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google search why am i sad

google search how to not be sad

google search does going outside help with depression

google search nature parks near me

google search bus routes

google search hiking shoes

google search ergonomic hiking shoes

google search ergonomic hiking shoes excludesite: amazon.com

google search best water bottle

google search best water bottle outdoors

google search weather forecast

google search plant identification

google search plant identification with photos

google search tree with hand-shaped leaves

google search plant veins

google search plant veins pulsing

google search common wildlife

google search whitetail deer

google search how big is a whitetail deer

google search big deer

google search do deer have sharp teeth

google search can deer walk on two legs

google search deer talking

google search deer speaking english

google search are there plants that make you hallucinate

google search are there plants that make you hallucinate by inhaling

google search screaming woods

google search bird calls screaming

google search bird calls that sound like human screaming

google search nature park map

google search nature park parking lot directions

google search how to tell which way is north

google search what to do if you’re lost in the forest

google search how to outru

google search cjSi g m3wh Ts oudp

google search kfhwblp up mpsmFg

google search .

google search h

google search howtiapparhumN

google search hpwto ehuman

google search wgTdohunMnCtlije

google search how ti apear humN

google search how to appear human

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If a girl is to do the same superman thing where he takes off his disguise, we just look pervy. Not the same effect

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gorgeous? gorgeous

decay 🌀

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when all paradise is lost go straight to…

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meliora 🦇

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deus in absentia 🌛

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meine gedanken

schaudern und schwanken

wo magst du jetzt wolh sein?

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trains will announce you're stopping in places you never knew existed

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hehe winter holidays happy new year i guess

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I know this sounds like the deranged ramblings of a senile old man but I swear it used to be possible to look up information on the internet

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no, Arthur, please stop using the c-word, you are upsetting the cultists 😭

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Sun is always the calm one. While the Moon has more fps, always moves and wants to gnaw on walls, pace around and destroy timelines, the Sun is the one who prevents the chaos, usually by doing nothing. Or at least that's how I see them.

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Your parents can love you and still be shitty abusive parents. They can mean well and still fuck up. They might fuck up without even knowing it's abuse.

Sometimes I think about how, when I was 5, my dad would make grilled cheese sandwiches and cut them into dinosaur shapes for me. Other times when I was hungry, he would refuse to feed me at all, because he decided that 5 was old enough for me to cook for myself when he didn't feel like doing it.

I think about how he taught me to swim, and fish, and (yes) throw a ball. In the summer, at night, he would wrap me in a huge comforter and carry me around outside to show me the constellations. But I hated being left alone with him because he was often bad tempered, mean to me for no reason, and I couldn't count on him for basic things like food.

Sometimes I think about how my mom raised hell in my high school principal's office in front of multiple faculty members because they weren't complying with my IEP (disability required accommodations). She always saw red if someone else laid a finger on me, even figuratively. When we were at home she screamed at me for things I had no control over and said I was using my illness to get my way.

I think about how she bought me art supplies and paid for lessons for all of my hobbies. She attended every single concert, performance, and game. I don't think I went a day without being told she loved me while growing up, and she constantly told me how proud she was. But I could never trust her mood and she could go from loving mother to terrorizing me before I knew what was happening.

My parents love me but I still flinch if someone in my vicinity washes a dish a little too aggressively. My parents never intentionally traumatized me, but my nervous system never knew the difference. Neither of my parents saw anything they did as abuse; they believed they were good parents. It wasn't until my mom was in her mid 60s that she grasped that her own childhood had been abusive, too.

They're not bad, irredeemable people. They're complex people with a lot of their own trauma who lacked many skills necessary for good parenting. I could hate them for it, but I don't. I'm not obligated to forgive them, and I don't think I have, and I don't know whether I ever really will. My parents damaged me a lot in ways that have affected my whole life, and I still have good memories with them.

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Jon Sims and Arthur Lester both look like they’d be 80 pounds sopping wet and have more scars than an alley cat but the difference is that Arthur lived in the 1900’s and isn’t supernatural so he could kill Jon with his bare hands. Yes even with Jon’s spooky eye thing. He’d be like “Ceaseless Watcher Turn Your Gaze Upon This Wretched Thing” and Arthur’d be like “I’m blind idiot” and murder him with a rock.

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that’s enough emotions for a whole year. ciao

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