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I’ve never died so quickly in my fucking life

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fall out boy performing FAKE OUT on GMA! (x)

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OH RIP JARROD HE'S GETTING FIIIIIRRRRRED 😭😭😭😭😭

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more best of craigslist, i'm sorry and you're welcome

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The thing about Infinity on High (third studio album by American rock band Fall Out Boy, released on February 6, 2007) is that hhhhhhgnhbhuuuuuuuyyyyyy6yu6yj777777777777777hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhvhhhhhhhhhhjhkjhkjgjhghjgjhghjhhhhhhhhjhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Pete plays Do, Marry, Kill

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They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone But for what we’ve become, we just feel more alone

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the thing that truly Truly unhinges me about infinity on high is that it is not simply an album about the horrible stomach-wrenching rollercoaster of fame and it is not solely an album about wrestling with your demons but it is a marriage of those two it is very much about fighting the worst parts of yourself in the most public avenues available. it's an album that all but rattles with the amount of references there are to medication. every seeming bout of narcissism is undercut with a sardonic twist and the snap of subtle self-loathing brimming beneath.

and the worst part of it is how that isn't even the worst part of it. the worst part of it for me is the fear. the fear of becoming something other than what you are. the fear of getting better. because this is how the world likes you - broken and stripped down to your ugly parts and embittered and exposed. this is how the world wants you, consumes you, because it's in your brokenness that they pick out such pretty patterns like finding rainbows in shards of glass. it's your wrecked-up brain with all its sporadic misfirings that draws everyone to you like moths to a faulty porchlight. i only keep myself this sick in the head 'cause i know how the words get you off. infinity on high. van gogh, the poster child for the ethos of creating something even at your lowest points. the poster child for the speculative, horrifying ethos of how your flaws and faults and fuck-ups are the only things worth keeping. how often have we seen that rhetoric. if van gogh wasn't depressed, we wouldn't have gotten starry night.

on september 15th 2006 at 9:08pm est pete wentz answered a fan question about what accomplishment of his he is proudest of.

I don’t really think about success or accomplishments too often. I guess just being around. Letting myself move past who I used to be- because that person was continually unhappy. Or at least trying to get to that point and not feel like im “changing for the worse” just because im letting myself feel ok. 10 years ago I didn’t listen to anything anyone said ever for the most part.

on september 18th 2006 at 2:36am est pete wentz wrote on one of his blogs how infinity on high was beginning to feel like a "nocturnal record" as it began to take shape.

somehow the things we say mean more in corners of dancefloors and we focus on love below the waist and outside of the head. "dont you want to get better"- i just dont want you to worry. "dont you want to get better" - tonight i do. the way they say "youre committing slow suicide" when someone lights up or cuts loose. but arent we all. everything we do just shortens our life, every breath is one less. but its what makes everything so treasured. in my head. it aint a funeral babe, i just want the headline to die. recovery is the new drug.

it hurts sometimes thinking about who he was in that moment. someone so fucking scared of getting better and desperate to get better, committing every flaw and insecurity he had to paper and trying to make art out of how desperately he fucking hated himself. as if his pain was the only compelling thing about him.

that's what kills me about this record. truly. it's not just about the perils and pitfalls of fame and renown. it's about how it feels, really feels, to think that your fame is reliant on you fucking hating yourself and how that is killing you.

and yet. infinity on high. a title taken from words written in 1888, from van gogh to his brother, as he talks about how his improving health has had a positive effect on his art.

Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on high. Then life seems almost enchanted after all.

van gogh did not give us starry night because he was depressed and suicidal and falling apart. van gogh did not make incredible works of art because of how much he was suffering. van gogh created in spite of that, because he had a brother who loved him and reasons to keep going.

pete wentz did not write some of his best lyrics on infinity on high because he was depressed and suicidal and falling apart. he wrote them in spite of that, because he had people in his life who loved him and over 15 years later he is still alive, he has 3 kids, he has his band who have been together for over 20 years and still love making music together, and at least externally, he no longer feels the need to self-immolate so the onlookers can make pretty patterns from the ashes left over.

