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You should get back with Max. You two were so cute together.

man who is still following my tumblr LOL!!

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Are you still friends with Jason Wu?

no

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Max > Jason

i agree?

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Are you still with Jason?

no

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Max.

what about max?

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And to your what do you know; I know a lot more than you'll probably ever know

I know - this isn’t something i really do want to know about. By your tone though, you probably aren’t my friend so we’ll just both have to know the SOB will have karma hit him hard.

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anon: what do you know?

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something happened to me.

I don’t write about things. I don’t put my thoughts out like this. I don’t like to have people know about my life. But something happened to me and I broke this time in a way I’ve never broken before. I could fix myself in the past. This time, I can’t even fix myself.

Something happened to me, and I’m fucking pissed. Something happened to me and while everyone gets it when I tell them, no one truly does. I hope that no one will ever have to actually understand what I went through, because that would mean they went through it too.

How much do you think you know a person? How many times do you think a person can say that they care about you but continuously act only in self interest? How long do you think a person stays in a state of regret and shame? How fast does a person become someone that they once said they aren’t like?

In my case: Not sure. Many. Not very long. Very, very quickly.

For once in my life, I hope the worst for a person. For once, I hope you feel the pain that I feel, forever. For once, I hope that every person you’re with after me, you see and you remember the pain that you caused me. I hope you see my pain in their eyes. 

But maybe you won’t. Maybe you’re still deluded that what you did wasn’t that bad. Maybe you still find excuses for your actions. Maybe you will still blame the breakdown of communication on my past. Maybe you’ll move on because its not your problem anymore. 

I will never forget this. I will take a long time to heal. I will not bounce back like you very much have. I am angry. I am irrationally angry and maybe it isn’t even irrational. I have a right to my anger. I never owed you anything. You destroyed my trust. You destroyed a part of me. For someone who claimed to care so much, you cared so little about me. 

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