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[everydayeverest]

It is so weird to realise how dramatically people can change over a short period of time. How the person you were sure you know becomes someone you`d never thought he or she would. I should admit that this fact scares me so much. 

It is just incredible that people become exact the ones they swore they never would...

And it is painful.

No one likes to lose friends. But what if it is a best friend? What if it is someone with whom you`ve been through so much? Good and bad. What if it is someone you miss like you lost a piece of your own soul?

How to deal with this fact? 

How to make yourself forget? How to start trusting others afterwards? 

So many questions. Yet still no answers. 

[everydayeverest]

Seasons change it won’t ever be the same I’m hopin’ I won’t stay the same Reasons strange Why we always play these games

"Stay The Same" by Bonobo

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Sometimes fairy-tales come true

Do you know The Little Mermaid? Not the Disney one, but the original fairy-tale. It is much darker and gloomier. 

The Little Mermaid rises up to the surface, sees a ship with a handsome prince, and falls in love with him from a distance. A great storm hits, and the Little Mermaid saves the prince from nearly drowning.

The Little Mermaid, longing for the prince and an eternal soul, eventually visits the Sea Witch, who sells her a potion that gives her legs in exchange for her tongue (as the Little Mermaid has the most enchanting and beautiful voice in the world). Drinking the potion will make her feel as if a sword is being passed through her, yet when she recovers she will have two beautiful legs, and will be able to dance like no human has ever danced before. However, it will constantly feel like she is walking on sharp knives and it will feel as though they must be bleeding. 

The Little Mermaid drinks the potion and meets the prince, who is mesmerised by her beauty and grace even though she is mute. Most of all he likes to see her dance, and she dances for him despite her suffering excruciating pain. 

But the prince fells in love with another girl and marries her. And the Little Mermaid dies in the end. Though with her good deeds and pure heart she gains the immortal soul.

Why I remembered it now? She was so happy and yet in so much pain dancing for her prince. I feel exactly like her when you are near. When you are talking to me, when we meet, when we kiss, when you show that you care I feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. Though I know that it is all temporary. As you don`t love love. Never did. And you will one day meet your perfect princess and leave me forever.

Each time it brings me pain that feels like cold sharp knife stabbing my heart. But I continue to seek for your attention. Why won`t I stop the torture? Because two sisters live in my heart: one is pain, and the second is love.

I love you. And no pain in the world can tip the scales and make me forget about it.

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Sometimes the feelings are so strong and bright that they stay with you forever. It is like a needle in the soul, which you can`t take out. 

It reminds about it like an old wound reacts on a rainy weather. But in this case it may be some special song on the radio. Or a place in the city you pass by. Small gift for Christmas. So many triggers around. 

I don`t know if there is any way to cure the soul. And if there is any need to do so. As this small needle becomes the part you, which can actually make you a better person. Or at least a person able to empathize the pain of others.

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Everything in this life is so fragile. Just like this dandelion. We think that it is forever, that nothing will change. But than the wind blow and what seemed so trustworthy is already blown away. Enjoy the moment right here, right now...

[everydayeverest]

My problem is that I push people away and than hate them for leaving.

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I don’t know why this photo makes me think about autumn. For most part of my life I was appreciating spring the most. Well, it is pretty obvious and cliche. Nature awakes, it is becoming warmer an warmer, romantic mood and… my birthday :) But not long ago I realized how much I enjoy autumn. Tights, skirts and high boots. Apples with honey and cinnamon. Red, yellow, orange trees. Pumpkins!  There is something mystically special about this season with its cold, clear mornings and rainy evenings.  Lately each autumn something new started for me. I hope this year won’t be an exception…

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We are born in one day. We die in one day. We can change in one day. Anything can happen in just one day.

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The city I live in. The one where I loved and suffered, smiled and cried, was happy once and never after. My Prague.

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You know I was thinking yesterday about...everything. And I saw how miserable and annoying I am and I`ve been all these months. Yesterday for the first time I realised - enough. I don't wanna be like that anymore, I don't wanna suffer anymore. I want to go back to normal. NOW. Not eventually, not with time. NOW. I know will probably have more periods of being miserable, but I am eager to cure,  I wanna live a normal life. And I want smile more than I want to cry.  So for the first time I can honestly say "I am fine".

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At the beginning

Hey hi! 

It is never easy to write the very first post. Huge responsibility. So, to keep it simple:

Welcome! :)