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i keep making cakes and making them everyone else's problem

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update on my injured finger too - it's almost fully functional again barring some aches and occasional loss of a small amount of mobility. and mystery swelling. the scarring on the sides is going to slowly reduce over time but it's solid and no longer fibrous so that's going to take a while yet.

i can draw again but now the bigger struggle is my focus bc ritalin is making me not really want to sit at my desk any more :[

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monster hunter fusions time!!! Bazel-Legi, Diablos-Deviljho, and the worlds thiccest boy, Dalagama

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free her she has done nothing wrong!!!!!

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TWO wives

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I absolutely love when normal small-ish snails try to eat me it's so charming cause they're just so fucking bad at it. I've sat once staring at a snail that sat on my finger and tried to scrape my fingerprint off for like 3 minutes and when I put it down on a damp rock and checked my finger it just felt a bit more sensitive than usual. I gave it a wild strawberry as compensation for wasting its time, but it sucked at eating that too. I love the snail _@v

this is beautiful. what a stupid fucking idiot. it was trying to steal your identity but doesnt even have any fingers to transfer your prints onto

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the snulprit (snail culprit)

ive been fucking bit by a wild beast .

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ive been fucking bit by a wild beast .

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installed a fresh SSD, a fresh windows, and like, holy shit this is awful lol this is just a comedy of errors at this point

i've still got the old ssd connected which was throwing errors out the ass and I can't tell if it's that or some other startup program (or malwarebytes, seems to be the most common issue) causing windows to crash on start until it unloads the asinine profile login page telling me to Go To The Next Level With AI

the windows profile on that old ssd straight up nuked itself, so now I've got ownership permissions issues that i can't even grant because if I launch the ssd as a boot drive it has zero documents, most of my installs are gone, and the actual important thing I forgot to save prior to the clean install, all my bookmarks and browser history >:( i think my custom-bundled photoshop brushes too but that doesnt matter bc photoshop 2020 UNLOADS all my tools as soon as i close and reopen it. and also closing it doesn't end the process and i end up with a huge list of Photoshops clogging my task manager

also the win11 snipping tool is..... bad? it looks so nasty lol

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my wife

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one of my favorite books as a kid was this one on speculative zoology/evolution that I loved so much I borrowed it to the point my school had to chase me up on returning it several times. it influenced my early creature art and design and pushed me to delve into my own specbio (on dragons. no surprises there). I loved the informatic entries, all their little lore bits and ecological adaptations; the wild color palettes, their weird little shapes. it was called The New Dinosaurs, by Dougal Dixon.

there were two more books in the series that my school didn’t have, which is either a blessing or a curse, because the third book in the set is called Man After Man.

which contains this.

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Big ol post of all the assets for Leech Monsters I've done over the last couple years! we're starting to upgrade the site which I'm very excited about but since my hand is still injured I can't actually start on customizing all the new features, so I may as well share the old stuff!

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cake decorating class finale

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surprise! it's more neopets

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my finger is healing slowly, but it is healing. it's got scarring on the sides where the damage was, likely on the tendons there. I still can't straighten it fully, and it still swells over time when I do art. but it's gone on to a silicone splint today! the rigid splint needs to be put on occasionally, and I have to massage it often with this horrid little wire sphincter to try and break up the scar tissue and give me flexibility and proper circulation back. I'm kind of mad that my attempt to fix my sleep disorder and correct my ADHD ended up in this injury that'll likely be permanent like... why did the meds do this. why they bully me. i just wanted to be better :(

i also have to go back to therapyyyy oh boy. turns out when you're unemployed and poorly socialized (autism presenting as social anxiety lol) and settle into minor comforts you start getting real skittish about changing that even though existing in it sucks. I just need to be coaxed out of the hole a little bit

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the neopet one!!!!

i need to make another deathclaw oc. maybe two

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i need to make another deathclaw oc. maybe two