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people who write fics. how do you feel about comments on super old ones you wrote like 2+ years ago

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the most annoying stage of burnout is when i want to write, and i have the urge to write, and somewhere in my skull are the words that want to be written, but they have to get through the cursed minotaur maze first and nobody remembered to bring string

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Ughhhh I got asked if I was pregnant today. Nope....just fat.

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I'm not sorry for venting....cause this is my space. But on top of the burnout I've been feeling, my MIL is staying with us for a week. She's difficult at the best times. We're low contact with her but she invited herself over and my husband is in charge of how much or little we interact with her. He tried to share the burden with his brother but....it didn't go over great. It is going to be a long week. If anyone else is struggling through the holidays, I'm right there with you.

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Lately I've been struggling a lot with caring for myself, caring about caring for myself and feeling like I matter. I eat whatever (a lot of not healthy easy options TBH), am perpetually dehydrated and over caffeinated, haven't worked out in forever, rarely get on my yoga mat and just push through. But, I've been trying to remember a part of my yoga, "what part of this can I do?". Can I drink a little more water, a little less caffeine? can I eat a fruit? A vegetable? Use a shower steamer to feel fancy? I know it's a burn out black hole, it's not the first time. But this shit is hard.

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I just wanted to say that when I feel rather poorly about myself and thinking some not so good thoughts, I actually think about how you check up on me and just like generally care and it helps me a lot. So I really appreciate you. And I just wanted you to know. ♥️

STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE IS MY ABSOLUTE FAV!!

Thank you. This month has kicked my ass in so many ways. Anxiety over the world/my life now that my country has embraced authoritarianism and fascism, sickness and sleep deprivation, work stress, some long term issues with my partner that rise up when we're stressed. I'm in little bit of a dark hole but trying to make it a point to reach out to people and it makes me happy that my efforts help you feel better. 💜💜💜

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ao3 is so funny cause why am i reading smut in an airport restaurant at 10am

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can someone come lay on the ground and be sad with me

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I've been going through it and my creativity has stopped completely. I have time to write tonight but I don't have any motivation. I have a few WIP that I feel so guilty not working on. And then I feel even worse. Does anyone else get this way?

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Steve gets a tattoo.

Eddie knows that cling film plaster patch anywhere. The thing is, no one is talking about it. Steve just shows up at the next get together with his damn bicep wrapped and NO ONE says a word.

So Eddie doesn't either, still too tentative in their friendship.

No one elaborates, no one mentions it. Days turn to weeks, and Eddie learns to ignore the burning question he has. They're still as close as ever, but he never does actually catch a glimpse of that tattoo.

He almost forgets about it.

Until he's on stage.

He's finally made it on stage, with his boys beside him, he's finally getting back his life, better than even before the bats had tried to take him out.

He's just adjusting his guitar, tweaking the strings, when he looks up into the crowd Jeff is hyping up and sees him.

There, amidst the crowd is Steve. Though for a second, Eddie can't recognise him.

His hair is styled differently, a faux hawk with the sides pressed down. Bold black-lined eyes peer up at him, crinkling at the sides as Steve smiles.

He's got on the leather jacket he and Eddie had thrifted a month ago, only the sleeves are gone, ripped off to show his arms, his guns. Boy are they guns, holy shit he loves Steve Harrington's arms.

Except, something breaks his line of vision, a streak of black along the skin.

Steve's not so far from the stage that Eddie can't see it. In fact, it's big enough that it's all Eddie can see right then.

Red and black glisten on that bicep, mimicking the very guitar he's holding, crossed over with that nailed bat that he's all too familiar with.

He looks up at Steve again and the fucker blows a kiss at him, as if he's not wearing a fishnet mesh under the leather vest and he doesn't have Eddie's guitar melded onto his skin.

Eddie plays the best damn show of his life.

He's got a boy to ask out after.

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"craving a food means your body needs something that food can offer" now what the fuck does my body need with an ice cream

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Tumblr makes sense to me bc if i see something i like i get excited and hit the button to show other people and theres no weird unspoken social conventions my autistic brain doesnt understand. I can literally sit here and reblog 150 niche shitposts about harvest mice in an hour just bc they make me happy and i dont have to explain myself to anyone and i'll actually *gain* followers instead of just being called weird and downvoted or whatever its so cool

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Chapters: 22/22 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson Characters: Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson Additional Tags: Friends With Benefits, Eddie Munson Falls First but Steve Harrington Falls Harder, Bottom Steve Harrington, Top Eddie Munson, Dom Top Eddie Munson, Steve Harrington's First Time With a Man, First Time, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Kink Exploration, Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson in Love, Friends to Lovers, Sub Steve Harrington, Mutual Pining, Rough Sex, Shameless Smut, Jealousy, Dom/sub, Claiming, Dirty Talk, Safe Sane and Consensual, Pet Names, a mix of fluff and rough, Steve Harrington Needs Love, Gay Eddie Munson, Bisexual Steve Harrington, Minor CBT, Restraints, Biting, Blood Kink, Sexual Roleplay, Not a story about two boys being gay it’s a story about two boys being in love, Sexual Tension, Master/Pet, Aftercare, Collars, Leashes, Consensual Non-Consent, Piss kink, Angst, Slow Burn Summary:

“Watch your mouth," Eddie warns in a hiss, firmly grabbing Steve's chin, "I — oh, fuck." Steve pouts.

His cheeks turn a rosy red "Yes, Eddie - I'm sorry," Steve says in an apology.

Six months after Eddie gives up his virginity to Steve, Steve comes to Eddie requesting the favor be returned.

The line between friends and lovers blur as the two expand their horizons and explore different sexual interests together.

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Having friends on tumblr is really great. I often refer to you guys in real life as “my friend from england/autralia/california/new york” and it makes people think I’m very well traveled when really I’ve just spent a lot of time on the Internet.