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And it's still a vibe when I come on here.

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just horny

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Finding a home has really been stressful. I’ve expanded my search area to about double what it was initially and after nearly 7 months I still haven’t closed successfully. 2 failed contracts and several offers turned down, and $thousands lost. Feel like my hair is going white from this. Every day is work and looking at listings, I can’t believe it’s nearly February. 

I’ve put in a request at my company for a permanent relocation to Texas a couple weeks ago. It could take up to 2 months to approve, and I need to close on a place no later than May. 

Houston has much cheaper properties with less Property Taxes and association fees and more of them seem to allow renting. When I invest in investment properties in the future, the barrier to entry if I was in Houston would be considerably lower. Intuition also tells me Texas real estate is going to boom in the next few years. I could retire earlier than expected, and spoil my dad like i’ve always dreamed of. It is sad to think about leaving my family behind though. But it is beginning to seem like a good option for me at this rate. The logistics of it also stresses me out though. 

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source

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dunno if i’m cold,stressed, scared, angry or have too much caffeine but im shaking after speaking to my attorney lol 

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STRESSED

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Autumn Blues

Autumn is my favorite season, even though I hate waking up at 6AM and it’s cold and the sun hasn’t fully risen.

It’s the only season that I seem to have a lot of memories of, and the only season with a lot of triggers that remind me of them.

After the summer heat, waking up in the early ass morning to the cold, I am reminded of my school days of getting ready for a new semester. New year, basically, for a student. 

The last couple of days have been quite cloudy with no ray of sun to be seen anywhere, and I am reminded of my field trips on these cold gloomy mornings to the field museum nearly every year as a child. When I see the school supplies lining the shelves at every little store I get a sense of nostalgia but also a sense of dread. Candy bars, leaves swaying in the wind against the grey backdrop that is the sky this time of year, cold but not freezing, the excitement for the upcoming holidays, the smell of decaying leaves in the rain, it’s all very nostalgic and melancholic. 

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Short comic, while I work on something bigger on the side. It is nevertheless a very important topic. A lot of seabirds die because they eat plastic. They feed their chicks with the waste. It’s really tragic.

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Routine

work at 7am

wash dishes from night before at 11am

water the yard at 12pm

lunch at 12:30pm

get off at 3am

mess around the rest of the day finding things to do

can’t believe September is around the corner. It’s holiday season already. 

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Beds up against a corner feel cozier

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Me a year ago: imma just invest my money in stocks and never look at it

Me now: checks 5 dozen times a day

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I need to stop sleeping during the day. I seem to be going to bed earlier and earlier yet don’t actually sleep until  a couple hours later. 

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Sensory overload

I get this feeling quite often, yet my heart rate is just normal. It’s a strange feeling, feeling my heart racing but looking down at my watch only to tell me it’s like at 55BPM. lol 

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part of being an adult is living with regret and not allowing it to consume you. the older you get, the more mistakes you make, the more opportunities you missed, the more people you’ve let down. forgive yourself. don’t beat yourself up. you’re still learning: this is a journey.

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Numb

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unapologetically me

don’t make yourself smaller and quieter to make others comfortable