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Autumn hunting

I must admit that @henryyarden photo shoot definitely helped my inspiration. The autumn forest is so beautiful 🍂🍁

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Cozy evening

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Radzig, Hanush & Stoicism

look I know, I know

if there is anyone out there who lives for mocking this man, it may be me. ever since this character was introduced, I was torn between laughing at him and poking him with a stick, and feeling nothing but compassion because that man is a loser in both funny and heartbreaking way

my headcanons may be at fault. I see the faces he makes, the little reactions, the incredible awkwardness (and cannot for the life of me understand how people on reddit can possibly think of him as "cool").

I mock every single scene he is in. (lovingly.) I laugh at his "hmmm" that screams "HELP" and I howl at his words of "wisdom" as he speaks of God's test when Henry's having a hard time

and then comes a time I feel nothing but pity and love and sadness and think, man, he is trying. (he isn't. he is drinking wine.) but you know, he could be trying.

and all this time I wonder what makes me like Radzig, and what makes me like Hanush, when I reread an old fic of mine and remembered

that Radzig is so aloof most of the time because he just realized he has been distancing himself from his family for nothing - because that heartbreak the distance was supposed to save him from, was here anyway

that Hanush doesn't really go for this stoic (fatalistic?) approach to life and he kicks around until the last breath and wants Radzig to do the same

and that he wants Radzig to go and tell Henry the truth, and worry openly, and talk without fear about that kid, and be there for him, and risk it all because you are here to live and love with all you have, no matter how much it hurts in the end. (because it will. but that's part of it all. and if you don't have the guts to go through that, you don't deserve what comes before that.)

Radzig tries to practice stoicism, and he doesn't get the most important thing. that you are allowed to care and cry and mourn, that you are here to love with every fiber of your being until the day you can't.

and Hanush gets it for him.

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My dad

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Some kcd wips from old post in main blog

And sketches

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Good Evening to all 4 people in the KCD tags

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as i mentioned before, i'm riding the KCD rollercoaster and i refuse to get out. i ordered a linocut kit and i want to give printing a try with these, hence the limited colour palette. also i was trying my hand at some hippy font combo, but it went all black metal in five layers oops.

these are the reason i'm back here at tumblr. IG has the worst resolution ever, it just makes my posts look all sad and crunchy.

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My new son

I love him sm

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Radzig & Hanush being chaotic BFF’s for 4 minutes (Kingdom Come Deliverance)

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remember that Henry was mad at Radzig for abandoning his mother, and himself, only until he heard that Martin knew

he learned of having a different father and one of his main concerns was, if dad knew, would he love me, would he hate me? did they lie to him? the feeling of betrayal not only on his behalf but the parents that raised him

mother was left behind and of course, she had to find a man to marry, she had no choice, but Radzig did, and he didn't marry her even though he knew she was pregnant with his child. he wouldn't blame his mother if he learned that she lied to Martin, too. he blamed it all on Radzig (as he should), and not only because he was the only one at hand, but because he had the power of making choices

the disgust and horror of it all

only to learn,

oh, Martin knew from the beginning. he took you as his own, blood or no blood, and loved you as his own. he knew, he loved you, he called you his son and meant it.

the relief, the baffled response, "he did?", fragile and so afraid

in that moment Henry softens, and forgives.

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thy kingdom come

frame close-ups

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at a point where i do not care about anything anymore

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just now realized while rendering that i always draw Henry wearing whatever-the-heck he was wearing in my first playthrough. (from memory, too lol)

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hot dog henry

a friend framed my poster :’]

and i made a batch of kcd stickers back in june for my trip to czechia and the rattay fan gathering

managed to slip some of the stickers and posters to lovely new friends also tobi from WH studio <3

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just a day like another in Rattay

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found my old-ish kcd screenshot study. can't say if i like it or not :/ screenshot itself

love this game. love this cutscene