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I'm desperately trying to get things done before the end of the year and thought: man, I'd like Astarion telling me to concentrate and keep going. So I quickly wrote this as a reminder to myself that Astarion would believe in me and tell me to keep it up - maybe it helps you too...

Astarion is watching you and he'd much rather you focus again, love!

“You’re distracted again, love”, Astarion whispered to you and softly squeezed you where his hands were on your hips.

“Oh, am I?”, you snarled and tried to turn around - but the vampire wouldn’t let you. So you only turned your head to glower at him.

You sat comfortably on his lap and tried to get writing done you desperately needed to get finished. For hours you had tried but it just had been an uphill battle the whole time.

Not wanting to just keep listening to your complaints, Astarion had come over and softly nudged you to get up so he could sit down and gently place you down on his lap. You had let it happen with a soft sigh, already feeling a bit better with his presence surrounding you.

“My love, if your writing is as colourful as your curses that must be a masterpiece already”, he had said in a low teasing tone.

And you had chuckled hysterically and then almost started to cry. When you had wanted to bury your face in your hands, Astarion had caught your wrists and leaned as close as possible to gently whisper to you.

“I know you can do this, my heart”, he had whispered directly into your ear, making all your hairs stand on end. “You’re brilliant, my sweet, utterly incredible - this stack of paper just doesn’t know it yet”, he had continued while his hands had reassuringly massaged your arms and shoulders.

“I’ll try to keep that in mind”, you had replied still not fully convinced.

Astarion had made a low noise of disapproval, then he had wrapped his arms completely around your waist and pressed a kiss to your cheek.

“Be a dear then, remind me again, how clever and amazing you are”, he had demanded of you. And then he had went on to talk everything through with you. Making you spell out all of your concerns, what you had planned, what you wanted to achieve.

And in talking about it with him you already felt how the knots in your stomach and in your head seemed to loosen, if just a little.

When you had reached a point where you had felt motivated again to jump back into writing, Astarion had smiled victoriously to himself and had kept watching you work. Evenly stroking down your back in a calming, steadying manner he had leaned his head on his hand, propped up on the side of the chair, and admired how beautiful you looked when you were so deep in your thoughts. How you furrowed your brows, how you tapped the quill against the paper in impatience when a word didn’t come to you immediately.

And he made sure you wouldn’t distract yourself more than needed by calling you out whenever your mind seemed to wander. Just like he had just done.

“Maybe you are distracting me”, you pouted at the vampire while he tapped the tip of your nose with his index finger with a grin.

“Exactly the opposite, darling”, he replied and you saw the sparkle in his red eyes. Softly but with determination he grabbed your chin and turned your head away from him and angled it down: towards your stack of papers and the unfinished writing.

“Focus now and write, my dear, I’ll reward you for it later, if you’re going to be a good girl now”, Astarion promised in a low, almost rumbly voice and pressed a kiss directly behind your ear, making you shiver.

You took a deep breath and took up your work again - you needn’t be told twice now.

