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being nonmonogamous is so goofy because it reduces my longterm dating pool down to 0.0000001% + i dont fuck with most poly people in germany + my one partner alone shoots my standards through the roof so much that im barely emotionally interested in anyone, and it makes me question how other poly people end up with +3 formal partners? Do they just slap the relationship label on anything and anyone? Which is fine i guess it just genuinely baffles me but i guess thats just me being aromantic

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we recorded our first sex tape... i really didnt expect to look this juicy from behind

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i feel like im mostly just likeable as a love interest, someone to desire, or as someone to be associated with but hardly ever just simply as a friend. But i also think that my hypersexuality/need for sexual validation clouds my judgement when its not the case because i fail to recognize it

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Susie Oviatt, ca 1993 https://text-mode.org/?p=24923

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you know when you get Autism Mad. like something happens in a non-ideal way and in your brain you know it literally doesnt matter but in your other more autistic brain youre like screaming & scrying & shitting the bed etc. i think you should be able to go into settings and opt out of that. i have better things to get upset about than failing to put up a decoration on the optimal day or being too stubborn to solve a problem via simple communication

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should i get back to fulltime tumblring and tweeting

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threesome with friends who care each other so much

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a lot of people think they are self aware by virtue of being self loathing. which isn't true at all

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ANYWAYS IM FREE and i miss my mutuals lowkey..

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everytime i stop being busy and overworked i realize that i forgot what i even like to do in my free time and struggle to find anything enjoyable

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also need a break from the masking holy fuck

this last week of my internship feels like a test of patience. i got sick, my trains got cancelled, the bus i have to take instead threw us out mid-journey, both of my bikes had flat tires, its freezing cold, its raining, work is excrutiatingly boring, i decided today to borrow books from our library for the first time, so i used what little time i have after work to go there - they're closed early today for a christmas party. But it'll be over soon and i'll get to loose my mind over studying again instead and im unironically grateful

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untitled, oil on canvas

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