excerptsfromtrauma

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there is something so warm about you, but i know better than to get close to the fire

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it feels like i’ve loved you for so long, a thousand goddam years

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they never stay long, why am i here

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you say you have a heart, where is it when it comes to me ?

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maybe one day you’ll apologise,

tell me you were wrong,

tell me you feel pain because of your choices

tell me you love me

tell me you will be better

and mean it

but you never do, you never do

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i don’t know this body

i don’t know this mind

it’s happening again

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THIS BODY CANT BE MINE

I DONT RECOGNISE THIS

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i feel like a ghost

a rush of air,

i can never been seen

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i love you, but you always bring me pain

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i hope you think of me in your next choices bed

i hope you hear my voice

i hope you miss the way i did things, the way i could look

i hope you regret everything you’ve done

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i hope it makes you sad,

sick even

that you will never have my love again

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all i feel is numb. all i’ve ever felt is numb.

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i should have screamed, i should have had a fucking meltdown.

but i sat there in all stillness holding back a million fucking knives.

i should have made you felt it, you should fucking feel it. you should know the pain i have to live with.

“i’m gonna go have a cone”

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it’s stuck in my skin now

it’s become a part of me

number 2

is all i’ll ever be to you

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“if i didn’t want to be here i wouldn’t be, i’m here with you”

you say that like you’re doing me a favour?

you’re so contradictory

why were you with her then?

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it should have been me, you had so much to live for

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i miss you so much, i hope you’re happy wherever you are