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guess who's moving out yall

istg I'm going yall I'm so tired of this bro

my mother's husband is such a dickhead AND MY MUM WONT FUCKING LEAVE HIM SO I WILL

im gonna move back to my home country and live w my other not so great dad bc it's better than this bullshit

"we're never gonna have a relationship" yeah I fucking hope not you just ruined the one we already had

hes always been an asshole but this time he's rly gone above and beyond to break the peace we used to have

id take military school over this shit bro

anyways I got my nails done td I feel so bonita

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I'm back in my soft girl era

been going through a lot but I'm back

the last week has been hectic and honestly I've been going a little crazy but yk what yall it's healing time

im going back to being mysterious and cool dw

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I hate twt w my whole being

i remember why I left now THIS PLACE IS HELL

i love tumblr I will never leave it is heaven

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51 posts in 12 hrs.......

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um

im now best friends w this b word

this is crazy I'm making music recs and everything

ON A PUBLIC TWT THREAD

not ok guys not ok

i think the delusion helped push my self confidence a bit I mean I have been awake for almost 24h straight so 😍

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my head hurts

I'm good now but that was scary

I GOTTA PUT ON THE ALTER EGO BRO THIS AINT OK I CANT FREAK OHT LIKE THIS

online social interactions freak me out so bad

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I fear i FEARRRR this may be me

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IM NOT PREPARED FOR TWITTER LIFE

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR

SOME GIRL I ACCIDENTALLY MUTUALISED OR WTV IS ACC TALKING TO ME AND IM HAVING A PANIC ATTACK

I CALLRF HER GAY AND NOW I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA GET CANCELED HELPAQVAHBSHAHHSHSJSHSBSS

PLEASE KMG WTF IS GOING ON PLS HELPSBHAHAHAHNANANNAN

BUT EVERYONE ELSE WAS CALLING HER GAY MAYBE SHE JUST HAS IT OUT FOR ME

ph my god I wish I wasn't gay and stupid

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I hate twitter

I FEEL UNSAFE

twitter is a scary place much like hell

EVERYONE IS SO JUDGEMENTAL

i haven't done anything yet BUT THIS IS SCARY I might just delete my account and stick to girlblogging on here

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I'm so bored

i became active on twt again after like 4 years and I have literally no moots, my friends refuse to download twt to follow me and idk who to follow

theres some pretty funny tweets tho so that's a plus

I WANT MOOTS GUYS WTF DO I DO JOIN DISCORD????

thats too far even for me

also yeah I don't have moots on here but that's fine cuz this is more of a diary than it is a social media platform for me so

IM SO BORED I NEED ONLINE FRIENDS TO KEEP ME ENTERTAINED

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question of the day:

how does ink come out of pens?

very niche reference there my friends

i hate winter break because there's no tea to spill and no one to gossip with

I have a certain super power that let's me stay away from drama

just far enough to not be directly involved but close enough to know just about everything that's going on

thats not to say I don't have any opps, oh no friends I have my fair share of enemies

that sounded so alpha male of me but if you saw the amount of dirty looks I receive on a daily basis for simply existing in the same space as these people you'd understand

actually I think there mightve been a peace offering recently

there's this one girl (the one I didn't shut up abt over the summer) and we absolutely despise each other (I'm over it she's just mildly annoying but she seems to think I have it out for her) and I accidentally liked one of her tt the other day and she's been civil

she offered me a Turkish delight (after not speaking a word to each other in 6 months) and I cant decide how to take it because on one hand, turkish delights are the most vile things ever conjured by a human and offering one is like handing someone a turd but on the other hand she enjoys turkish delights (somehow 🤢) and that makes her offering seem the slightest bit genuine?

might unblock her so we can bond over our mutual hatred for the most vile man on this earth

wow guys this is so boring this is the state of my life right now I have nothing else to talk about

FUCK WINTER BREAK

someone give me ideas of things I can do impulsively so I can spice up my life a little

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no omg yall

i keep seeing him around like everywhere and it's so fucking annoying cuz it ruins my day

i got a close up jumpscare the other day

like I looked up from my phone and he was about 3 inches away from my face

hard fucking eyw contact too

OMG I FORGOT TO SAY

I made a discord account for no particular reason whatsoever

and I thought "hmm I wanna have him blocked on every possible platform" bc I have him blocked on Instagram, WhatsApp, sms, pinterest, roblox, email (twice), duolingo and genshin impact

and yeah it may be petty but I'm a hater and I hate so sue me 🤷‍♀️

anyways so I search up his user on discord and his tag is like 0 or 1 or smt cuz he's the only one with his user

i searched it up AND ACCIDENTALLY SENT A FUCKING FRIEND REQUEST

I HAVE BEVER IN MY LIFE DELETED AN ACCOUNT SO FUCKING FAST LIKE ISTG I WAS SCARED FOR MYFUCKING LIFE

i have doubts that is was his actual username but the nest day when I walked by the lobby of our school and I glanced at him he was already death glaring me....

