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Johnny... doesn't hate joytoys. People caught that, right? He literally tells you at JigJig Street that he doesn't. The whole deal with Clouds isn't (totally) his being mysoginistic or hating sex workers Just Because - he's pitching a fit from the moment you go to rescue Ev precisely because

A. he's a tired anti-corpo ex-military anarchist who's just seen how little effect his act of literal terrorism had on making a difference. And Judy's plan is gonk and doomed to fail. He knows it. He even tells you at one point that he still probably would have been right there with the two of you physically fighting for the dolls' rights back before when he was alive. But now he recognizes that this plan isn't going to work, isn't going to make a difference, and IS going to get a lot of people killed.

B. He's a disabled vet who had his arm amputated and replaced without so much as a by your leave and struggled so badly to accept and adapt to his prosthesis that he went cyberpsycho from it and believed his hand was evil and controlled him to commit acts of violence. He's a deserter. His dad sold him for a pack of cigs when he was four. He's firmly anti corpo. He's an artist who despises soulless carictures of real emotion. He made the choice to effectively commit suicide in 2023 and had that death ripped away from him by one of his best friends.

Look at me. It's the body autonomy trauma.

Johnny dislikes the entire concept of dolls BECAUSE they voluntarily give up control of their body/awareness during their sessions and that freaks him the fuck out. And also because he views the concept as wish fulfillment via AI rather than an act with real emotion/mutual enjoyment and consent behind it.

Did anyone else fucking get that or am i just arbitrarily connecting dots

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is johnny just somehow glitched in my playthrough or something?? because sometimes when he appears in long dialogue sequences, the glitching noise and the blue glitching effect on his model plays over and over again.

like in the quest when you meet rogue for the first time and johnny appears, it played his sound affects normally, but at certain points his sfx LOUDLY replayed, along with his model glitching like it does when he first appears.

i cant even tell what the cause is because its so inconsistent, but its happened 2-3 times already. :,((

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suffering rockstar

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i realized when i remade my v for a new playthrough that ive just been not drawing his fucking bridge piercing.

ive drawn it maybe once ever and i dont even think it ended up in the final drawing.

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silverv + posts that remind me of them

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best of johnny 01/???

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its just embarrassing when you make a fandom related post and it doesnt get any notes like okay. so no one want to play tuoys with me. no one wants to play with our little guys together. okay thats fine. yeah its cool... puts my hands in my jacket pockets. kicks a beer can that was on the side of the road a little

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having more silverv thoughts and i have to share them.

i know the scene at johnny’s grave is THE silverv turning point, with johnny and v both showing off how much they truly care for each other but—that moment at the hotel with johnny when he decides to give v his dog tags???? god i love that moment too. esp with how johnny calls the tags “proof” of him turning over a new leaf; where he intends to save v instead of just letting them die. and i really think it’s such a HUGE gesture, especially coming from johnny! and not even solely because of his physical promise to v but because of what the dog tags once represented.

johnny fought in the corpo war. he was a blind follower under arasaka’s boot for a long time. hell! his robotic arm is arasaka made. he was a soldier. he tells v how he rotted inside that hotel room for days, or even weeks, realizing what a terrible human being he’s become under arasaka and just how horrible corpos truly are.

and yet— something he resents so much, he changes into something for the better. the dog tags once were proof of his rage. his blind, ignorant rage for arasaka, for the war, but mainly the rage he felt towards himself. johnny truly hated himself at this point in his life. it was his own pivotal moment in life where he, then and there, would take a stand against corpos. so much rage embedded in the metal tags but there he is; offering them up, his own twisted hate, to v. but with an entirely new meaning.

he offers the tags not only in proof of wanting to save v but in proof that he cared more for them than he let on. changing the tags meaning from his promise of rage to turning them into something v could have to think of HIM. to think of him at that moment. where any time the metal lay flat on v’s skin or when v would absentmindedly fiddle with the tags; johnny wanted them to not think of how angry he used to be, or how much he genuinely despised himself—he wanted v to think of this new side of him. this softer, caring side where he promised to give up his own “life”(so to speak ofc) so that v may live. the greatest sacrifice anyone could accomplish and johnny was willing to do it, for v! never rouge or alt or kerry or anyone else that mattered in his life, no, for v.

and it’s almost funny how johnny shows his feelings before this moment too. how as soon as v had passed out from the relic induced seizure, his first thoughts were to, not only save v, but to take them to the hotel where he had stashed his rage. knowing in that moment that he wanted to give up his tags as proof of his literal physical devotion to v. and god he was entirely devoted to v the minute he dragged the body to that hotel room. not only to serve as a place where v would be safe while they were incapacitated from said relic malfunction—but to also prove to v how much he was willing to change FOR v. because he cared so much about them even if he couldn’t really find the right words to say it.

knowing he took what was once his rage for arasaka, the war, the loss of the people closest to him during this time; took it all and instead turned it into his desire to protect and save v. and his rage is definitely not something easily given up on, which is clear throughout the game.

and ugh idk. just getting to see these little moments of where johnny changes but specifically changes for v drives me insane. every little moment between them feels so much bigger than it really is when you know that they’re meant to be soulmates.

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sat here trying to draw for like 40 min from ref and no ref and nothing is turning out so RIP.

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i dunno how people make interesting lore for their cyberpunk characters, im just sitting here like 'ahhh yes mmm character lore is literally just whatever happens ingame.'

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I have a theory about the vanishing monk from Cyberpunk, hear me out...

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well, yes 👏

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I can't stand him. I love him so much I actually can't look at him. It effects me physically like I have to kill him with hammers immediately. I have a smash a barrel . over his head

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“just want the world to know that i was here, that i mattered”

“nothing here at all” “what did you expect? headstone, flag and flowers?” “i dunno, a marker? something, anything.”

V and johnny reflecting each other and their fears ouughhhhg

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v having the option to choose “samurai” as their safe word at clouds while making direct eye contact with johnny feels CRAZY