Your vampire proudly kept watching you: “Keep going, you beautiful thing!”

~~~ And now I really need to get back to my own writing - abdwelfqwdwg...

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“wah wah all girls care about is astarion wah” yeah you know what? i cant imagine why women gravitate toward a character who feels like they are only worthy of attention if they’re sexualized and are under constant pressure to be a sexual being due to a traumatic experience that made them think that they’re only good for sex and really cannot perceive himself outside of being objectified and serving others. cant possibly have any idea why girls like astarion you know

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eternity

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Still can’t get over how beautiful Astarion is. Like goddamn

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the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me

just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.

like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.

in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.

how am i supposed to act normal about this.

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If you got Burlington on your Spotify wrapped and you don't know where that is and you're wondering.

Burlington, Vermont is on the northeast coast, north of New York City and New Jersey. The city is on a lake a few hours from the Atlantic ocean. The area is called New England because it's at about the same latitude as England and it's rainy and overcast most of the year and because it was the first area of America that was colonized by mostly English at first so it has about the same weather as England and the oldest buildings made by white people in America.

So people there probably like music that goes with staring at the stormy water and thinking about the past.

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We lay here for years or for hours Your hand in my hand, so still and discreet So long, we'd become the flowers We'd feed well the land and worry the sheep

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“I want to decompose in a bog” well you clearly don’t know the first thing about bogs. poser

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🙃 Regular reminder that while Hozier has amazing love songs, he is ALSO very outspoken about his leftist politics, specifically anti-fascism, anti-racism, reproductive rights, Palestinian rights and more.

Take Me To Church and Foreigner’s God are scathing critiques of organized religion, specifically the Catholic Church and the colonization of Ireland.

Moment’s Silence is about oral sex but it’s ALSO about how that specific sexual act is often distorted to a show of power rather than that of love.

Nina Cried Power is an homage to various (mostly Black) civil rights activists from the US and Ireland and a call to follow their path.

Be criticizes anti-migrant policies and Trump and his ilk.

Jackboot Jump is about the global wave of fascism and about protest and resistance.

Swan Upon Leda is about reproductive rights and the violent colonial oppression of Ireland and Palestine.

Eat Your Young is about the ruinous way the 1%/capitalism and arms dealers prioritize short-term profit over everything else to the detriment of the youth/99%

Butchered Tongue is about Irish and other indigenous languages being suppressed and erased by imperial powers.

If any of the above surprised you, please, please delve deeper into Hozier’s music, you’re missing such an important part of his work.

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Noah Kahan is to Hozier as Ethel Cain is to Florence Welch send tweet

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Love that Hozier is just kind of let loose to wail throughout Northern Attitude.

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stream northern attitude ft. hozier right now

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hozier will hear a song and be like "is anyone gonna add some hauntingly beautiful wailing to this" and not wait for an answer

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Do y’all know where the phrase “eat the rich” comes from or do you just repeat it cause you heard it elsewhere?

It’s not a bad thing, I just saw someone say “we never said who would eat the rich” and realized a lot of y’all might not have heard the full quote

It’s from Rousseau and it’s “When the people shall have nothing more to eat, they will eat the rich"

And, well, there’s a lot of people with nothing to eat…

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Please know and understand when dealing with a depressed person Part 2

Daily routines and activities are exhausting

Keeping up with our daily life is draining. Even though it’s the same routine every day.

So, if we gotta deal with something out of the ordinary or with something additional, we get drained very fast.

Meaning we are probably not even attending or leaving early. Saying we are tired and that work has been very exhausting that day. Please don’t take it personally.

But the truth is: we are tired and exhausted every single day.

We are easily irritated

Feeling annoyed and irritated is pretty common when dealing with depression.

And all these annoying little things pile up. Meaning we get easily angered and frustrated.

It sounds silly, but we get triggered by the tiniest things up to a serious mental breakdown.

Our sleeping pattern is very irregular

Sometimes we don’t sleep at all. And other times we can’t get enough, even having to take naps during the day.

Sometimes we stop caring about our appearance

We forget eating, forget to take a shower, forget to do the laundry or forget to clean up our home.

And sometimes we eat unbelievable amounts of food, shower 7 times a day and do all our chores up until everything is done. Then we get bored

Holy isolation

Hanging out with friends is very exhausting. Yes, once in a while, we do and it’s working out fine.

Other times a single conversation drains all the energy out of us.

Additionally, because we get frustrated and annoyed so easily, we just wanna isolate ourself, because we just gonna get annoyed anyway. So what’s the point?

Obviously that also means that we are avoiding people who wanna help us.

Losing interest

Did you have hobbies? Activities you loved doing? Do you still do them?

No. Because you lost interest in them. Because they no longer fill you with joy.

You feel nothing.

Pessimistic mindset

The glass is always half empty.

We start to think: “Why bother?”

Because we are not getting anything from what we do.

We can’t concentrate

When you are talking to us, we often don’t really hear what you are saying. The moments of silence in between, we are in our own little world and when you start talking again, we miss the first part of the sentence. Sometimes we ask you to repeat it and sometimes we don’t.

Plus, we are really forgetful. We forget about meeting up with you, to call you back or special dates, like birthdays.

Dealing with us

can be very difficult.

But understanding our behaviours and a little of what we go through might help you with interacting and supporting us.