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started crying at dinner cus my parents were adamant on me eating. dad told my mum to book me another appointment for my eating issues i hate this so much why cant i just eat

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melancholy except its not sudden its been here the whole time and i just choose to pretend im a silly little girl who loves everything and everyone

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”other kids come out of school so happy” i’ve been struggling for so long i cried because someone somewhat hugged me

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the reason for my eating disorder just said “why would you listen to me!!” like it hasn’t completely changed my life

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all butterflies have wings.

they say that all butterflies have gorgeous wings, it's just that others can't see them.

i don't like my wings. i've seen them; they're withered, worn out, dull, and uncannily colorful.

it's like looking at clown makeup. i'm a fool for ever thinking i look pretty whenever i leave my room, my eyelashes and under eyes accentuated with mascara and kajal. i'm a fool for thinking that only eating ice water for lunch is going to get me that dream body.

i'm a fool for thinking i'm beautiful. i see everyone, and i hate it; i hate how pretty they are. it revolts me. it's a constant reminder that i'm a monster, an untouchable creature rather than human, lurking in the dark.

i don't think the universe loved me when my genes were made. i hate my brown skin. i hate my basic black hair and dark brown eyes. i hate my roman nose. i hate my skinny-fat body.

i hate my wings. they're so ugly that even others can't dare look at it and find a compliment for it.

all compliments feel fake sometimes. i've heard the same line: "you're so pretty!" it sounds like words of pity.

pity that my wings are forever ugly and withered. untouchable.

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i am fine so long as i don’t remember i’m alive & a person

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i wanna be called pretty not cute...

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kms

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it always goes this way just because i don’t know how to talk about my feelings

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doctor asked me if im happy with my weight. i lied.

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when you've surpressed so many panic attacks in front of people that no one even knows you have them

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What if I was just someone's fucked up little oc

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me last year: why would i use a fingernail clipper to sh? (I'm talking to my mother who got worried for some reason)

me now: *stealing a fingernail clipper to cut myself* ...huh

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hate that i'll do the bare minimum and feel even a little bit proud of myself

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i wish i thanked my first ex for showing me a really good first relationship.

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bitches will see the words grief loneliness melancholy yearning nostalgia hope tiramisu and hit reblog