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It was Appreciate a Dragon Day today?? It's me I'm dragon... 🐉🌳🔥

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The more I use this site the more lonely I feel

I have dozens of friends and partners, yet I still check here every morning, but why?

It used to be to give validation as a very complex queer person, and I found that in art, people drawing characters with my body, saying they're valid as they are.

There's so much doom and gloom that I can't do anything about. I can barely walk most daysThe artists that post queer art of seldom seen or represented body types just aren't around. I follow some hundred or more artists that are just not here. And the ones that are never want to talk, no one really wants to talk, but I don't want to be in an insular bubble.

I guess I don't or never did get Tumblr culture or social media in general. I used to find really good conversation on 4Chan about really obscure but deep things but that was 8+ years ago now. I don't really want to spend my time on just insulated cliquey discord servers, but it seems that's all I'm good at. Even the partners I met on 4chan don't go there anymore and I don't either for that matter. So I really do feel lost at sea.

Facebook is addictive and fun but the only time there's leftists to shitpost with and have fun is when there's an election cycle and then they go back into a depression hibernation till the next major election. I don't physically have it in me for activism anymore. I used to spend hours every day fighting misinformation and tearing up bad opinions, trying to stop leftists from playing into the hands of literal Nazis, but no, they wanted to be self righteous and feel good all while not helping anyone but their own ego. Now we have all this. All these things I'd desperately spent half a life time warning about. I know what I did was a drop in the bucket but I'd hoped I'd inspired people to take action too, I'd hoped I was one of millions of other people with similar sentiments. I wanted to connect with people to make a better future, but it really feels the worst future we'd feared came and exactly the way we'd feared.

Now I'm just, here, seeing all those broken pieces, people isolated, I feel lonely in a way I can't describe. Even if someone writes about something really interesting they don't really want to engage with anyone who wants to talk more about that point. Or have long since left this site.

I guess I still don't know how it works, and I don't really care at this point.

I'm hoping that I come back and stumble on this post in 3-4 years and remember how rough things were and how far I've come.

I wanted to participate more and make things better but I can barely walk and there's housework that I'm neglecting. I have to stop trying to save the world before I can even help my self. Doing that is what got me here. I need to cherish the people I have. The 11 partners I feel I don't give enough attention. The house I'm not taking care of the laundry and dishes I haven't done.

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"I don't want to read this" is totally valid.

"This is disgusting to me" is totally valid.

"I don't want to read this because it is disgusting to me" is totally valid.

"I don't think anyone should be allowed to read or write this because it is disgusting to me" is authoritarian.

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To Non-USAmericans or those otherwise not able to vote in the US: sorry about this ☹️.

To eligible US voters: please... for the love chocolate...

To those who have already voted: 🌟🤩💓🎉🙇‍♀️✨️😮👌💗💯🥳😍😍🤝🗳🎊👏

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i hit u with the sparkledogification beam (closed)

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I already look like this now

Prince of hell Philas outfit

(HE/HIM)

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I could take Niadris

Romance chart meme! Inspired to make one for my character Niadris after seeing @kwillow and @chocodile make one for their respective characters.

One would be surprised to learn that that 15+ foot long, thirty-five-hundred pound "badger-pede" would have a romantic side, but they do! Behind their stoic exterior is a communal creature being suffocated by isolation and a deep, unresolved longing. They would love more than anything to bond with someone on an intimate level, but between their biology and well, alien-ness, finding a non-Arhulian suitor that would reciprocate their feelings is a tall order.

Fortunately for anyone bold enough to try, Niadris is someone that is earnest and eager to form a sincere bond, thus most of their difficulty in dating (To a non-Arhulian) comes from their lack of commonality and/or respect for most social constructs, not really functioning in a 'normal' society, as well as a general bluntness. (Their non-humanoid biology being a given here.)

Secondly, their love language is very, very, physical, and anyone attempting to be their partner is going to get acquainted with biology. Weird biology. An Arhulian's abdominal womb having internal arms for manipulating live young is where the iceberg starts. Hope they told you of this before 'lending a hand' during a night of passion. Thirdly, they do have a dark side. Their treatment of prey, and those they regard as enemies (who are often demoted to prey) can be pretty stomach churning to a normal person. While it's a more of a pay evil-unto-evil sort of deal, they can get pretty... enthusiastic about preforming some nightmarish acts should they feel justified. A partner whom they truly love could sway them to reign in their dark side... or enable it further.

If one can step past societal norms, and stomach their general weirdness, Niadris is someone that is extremely compassionate, wise, intelligent, as well as spiritually and psychically enlightened. Someone will weather foe, storm, and bullet for their lover. Oh yeah. One last thing. Do not betray them. Being swallowed whole and alive is already pretty frightening for most people. It's even worse when your coming-out-unharmed-and-undigested privileges have been revoked.

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"Look, Pim, I know it's our job to help these guys and everything, but I think these guys are a lost cause. They obviously made up their minds. Why don't we just cut our losses and get out of here?"

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I don't see this talked about very often, so shout out to the non-disordered systems who have disordered traits!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who have dissociation!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who experience dissociation between switches!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who struggle to ground themselves!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who experience dissociation which is totally unrelated to their plurality!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who have amnesia!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who have strong barriers between members, making it hard or impossible to share memories!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who are amnesiac due to a traumatic brain injury, rather than their plurality!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who forget things easily and have to write notes to remember!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who have to write notes to be able to communicate with other members!

Shout out to non-disordered systems who have both dissociation and amnesia!

And shout out to all the other non-disordered systems who have disordered traits and combinations of traits which I haven't mentioned here!

Too often, we see the assumption that dissociation and/or amnesia + system = disordered, and as a non-disordered system who experiences dissociation ourselves, it's somewhat frustrating to feel left out of the discussions. To be disordered, there needs to be the key element of clinically-significant distress.

So, to everyone from the most dissociated, amnesiac system out there who doesn't feel distress from their symptoms, to the system who has only occasional bouts of dissociation from sensory issues, to the system who has difficulty remembering things due to brain injury, this post goes out to you!

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i think anyone who's mean or bad or evil could be fixed if you just told them its ok to cling to a pillow and bury your face into it while you moan and cum

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little thingy by @dreamatduskk :3

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You're why I ended up not buying a binder, and basically just stopped wearing bras.

I have a beard and fantastic makeup and I love wearing dresses and skirts and I feel so comfortable being me. And you helped me with that, enough that I could tell my partners that that was something I wanted to do, and could feel not dysphoric for my chest. And with my extremely supportive and amazing partners I feel more like me than I ever have.

question: does my art inspire you? or do you feel like you relate to it?

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i think anyone who's mean or bad or evil could be fixed if you just told them its ok to cling to a pillow and bury your face into it while you moan and cum

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hmmm

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Newer fella I made!

Very heavily inspired by @canisalbus’s art and ocs, so please look at them!!!! I actually really like this German shepherd fella.. and his big ol ears.. and silly eyebrows.. expect to see more of him!!! When I am used to consistently drawing him lol