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Same drawing still in the same spot on my desk 9 years later. Amazing to think that its still after moving out of home and having to come back because of COVID.

Finished product. Attempted to colour..

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For all the people who didn’t know him… Jonghyun was everything you could wish for in and idol and more. Beyond his talent, no one could talk to him without gushing about what a good person he was. He was just that lovable and kind. Jonghyun was always outspoken about mental health, lgbtq rights, and inequality. He was always the first one to cry, but he was also always the first one to laugh. He poured his soul into composing and writing music. He suffered from insomnia, but always gave 100% energy on the stage. He liked silly jokes, ballads, and staying indoors. He had one of those voices that could make you cry just by listening to it. He was so kind, gentle, open, and talented. His life was short, but I won’t ever be able to forget him.

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i dont care what shinee does now. they can disband, continue, retire from the public life, keep on going on as a solo. i dont give a fuck. as long as they do what is best for them, what helps them heal and what makes them happy. that is the most important thing. shinee will always be in my heart and memory a group of 5 loving and caring friends. thats how i decided i will forever remember them.

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apparently Minho passed out when they told him and the medical staff had to go help him

my heart is hurting for the rest of Shinee

I can not even fathom how they are feeling

I just want to go back in time

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i dont care what shinee does now. they can disband, continue, retire from the public life, keep on going on as a solo. i dont give a fuck. as long as they do what is best for them, what helps them heal and what makes them happy. that is the most important thing. shinee will always be in my heart and memory a group of 5 loving and caring friends. thats how i decided i will forever remember them.

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to my dearest jonghyun,

you were in pain. you were hurting. you were in pain and hurting and upset and lonely and sad and many other things as you passed on. you were also an amazing singer, talented songwriter, an outstanding human being, an integral president in the shinee world, and a father to the sweetest little ‘roo’. although you are no longer on this earth, your legacy, your love for people who needed help, your love for music, your overall essence, will remain long after. you, kim jonghyun, gave shawols, sm, your family and everyone in this world a piece of your heart through your talented body and we can never repay you for your selfless services, even if it did cost you your own happiness in return. the sweet voice that enchanted many will forever play on, and the songs you wrote are eternal. we say goodbye to your physical presence, kim jonghyun, but never to your soul, your heart, your very being. you were in pain. you were hurting, and now you’re free. so i say goodbye to you, kim jonghyun; insole wearing, puppy-pokemon hybrid look-a-like, crybaby, always-so-extra, kim jonghyun. may we meet again.

your sweetest,

an eternal shawol. 

(900408 -  ∞)

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jonghyun: is there anyone, from our blue night family, that is crying alone?

not crying of pity, but asking, “why am i living like this?” is there anyone that is feeling uselessly sentimental and guilty? 

don’t be like that. i hope you think those bitter days of crying alone are the most beautiful days of your life. you’ll realize with time that your life is actually, pretty alright. i promise you. i’ll write you a guarantee! 

the most beautiful thing in the world is right now, this moment, you. don’t ever forget. 

today’s closing song is boohwal’s “friend, do you know? (친구야, 너는 아니?). until now, it has been blue night, this is jonghyun.  

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Jonghyun and his car

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• at sands

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infatuated with kai | do not edit.

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SHINee - formal code.

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