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The guy from Weezer having an AI bot run his Twitter and it resulting in a promise of a weezer femboy song

Along w it going rogue and coming out as trans

Is like one of the funnier things to result from the current machine learning craze

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Tell your boyfriend if he says he’s got

that I’m a vegetarian and I ain’t fucking scared of him

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btw fall out boy has literally always been pop. right from the start they set out to be a melodic pop punk band and this got them laughed at by all their hardcore peers. they went into pop intentionally so they could get away from the racism/sexism rampant in the hardcore scene and make music that girls would want to listen to. they were being decried as sellouts from the moment they decided to assign melodies to lyrics and appeal to teenage girls.

they refer to themselves as pop punk. they have always looked into the pop sphere of music for inspiration. take this to your grave was inspired by bands like green day and blink-182 and saves the day because they were doing pop punk. they consider from under the cork tree to be a pop record. when they started doing take this to your grave they were called too pop and then when they did from under the cork tree then tttyg was suddenly punk and okay to like, because now it was from under the cork tree that was pop. and so the cycle goes, as it always has, from the very beginning of their careers.

to suggest that at any point they became "more pop" is kind of bizarre because i'd argue their pop leanings have always been at the forefront and they were 100% aware of and deliberate in marketing their music to a largely female largely teenage fanbase. right from day 1 that was in their dna. dismissing any of their stuff as "too poppy" is ludicrous because it's all pop. all of it.

Fall Out Boy Has Always Been Pop And That's Not A Bad Thing.

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i hope pete keeps wearing the mesh shirt all throughout this era . he looks soooooooooooooo [car crash] [glass shattering] [yelling] [sirens] [explosion]

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I remember when I was first getting into this band and learning their ~~lore, and I was reading reviews of post-hiatus shows, and they were constantly saying that the band ended the set with their traditional song, "fan favorite" Saturday. Like, it was always described as a "fan favorite." And I just remember at the time, before I knew much about this band, being like, Awwwww, they have a song they always end with! And it's not their biggest hit! I love that! How sentimental of them! Why are they so tropey! That's what a fake fanfiction band would do!

And then.

AND THEN. I learned, like, WHAT SATURDAY ACTUALLY IS hahahaha. I learned how it is a song about *them.* How the lyrics are *literally about them.* They don't just have a standard last song, they have a standard last song *that is all about their relationship.* I learned that they consider it the first song they really, successfully wrote *together,* as the team they would eventually be. I learned how, when they sing it live, Patrick points to Pete when he sings, "Pete and I attacked the lost Astoria." Wherever they are on stage, he and Pete sing "more than an hour" to each other. I thought, the more I learned about this song, ...fan favorite? That is not an apt description. Regardless of how much their fans might love Saturday, the set ends with Saturday because it is *their* favorite.

When Patrick said, at the show last night, "It means more when we play this song here," like, yes, it ALWAYS means a lot to them when they play this song. They always end their sets with a song from their very beginning, and it has always killed me to know that, but it kills me even more to know so explicitly how much it means *to them.* They play the song they've been playing together for decades, and they play it in Chicago, at the Metro, together, and it means more. When Patrick sings "me and Pete," Pete sings along.

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I don't think we talk about Andy and Pete being friends enough. How did that even happen. Andy is a self professed anarcho-primitivist. He hates the government. He's so straightedge that he won't even pretend to drink in music videos. Pete Wentz's parents met through the Biden administration. Everyone in his family is either a lawyer or a politician. He was a polisci major. How did Andy not just flatten him on principle. how did they start like 4 bands together. How did the Chicago punk/hardcore scene not look at pete and go for the jugular on instinct because they could smell the old money radiating off Kingston Wentz III over there

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An important message from Patrick

Inspired by the Ray Toro Edition