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surprise! it's more neopets

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my finger is healing slowly, but it is healing. it's got scarring on the sides where the damage was, likely on the tendons there. I still can't straighten it fully, and it still swells over time when I do art. but it's gone on to a silicone splint today! the rigid splint needs to be put on occasionally, and I have to massage it often with this horrid little wire sphincter to try and break up the scar tissue and give me flexibility and proper circulation back. I'm kind of mad that my attempt to fix my sleep disorder and correct my ADHD ended up in this injury that'll likely be permanent like... why did the meds do this. why they bully me. i just wanted to be better :(

i also have to go back to therapyyyy oh boy. turns out when you're unemployed and poorly socialized (autism presenting as social anxiety lol) and settle into minor comforts you start getting real skittish about changing that even though existing in it sucks. I just need to be coaxed out of the hole a little bit

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the neopet one!!!!

i need to make another deathclaw oc. maybe two

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i need to make another deathclaw oc. maybe two

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Hey everyone!! Look what's premiering in one hour!!!

This project was so much fun!!! Everyone did amazing with their parts PLEASE go check out the video description for everyone's socials and show them some love!! We all worked super hard on this and hope you enjoy it as much as we do!! ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉ▽`)･ﾟ･。

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honourable mention

so far nobody has liked my outfit :(

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so far nobody has liked my outfit :(

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additional kullen news: concerta and melatonin interacted... poorly. i've always had hypnopompic hallucinations (the kind you get with sleep paralysis. but i'm not paralyzed, i'm REACTIVE) but concerta was metabolizing so slowly out of my system it wasn't letting me sleep well. it did something hideous to my hindbrain and made me panic. so in the throes of a hallucination that just made me imagine someone had come into my room and rearranged my shelf, i launched myself foward, fell fully out of bed, and landed my entire weight on my finger. of my dominant hand. got it xrayed and everything. it's not broken! but it's been a month and a half and I still don't have full use of it. i'm going to physio though - managed to make a fist yesterday for the first time since, so it's getting there. swells up something horrible if i have it out of the splint to do art and I can't straighten it past a 30 degree bend when that happens so it's very slow going.

i've switched to ritalin now which..... works perfectly. same molecule, instant release. can't go to the higher dose bc it gives me mad anxiety and issues with diastolic blood pressure but the starter amount is apparently just right and im ????????? ok.jpg i have mild-moderate adhd so it's not going to pack the same punch as if i had moderate-severe since it's not correcting as much of an imbalance but still it feels pretty good and it hasn't caused any severe side effects other than crashing really hard when they wear off. if only i could get sleep meds that work bc i'm not allowed melatonin any more :')

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city pigeons

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MY DENTAL WORK IS ALL DONE!! the dentist said i was one of her best patients i'm assuming because i just lie there chillin but in reality i was staring up at the ceiling tv judging every single second of low-budget animation and timing cues of Kung Fu Panda Dragon Knight

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also an update on the ADHD situation: nz only gets access to four meds, two of which are the same thing with different release times, and one nonstimulant. I've tried two! one of them made me irrationally angry and the other made me incredibly forgetful and also reacted poorly with my melatonin which has now actually caused me injuries. i'm gonna go on the fast release of my current one and if that fails, the nonstimulant. and if THAT fails, a secret fifth medication will be unlocked (nz's getting a couple more meds approved for use next year)

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tryin more of that neopets style

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oh my god they fucking shrunk her

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the world wasn't ready

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closing asks for a bit u_u if anyone needs to urgently reach me for whatever reason please annote sigils most dark on profaned church altar stone in ash and blood and speak thine writ with thy godless tongue and a demon should smack into my window three days hence and concuss itself

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sike!!! it's a new zealand tree weta (as it says in the tags AND the alt text lol) (one of like, seven subspecies), part of a varied species of ground cricket endemic to aotearoa and only tangentially related to the jerusalem cricket - you'll find other subspecies like the cave weta and giant weta resemble other ground crickets in other parts of the world! you'll note the much larger size, particularly elongated proportions compared to the potato bug, larger eyes, and MUCH longer antennae.

check out this cool dog i found