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his drukhari disposition somewhat masks this, but marazhai really shares yrliet's core theme of longing for a lost home. it may still exist, but commorragh is as lost to marazhai as crudarach is to yrliet, an exiled son with his kabal torn to pieces, and he misses commorragh from the moment he finds himself on your ship to the end of the final battle. he is constantly bringing it up as a point of comparison. he is constantly defending it. he is desperate to engage with other members of the reaving tempest, despite their betrayals. he can never go back. he too travels the path of the outcast.

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my most controversial heinrix opinion is that i think he's short. there's no way he's taller than 5'9" to me. he's a guy who could get things down from the top shelf but you'd have to watch him go on his tippy toes to do so.

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heinrix is so desperate for human connection that when you ask him to tell you a secret after knowing him for a grand total of one month, he just pours out his deepest traumas and regrets. you flirt twice and he's like hang on can i bare my soul to you rq

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the biomancer on biomancer dynamic between warnulf and heinrix goes so hard because it’s like: i know your body down to its very cells. it tells me your history. i can feel your emotions as a physical thing. there can be no lies between us.

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with all due respect for other theories i recognise they're just for fun, but i do enjoy gortash more if he's was simply some kid whom misfortune and torment bent irrevocably into something unrecognisable. literally just nobody special with no extraordinary future ahead of him and no great bloodline to save or doom him. the bad, the horrifying, the monstrous is all just him

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actually, i am somewhat surprised that heinrix wasn’t a romance option for male rogue traders because he seems primed for a conversation surrounding identity, sexuality, and masculinity. he’s a man who was reared to be a knight, this emblem of the masculine ideal, and due to an uncontrollable, innate quality of his personhood he had that brutally stripped away from him. he was rejected by his family. cast out of the only home he ever knew. and so he does everything to turn this part of himself into something acceptable, constructing his mask after a man that he views as the pinnacle of humanity. in doing this, he finds himself becoming colder. harsher. more dogmatic and rigid in his views, and with it, his self-loathing. at the core of him is still this fundamental belief that he is Wrong and every action he has ever taken is penance for that. his journey with the rogue trader is about him softening that dogmatism: towards others, sure, but more importantly, towards himself. what part about that doesn’t sound like a phenomenal queer narrative?

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beyond funny to me that if you ask loghain to make the ritual baby with morrigan he requests to strike the final blow to the archdemon instead. hes like i would actually rather die than fuck this weird goth chick thanks.

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nomenclature wise, i wish there was a middle term between young man and old man. mostly bc if one were to commit to the sexualise a 40 to 60 yo man lifestyle, you cannot use either. come here, midlife man, I'll sexualise you.....midlife man....I'll sexualise you, midlife man....

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Baldur and Ansur dressing each other in armor

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BG3 and Rogue Trader telling me that i def have a type. Yrliet is basically Space Lae'zel

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i can’t stop thinking about this dialogue from marazhai that i got while exploring some random planet because what does he mean by this.

like, is he using 'man' as a synonym for 'human' in this case (which would be weird because abelard, who was addressing him first, was using 'man' in a distinctly gendered way and marazhai doesn’t have a history of semantic misunderstandings when speaking low gothic) or is he actually talking about the gender, 'man'. because if it's the second option, it begs the question: do the drukhari have a concept of gender and if so, what is it?

marazhai does use the term 'female' during a dialogue tree in Commorragh when explaining the value of true-born children but it seems to be exclusively an indicator of the ability to gestate a child.

the incubi and wych cults don’t appear to be gendered, but we also don’t get too much information on them.

the standard 'sister' and 'brother' labels are used between siblings, but i wonder if that's more for the sake of audience understanding than an indicator of gendered categories?

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you agree to do puppy play with someone but they don’t tell you they’re really enthusiastic about dog sports so they just make you jump over these little jumps and run through tunnels

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i wasn't expecting this to become a fic mostly about marazhai watching warnulf eat and grappling with the razor's edge of disgust&arousal but here we are

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oh son of a

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You carried me once, friend, and now I'll carry you.

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head in my hands i'm only now realizing that i made a fire-and-ice dynamic between warnulf and heinrix i really am such a cornball