something tells me he knows

i freaked out y'all that wasn't okay

anywasy I miss my vape and I want a back tattoo

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i literally lasted like a day of not texting anyone

then my bsf sent me a job application to her workplace and how could I deny the opportunity of working w my bestie right?

anyways then I gave up and texted everyone back

(woah two in one??)

me when I miss almost all my exams and don't tell anyone why when they ask so I can try to be mysterious

lowk tho I like being mysterious and nonchalant for once cuz usually I'm loud and extremely chalant

this is acc an extremely sad situation guys I'm just deflecting until the worst possible scenario happens (and it will happen sooner rather than later)

anyways I'm scared of biblically accurate angels now cuz my mum told me that they would never actually appear as eyes to anyone and would actually just show up as random dudes who look like humans because that's what they did in the bible with the likes of lot and Mary etc and so any "angels" that appear as eyes to anyone must be demonic and idk abt you guys but I don't wanna be around a demon with a bunch of eyes so I've been praying a lot and now I don't wanna sleep cuz THE DEMONS GUYS WTH THATS SCARY and w the whole stuff going on in the US w the "angels" (they're not rly angels, read revelations) it's just making things worse

anyways rant over y'all

bet you never would've thought I'm religious but hey, I'm a devout Catholic yk

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me when

im getting to a point where idk wtf to do yall 🤠

maybe I'll fuck architecture out the window and go live off the land like of mouse and men, without the whole death and racism and sexism and economic crash yk

maybe I'll become a cowboy and have no worries beyond riding a horse into the sunset, chewing straw, smoking cigarettes and tending to my farm animals

or maybe I'll give up on college, get married to a man, have 7 kids and become a housewife like my mother wants me to

speaking of which my mum is actively trying for a kid and she told me this and I said hurray but how tf do you expect me to be around for a younger sibling

i already have a younger sister that's almost a decade younger than me which is hard on our relationship cuz idfk how to be w gen alpha kids

but how am I gonna treat a gen beta or omega or wtv the next generation is

cuz yes I definitely want a baby brother that's like 20 years younger than me

may as well be my own child bro wth

IM NOT MAD ABT IT IF IT MAKES MY MUM HAPPY THEN GREAT

but I'm just worried yall I don't like kids

but obviously I will try my best

anywho

ive decided to isolate myself for all of winter break and not speak to anyone cuz I'm tired of ppl

byebye

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we are SO FREAKING BACK

little update of the last 3 months (not chronological):

just missed 5 of my finals because the world is a terrible place and everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong 😛

spent an entire month trying to break up w my dickhead bf who is now shit talking me and lying abt why we broke up (mf did me dirty and told our mutual friend that we broke up bc "I didn't wanna try")

my ex dyed and cut his hair in the most terrifying, horrific, disturbing, bothersome, odd, repulsive way possible and now I have to see it (I burst out into laughter every time I catch a glimspe)

i got my heart broken (ish) twice by the same girl BECAUSR SHE'S EVIL AND SHE PLAYED ME HARD YALL SHE RLY DID 😭 now she feels bad for me and thinks I still like her BUT I DONT CUZ SHE GAVE ME THE ICK BY BEING MEAN TO ME SO NOW IM EMBARRASSED (she still texts me regularly and gives me this look and sends me sunset and sunrise pictures and hugs me and touches my arm and agahsgwhha-lesbian situations situationships are not for the weak yall)

I stopped going to class (mostly)

ppl keep dying around me

my mother became a raging homophobe after her religious awakening and now I'm "not allowed to be a lesbian" and therefore decided to let go of unlabelled life and am now as much of a lesbian as she is against "the unicorns" (as she calls them)

ive gained a lot of controversial opinions (no I won't elaborate)

I've quit vaping and drinking (I ran out of money)

I finished arcane (it finished me)

i almost got disowned (I didn't tho, hurray 😁)

idk what else happened I can't remember lowk

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even a worm will turn.

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something something despite the all horrors and tragedies of the world, love was there and that's all that matters