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in line with heinrix having overlap with knightly heroes in chivalric literature, we should be putting him in way more adultery scenarios. he needs to be fucking other mens wives.

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i understand it's all in good fun but i really don't see the comparison of heinrix with mr darcy. heinrix isn't particularly conceited about social status, and he certainly doesn't start out rude with the rogue trader like the guy gets his tail wagging the instant you show him a modicum of kindness. you could even argue that he's not in any position of real privilege. i'm just not seeing the connection.

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do i.... go back through these 12000 words and change the tense to present

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Nero x Kibellah

(my headcanon Kibellah is 188cm, Nero 190cm)

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can i talk about how the drukhari have an incredibly robust foundation for a matriarchal society? no please don't leave. the meaningful class stratification between trueborns & halfborns as well as the social valuation placed on natural gestation would imbue women with a form of power which male drukhari are only able to access in relationship to her, and this places her naturally at the center of any sort of generational power.

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Meme time

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for what it's worth, out of all the companions, it's yrliet who presents heinrix with the most accurate assessment of himself. because this is a question that resonates far past the events of phton iv.

since the eruption of his latent psychic ability (to him, a calamity), he has sought salvation by submitting himself to an institution that is calamitous in its own right, wielding crushing power and demanding of him mutilation to help facilitate the perpetuation of this power. both of the self and others. in the process of sanctioning, he was physically mutilated. in the process of ascending to interrogator, he is made to emotionally self-mutilate, slicing away attachment, empathy, sentiment. and he's made to do these things to others as well, all in the name of the golden throne. these are 'good' things he does on behalf of a 'good' empire.

in this, heinrix has far more overlap with a character like marazhai than anybody else, another figure who is made to engage in mutilation and perpetuation of calamity to achieve an ultimately unachievable salvation (in his case, from death and consumption by sai'lanthresh). and there, we can see how heinrix is indeed the opposite side of what attracts sai'lanthresh:

sai'lanthresh is not just the god of pain and pleasure, but also the god of perfection and excess. he delights in lust and self-indulgence, but also in desire and pride.

there is such a razor's edge between discipline and obsession, and an unquenchable desire for salvation via embodying imperial ideal is still, at its core, desire. and it's kind of interesting how it's yrliet of all people who calls this out.

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physically restraining myself from giving heinrix erotic fantasies a la the ecstasy of saint teresa in this fic

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Men in porn always so desperate for validation. "oh you like that cock? You like my cock?" go to therapy dude

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💌 uwu

lio!!!!! i am so so lucky to have met you. you're a bright and beautiful beacon that's full of love and i adore how passionately you spread that love around. i adore the devotion you have towards depicting complicated, messy, earnest polyamorous relationships, in all the complexity that they're owed, and i adore how much of a silly pervert you are about the same things that i'm a silly pervert about because what's more fun than having someone who Gets It.

i love imogene so much and i love every single piece of writing that you've put out and i'm so so happy to be your friend <3

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i mean how can i resist an invitation for compliments :P 💌

fatal!!!!!! honestly man, where do i even start.

i can't imagine my life without you. you're part of the bedrock that forms the base of who i am. you're incredibly smart and passionate and you're one of the most patient, caring, thoughtful people i know. you're just so fundamentally good, in a very real way, right to your very soul, and in a world that makes it very hard to be good.

everything you do, you do with your entire chest and you always do it well. there aren't many people who can succeed at whatever they set their mind to, but you're undoubtedly one of them. you're unashamedly you, all the time, and it draws people to you like moths to a flame.

i love you so much man, and i'm happy every day to call you a friend <3

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💌 🫶

four!! you are such a fun, sweet person and are just effortless to get along with! i adore all the thought you put behind crafting visenya and the way that she slots into the world. your ability to be so consistent with your writing schedule while producing incredibly high quality work under such a tight deadline is a rare and enviable skill that i hope to embody even slightly someday.

i'm also so starry eyed over your dog sport accomplishments! it's a hobby that i'm just beginning to dip my toes into, but that i enjoy very much, and to see you achieving at such high levels... i'm in awe. it's like meeting a celebrity <3

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💌‼️

andy!! you are so fun and so personable and such a pleasant person to be around. i adore the care that you put into crafting your characters and how unashamedly, openly creative you are with your discussion of them. it feels like a relic from a lost age of the internet that i miss so much and it inspires me to be more open, more playful, more unashamed in my own creativity online. it's no wonder that you're a (if not the) beating heart for the rt fandom.

you're also, if you don't mind me saying, phenomenally beautiful. i see your photos and think, oh must be a model image from one of the aesthetic blogs i follow, but then i see that it's you! unreal.

your writing as well is so lyrical, so sharp, so mature. there isn't a single word wasted and yet, you're able to set the scene and carry a reader through in a way that feels effortless. i'm so excited for knight pilot au (if you ever decide to share) and anything else that you decide to post <3

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💌 if you feel like it!!

masha!! i've said it before and i'll say it a million times, but you're one of the coolest and smartest people i've ever had the privilege of meeting. you inspire me to read more & think deeper, to expand my fields of understanding. genuinely, every time you post i'm there crisscross applesauce looking up at you on stage with stars in my eyes. your writing is phenomenally subtle and cerebral, the psychosexual dynamics you unfurl like a delicate pas de deux. you have a razor-sharp wit that is once-in-a-generation and if i found out your real life alter ego was some PhD polymath-slash-world renowned essayist, i wouldn't be surprised.

i'm so glad to have met you through happenstance of loghain thirst posting because you're an incredibly positive, motivating presence in my life <3

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💌🥰

harding!! you're honestly such a deeply influential person for me. you're one of the first people that i've met that exists as living proof that it's possible to experience certain very specific hardships as a young person and still go on to build a life that is a good life, even if it might look a little different. i'm so impressed by your ability to build a network, to make an impression, to allow yourself to be seen and be vulnerable and be unashamedly you.

of course, this wouldn't be complete without a mention of your writing abilities, though i feel like anything i say here will simply be repeating things i've said before. you're able to capture the minutiae of being human in such a lovely, grounded way and it lends your dialogue this very tangible quality, like i'm not merely reading a story but i'm eavesdropping on a conversation between two real people. it makes everything feel so charged and so memorable and i can't wait for the day that i get to pick up a book written by you off my local store shelves.

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more sketchies of the girls