esteyam

[esteyam]

Do you truly love a piece of media if you’re not making it everyone else’s problem

[esteyam]

You're not flawed, darling, you're just a little under-rehearsed - The Amazing Devil - "Marbles"

[esteyam]

going from violently sobbing to the point of getting nauseous to doing your duolingo lesson is the true girlhood experience

[esteyam]

the day a man longs for me the way beast longs for bell in this song will be the day that i die

[esteyam]

You're dead serious. I'm alive silly. We're not the same

[esteyam]

the most common way to console a child with divorced parents is joking about having two christmases and birthdays every year. twice as many presents, right?

but who talks about having to buy twice as many flowers, because their parents don't rest in the same grave?

[esteyam]

[esteyam]

the most dreadful thing about my grandfather's death is that he's no longer here to protect his little girl from my father

[esteyam]

this is like a monthly occurrence

literally going thru an identity crisis rn but at least my nails are cute

[esteyam]

tell me

i want to be told

i want to be told what to wear and what to judge

i want to be told what to be fascinated by and what to ignore

i want to be told what is right and what is wrong

i want to be told what to love and what to despise

i want to be told who to be and what to never become

[esteyam]

oh to have love songs written about you by a lovestruck man in the 60's

definitely not talking about can't help falling in love by elvis presley

[esteyam]

literally going thru an identity crisis rn but at least my nails are cute

[esteyam]

numb

i listen to music and mimic the feelings they express,

trying to act out emotions that were never mine,

in hopes that my own heart someday would be able to mirror them and make my own self suffer from them,

and then,

maybe that would to convince me i'm alive.