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my heart feels like it’s shattered into a million pieces it feels like the end of us, no more me and him i know it just could be a rough patch but if he doesn’t want to change how am i supposed to go on??

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me when i basically have no friends anymore but at least i lost 14 lbs 😍😍😍😍😍😍

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ive been so paranoid about food all weekend since i can’t weigh myself at my dads place …. ive lost ten pounds and ill rlly go insane if ive gained

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(I luv making unfunny memes)

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all i ever wanted when i was a kid was just a good fucking friend but i can never get that whether i leave or they do it just never lasts even if im so certain ive found my “best friend forever” fucking corny ass saying for a reason because it doesn’t fucking exist it has no meaning

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i knew things would all go to shit

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bruh idk why it’s all of a sudden just been so easy to not eat i feel it may have to do w me going off birth control and also smoking weed a lot again i only wanna eat when i have munchies

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i just want to die i hate myself and no cares enough to see me living why am i still here

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the way him just giving me basic orders makes me so horny it’s insane

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i want him to ruin me and control me i want him all over me omg i feel like i’m in heat bruh

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for you i hold my breath

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WHYWHYWHWYWHYWHYWHY WHYW HY

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genuinely wonder how he’d think of me if he saw my tumblr or if anyone in my life saw these posts

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is this just karma ? is this just life punishing me for all my rotten behavior ? how i was so two faced and craved validation i threw my own morals out the window ? is it my fault i was just a 16 year old gil who wanted to feel fuckung normal for once spending most of my life feeling so isolated and shut out from everyone my age how i couldn’t make friends proper when i finally did i was doing everything i could to keep it that way i don’t understand what’s wrong with me i want help i don’t want to be like this

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my confidence is so bad that i can’t even be happy around my friends anymore im only happy w my bf but then i get so insecure especially if he mentions one of my friends i feel like he’d rather date one of them over me one day im gonna snap im already so close im trying to be better but i wanna shut myself away from everyone life is not worth all this

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my friends r probably the most triggering thing in my life yet im so lonely i can’t leave, i miss when i could just be happy with my friends i miss when i didn’t cut sm ppl out my life i miss when i felt confident in myself im nothing now