emilydixiesavannah

[emilydixiesavannah]

Rereading my journal entries to keep that spark of hope alive

[emilydixiesavannah]

Waking up in a stranger’s bed

(In a non sexual way)

It’s disorienting

Where am I?

Haven’t slept in my own bed in over a month

Which puts me at least year if you think about it

This room is so dark

It takes me a few minutes to remember where I am

The world feels like death and the spirits are crashing down on me

[emilydixiesavannah]

I do believe in true love but I think I’m just too scared to accept it could be real for me

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Not a fan of this artist but this song hits this is me when I overshare ohmygosh

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The night sky is bright, the clouds are white, smells like it might snow tonight!

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Nobody talks about how exhilarating it is to forget someone’s name you wish you never met

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Handwriting is the external gateway to the soul

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Are you there to take them to heaven?

[emilydixiesavannah]

Inspired by Percy Jackson

(i wrote this when i was falling asleep lol)

He wakes up early, rising with the sun like the tides in the distance.

She, the beautiful Sun, washes down his back in rays of white and yellow as he dives into the water, engulfed in light as the world slowly starts to warm up around him, the last of the sunrise crowd dissolved into the sea.

She stays up late, her mind racing with possibilities, inventions, solving crisies, fighting sleep like it's all up to her.

It is the Night, and her time to act is Now. She can feel Him creeping up on her, but she refuses to admit it. The pessimist, the creator, the solver. It will never snow. The moon is nothing but a glowing rock without evidence. She might sleep soon. She might-

(They will never meet.)

[emilydixiesavannah]

from "promise"

and now i'll never know what could've been

and every second's got me wondering...

if i let you leave and keep my promise until the bitter end

then am i even being honest, and not playing pretend?

[emilydixiesavannah]

love no.1

I've been asked if I've been in love before and honestly, I don't know.

I am what you could call a serial romantic.

I romanticize everything. The trees' rippling shade on the bright green grass, the water gently brushing against the cement of the walkway we stand on, the soft smell of freshly baked scones from a boxed mix, it is all so beautiful.

Even the ugly is beautiful.

When I look at you, you are the most beautiful thing I've seen. I have never seen ugly in a person's face, their body, their voice, smile, handwriting, it is all so, so beautiful.

Some people have ugly personalities. I am not in love with them.

But I am in love with everything about creation.

How wonderful it is to feel.

[emilydixiesavannah]

moving in, moving out

Today I helped my very closest friend sign her first lease.

She is moving into an apartment.

Years ago, around this time actually,

I helped my lifelong best friend move

out of the house i've known her in

since she was five

and into her adulthood home.

We are no longer friends today.

It was bittersweet helping my friend sign her lease today.

[emilydixiesavannah]

they won't ever know each other

2 boys, four different states,

Wouldn’t ever know each other

but they might as well be brothers

[emilydixiesavannah]

chameleon

The more I get to know you

The more you make me sick

As your faces start to merge

I’ll try and see where I can fit

Cuz the more I get to know you

The less I know myself

Queen of adoration mirror image

Her identity cries help

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I can’t sleep.

As much as I’d like to, my brain won’t shut down. Maybe I should shut the computer down.

What am I avoiding?

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for the first time ever in my life, I'm making big plans for my future. i'm thinking ahead. wow, who would've thought?

[emilydixiesavannah]

You wanted so bad to relate but you just didn’t make sense