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A Fun Weekend, A Surprising Phone Call

7:54

Dear Moon,

As stated in a previous letter, (I think), I mentioned that my cousin stars were coming over to celebrate my little sister’s birthday, because they won’t be able to make it for her party. Of course of all the days my work can schedule me they schedule me on that day, but I didn’t have a bad shift at least. I only worked 5 hours in the morning. I still had the whole afternoon to spend time with everyone. My sister and cousin stars all played monoploy while listening to music from our favorite show. Later we played the game werewolf and brother star joined in. I know what you’re thinking; no, none of my cousins put salt on their strawberries or any fruit on that matter. Other than that little visit, everything’s been slow. 

Love you always,

Sun.

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20:30

Dear Moon,

Your call earlier today surprised me. I didn’t know what to say when you called. I know you couldn’t see it, but I had a big smile on my face the whole time we were on the phone together. I was just so happy to hear your voice again. I wish I had more to say on the phone when you asked what’s been happening, but life’s just kinda been slow right now. I’m not talking to a lot of my friends right now, and if I’m not working I’m just sleeping. I know you can probably call me every now and then, but I’ve gotten used to writing whenever something’s on my mind. I love you Moon.

Love,

Sun

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Moon Replied

Dear Moon,

Your first letter arrived, and when I first read your letter tears started to form. It wasn’t a sad letter or anything, but I was happy to finally hear a response. Anyway, you certainly sound like you’re having a good time. Getting next to no sleep, getting called childish names by your RDC, waking up and the break of dawn, and more stuff you probably didn’t wanna mention. Everything over here’s been pretty slow. I work, I sleep, and sometimes I’ll eat. Don’t let anything negative get to you over there.

Love You, 

Sun. 

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Just Another Day With Silly Thoughts...

15:30

Dear Moon,

I have finally received the address to send mail to you from your parents yesterday. So, I’m just gonna send all the letters written previously to you at once, Your step-dad told me to keep everything positive, so if the previous letter written to you seemed a little too negative I’m sorry. Things have been better since then. RocketShip and I hung out for a bit yesterday. We didn’t do much yesterday but nap at her house... But I guess you don’t really care to read about my nap. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today. I wanna try and take everything that happens in life one day at a time. With being out of school, I don’t have to worry about what will happen tomorrow as much. I promised myself after high school I’m gonna appreciate what I have today. I wanna be able to tell my kids one day that I had one summer where I did my own thing and I didn’t have to worry. I still miss you. Everyday I think about you. It’s kinda funny how my mom still asks how you’re doing or if you’re ok. I think she forgets that I didn’t send the letters yet. I guess she just assumes that because I have all these letters written, I must be actively having a conversation with you... Well, it’s more of a one-sided conversation right now, but that’ll change. I love you Moon. I feel like I never said it enough times, and even if I did I wanna say it till I have to find a new way of saying it to you. 

Love, Sun.

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23:30

Dear Moon,

The letter I wrote before this one I wrote before my shift at work started. Everything I wrote in there I still mean near and dear to my heart, but I felt rushed. My shift just ended and I’m more calm and collected now. Even though I wanna take life one day at a time, It doesn’t make me miss you less. I miss how I would be working through a rush at work, and you would text me in the middle of the rush; “How’s it going?”, and I would never have the chance to look at it until the rush ended or if I’m on break. I miss how I would look forward to going on my breaks to catch you up on what just happened at work. But I guess complaining to you about work isn’t the best thing you would like to hear from me. And I guess I shouldn’t complain how easy I have it as a civilian to someone who wakes up and has their soul die at 4 am, and work till they drop. I’ll try my best to stay positive with you my love, but promise me if times are tough for you; breathe. 

I’ll Always Love you, Sun.

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A Long Rant

Dear Moon,

In just a few days a lot has happened. Originally I was gonna wait till I got your address to write more letters to you, but I can’t keep it all in. I didn’t realize how much I actually vent to you on a daily basis before you left. I think as long as I write it all down, I won’t go insane. I think just knowing that you’ll read this and acknowledge it makes me feel better. Anyway, a few days a go at work I was working in drive-thru taking cash and orders during a big rain storm, and the power went out for a second. So, the systems needed to reboot after that and for a while one of my managers made me take orders with cash only. It doesn’t sound like a big deal but, 1.) both lanes were open, 2.) I was only taking one of the lanes so I didn’t always know what the other lane’s orders were, so I just writing down the totals, 3.) I still had to take cash and, 4.) we were the only restaurant open during the storm so, we were hella busy. I honestly wanted to cry during and after my shift, because I could not handle the rush we had. Eventually the registers were working, but we were still busy. Once my shift ended my manager wanted me to ring up all the orders we had to write down when the power went out. I literally could not put every single order in simply because I didn’t know some of the orders just the totals. I ended up staying 15 minutes after my shift ended. Yesterday we threw one of our friends a surprise graduation party, and it was fun for the most part. We went to the little conference/party room in the back of restaurant where I work at, and ate cheesecake. We hung out at Rocketship’s house for a bit while Witch did our eyebrows, and then we grabbed a little dinner. Things got a little heated, but we tried not to let it ruin our night after that. We headed back to Rocketship’s porch and all talked for a while. It was...refreshing. I’m really glad I was there. I’m really glad to have shared it with you. 

I love you, Sun. 

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Ranting Thoughts

I never thought I would cry over a boy

I never thought that about having a future with one 

I never thought that a boy would like me

I never thought that I would be so in love 

I never thought I would miss him this much

I only wish I had spent more time with him

I wish I didn’t work so much and so late

I wish we talked more

I wish we could have known each other sooner

I don’t want these feelings of sorrow

I don’t want these feelings of regret 

But they’re the feelings I have

I knew the day we started dating you would leave for the sea, but I thought that I would be enough to fight the tears

I feel that our love is strong 

I feel that our love is everlasting

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A Letter

Dear Moon,

By the time my senior year started, I’ve accepted that I was going to be single for the rest of my life. I even had a conversation about it to my older sister where I really wanted a boyfriend, but I knew I wasn’t ready. It’s amazing how much even a few months a person’s mind and life can change. Within a few months, it was a new semester of school. Within a few months, we had a new president in our country. Within a few months I got to know more of you, I found out that I love you. I was afraid how things would turn out. I was afraid how long we would last, I didn’t want us to be one of those ‘summer lovers’. I know now that we are more than that. You’ve made my insecurities silly thoughts. You’ve heard all my scary, odd and ridiculous confessions that I’ve never told anyone else. I’ve told you things I was too embarrassed to tell anyone else. You like the most oddest feature of my face, a feature that I never really think or care about; my nose. You like me for how much I weigh now, and you like how I walk with a slouch. You like things I hate about myself or don’t pay attention to, and I think that itself is beautiful. I’ve never cried over a boy, (I’ve never had a reason to), until I met you. I want you to be the only man I cry over, If I don’t say it enough times; I love you. I love you for you, and I don’t want you to ever change. I want you to keep being you. And if you’re ever sad just remember that I will always be here to listen to you. I promise I will always find a chance to write to you, and I will always love you. 

Love, Sun