watch Sanders Sides!!!!! Rb or like if you’re a blog who posts a lot about The Bois™️, and I’ll check y’all out? My faves are Deceit and Logan so keep that in mind uwu

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OH MY GOD 

*cha cha slide voice* now its time to get tender

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hi! i don’t come up with prompts very often but uhh 

1. screenshot redraw! 2. draw a costume for crowley or aziraphale in an era where we haven’t seen them in the show (we saw regency, wwii, etc) 

3. aziraphale more like azira-feral ;) 

4. role-swaps!

5. draw pepper and anathema hanging out! they’re two of my fav characters.

these are all suggestions so pick and choose! or don’t use them alsdfjasf

hey if you’d like to help me out/ are a little bit interested, i’d appreciate some good omens related drawing prompts! can’t guarantee that I’ll get to yours but i’d still very much appreciate it! 

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i’m feral for appreciating community member clubs sign me up 

important information

@i-am-avacado and i have decided to form a ‘loving andy club’ in order to provide support to @alltimevirgilant

pls reblog to show ur support and to formally join this very important club. this is extremely important

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No song will ever make me feel the way Believe Me, Maizey does.

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my jaw’s on the fucking floor

R a t

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“weird looking” honey no?? it’s adorable and the expressions are awesome 

“not at all good” uhh false statement alksfajdlf infinity/10 keep it up???

Hello! This is the first animation I have ever done....ever. It’s very weird looking and not at all good but I tried really hard, and I wanted something to show for the couple hours I spent on this.