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Well a sign from the universe is a sign

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PhD Day 38 (yesterday): this time for real, I finished doing all the changes my supervisor suggested so I have finally fully submitted my grant proposal!

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a glimpse of what's in my bag at all times

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my other grounding technique is remembering that the earliest abolitionists & the earliest suffragists had no proof that the world would ever make possible what they fought for and indeed many of them did not live to see it come to pass. and yet they did not succumb to despair so it would be disrespectful to their memory to let it overtake me

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I am so obsessed with the sound of my own voice it's insane

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sorry feminists here’s my controversial take 😖 men have made some good art

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Pondered for a minute and now I can go and finish the work for today. Godspeed

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It's like I'm constantly on high alert

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many such cases

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Truly the dumbest thing to come out of this last decade is the belief things need to be morally wrong to be disliked or criticized - like that couldn't be anymore boring or untrue... like it's normal to not like things or people just because that's the feeling you get and it's so psychotic to be constantly searching for validity

Like if the cover of a book is ugly I WILL pick a different book, sometimes it IS that deep and judgement is not useless or stupid it's all just information and the idea of like it being only fair to judge certain parts of things rather than whatever information it presents as a whole is so so stupid to me

Like yeah I want the book cover to be pretty and to my taste. I want the paper to be the right weight in my hands. A show might be really well written but if the drawing/animation style is ugly I don't care and won't watch it. A movie could be beloved but maybe the costume design looks cheap so I can't get into it. Maybe someone is nice enough but they have a super shrill annoying voice like...negative opinions are fine lmao

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It's so crazy to interact with people who don't know what to do or say without an alcohol or weed buffer - honestly probably the wildest thing to experience in adulthood so consistently

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my little world at the end of October

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you actually need to be putting yourself in situations where your heart pounds and you feel a little scared. you need to be actively seeking out the moments that make you anxious but in a good way and lean into that discomfort because thats where change happens... thats how you live in the moment. you cannot sit idly by and dull your senses and placate yourself with distractions because then you close yourself off to living a full life …

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they should invent love for women who are weird control freaks

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sheltered poster: Bro is going wild like a gorilla on ketamine!

poster that wants to look darkly chic: its obvious they have no idea what ketamine does.

The lovesick swede: When wiell i find my so sweets honeybee

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One day I'm gonna settle down with a good woman. And when we lie together in bed at night I'll tell her all these stories and she will laugh