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yeah ctommy, same man

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so BECAUSE OF THE STREAM I WENT OUTSIDE AND STARTED SCREAMING AT 12AM SO NATURALLY SOMEONE THOUGHT I WAS BEING MURDERED AND CALLED THE POLICE AND WHEN THEY GOT HERE I HAD TO GIVE THEM MY EXPLANATION FOR SCREAMING AT 12AM SO I JUST SAID DSMP AND ONE OF THE COPS EYES SUDDENLY GOT REALLY BIG AND THEN HE SAID "THERE'S A DSMP STREAM??!?" AND THEN HE WATCHED THE STREAM ON HIS PHONE I HAVE A GROWN POLICE MAN SITTING IN MY DRIVEWAY CRYING AND CURSING AT TOMMY UNDER HIS BREATH HIS PARTNER GAVE HIM A SHOCK BLANKET OH MY GOD

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healing despite it all

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getting there

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something that i don't feel like i've seen enough posts about is the fact that. it was a joke. jack logged on as a joke because he lost a bet, intending to "take the piss". it takes maybe a few minutes for him to see the manishroom in his inventory and get genuinely emotional about it, as something he's had since the beginning of the server, as something that represents a hugely important time and series of events in his life. it's--it wasn't planned. it was just... a joke. until, suddenly, it wasn't.

and if that's not the best, most fitting end to the dream smp, i don't know what would be. o7

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[through tears] getting there

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i think the thing that's really hitting me about the dsmp lore stream in 2024 is. it's not just about c!jack and c!tommy, and it's not even just about jack and tommy, but it's also about us. sometimes, when things end, it just hurts. so much just hurts. and you don't look at it for a long time. maybe you go through a phase where you hate it. maybe the people involved turn out to be terrible people. and sometimes things that hurt you make you angry (and god, was anger so core to jack's character, back when it ended). and it feels like you'll always be angry about it. and it'll always hurt. and you'll never want to look back again.

and then one day, you do look back, and you realize you haven't thought about it hurting in a long time.

i have this post about how everything i write is about grief. and you could make a good argument that everything after l'manburg in the dsmp was about grief.

but the thing about stories about grief is: eventually, you look back, and you realize you haven't thought about the grief in a long time. and maybe it's still there. maybe it still hurts. but maybe, also, there's a lot there you love, too. can still love. can still make you happy. it doesn't hurt you as much, as often. you don't think about it as much. you can, despite everything, somehow, it snuck up on you: you can think about something else.

i think about that sometimes.

and i think that's why this wasn't just about jack and tommy. and why it hit me so hard. you know?

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On C!Tommy and grief and moving on

i. @vividlyv1nnie // ii. @greelin // iii. Everything Stays, Adventure Time // iv. @incendavery // v. @bongwalter10 // vi. The Orange, Wendy Cope // vii. When the Ghosts Come Ashore, Jacqui Germain

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Here's the thing about anger:

It doesn't last.

It always feels like it will. Like you're going to be angry forever. Like you have to be. Like you have to be the very fires of hell that you did not let burn you, lest those fires catch up. Like you've got to hold on to your anger lest that thing you're angry with convinces you to love it again. Like you've got to blow the whole world up, because if you don't, it'll hurt you first.

For a bit, it'll be true.

One day, though. One day you'll walk through the snow to a house on the edge of the world, and you'll look at the things that used to make you angry, and you'll realize you've grown up. Maybe you're still angry, somewhere in there. Maybe you're still sad. Maybe you're still hurt. Maybe, if you think about it long enough, the people that destroyed everything and burned you and made you who you are can still change you.

But maybe, you'll realize, you've just...

Fire doesn't burn without fuel, and when a forest burns it leaves behind new soil.

There's no point being angry over a losing hand, is Jack's point.

He has time. He's not on fire any more. He can just play a new one.

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idc how many ppl say experiencing the dsmp wasn't good or fun and they wouldn't do it again if they had a choice i would choose to be here with you every time again and again and again over and over and over and over and over forever

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epilogue.

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what if we all *remembers suicide jokes are unhealthy* built a cobblestone pillar together

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and i'm expected to just move on with my day?

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okay not to be parasocial but there something to be said to about how maybe this means the creators are also in a place where they can do an up ending and a healing ending for their characters where in 2022 they didn't see a way out for their block guys. idk.

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ghe dreamsmp is about the effort of trying to patch up the hole at the center of the earth. and maybe its worht it

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tubbo selling his honey.... he has a beekeeping business.... he still sees tommy from time to time... moved out far away after everything... they have quiet lives now....

tommy has a cottage. he has a cottage. theyre not happy but getting there. and their friendship survived war, it survive dbetrayal, it survived exile, it survived isolation in snowchester and the prison. it survived. They survived. I cant stress this enough