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Casually being forcefully reminded why I don’t talk to some friends about some of my interests lmao

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It’s normal and valid to mourn the things you didn’t get to experience.

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I’m fucking lonely man

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do i even fucking exist to people, am i just invisible? because the way they act makes me feel so.

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I. Wanna slit my wrists. Or kill myself. Either or.

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I feel like a fucking NPC. I’m trying so hard to not spiral right now but it’s 8am and I’m already thinking about suicide because everything is so fucked. Why do I bother doing anything when my voice doesn’t matter.

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you can't expect someone who grew up ostracized to behave like someone who grew up loved.

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Update. Took one (1) Benadryl at work for the intended purpose of allergy relief and I did not get sleepy but I had such bad brain fog I could barely form a sentence

I don’t want to do Benadryl but I do want to trip so hard I forget all sense of self and time and I just stare vacantly into the void for a few hours

And I really want to go to sleep

Do you see my problem??

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you can’t be surprised that your coffee got cold after you leave it aside waiting for a long time. this post is not about coffee by the way

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communication is never hard for someone that actually wants you

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I don't regret you but sometimes I wish I had walked away at the start and left things at hello. Because I rearranged my life to fit into yours and that's where I went wrong. Now I have to rearrange my life again and find a new future without you. And that's the hardest part of losing you.

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