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[elysianxoxo]

i am 16. SIXTEEN i only have a few years left of being able to do what i truly want to do and not face “the real world” this is supposed to be the time of my life but instead i’m staying in my room and canceling my plans because i’m too fat..i need to get my self back on track before i waste away these final years

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i’m so mad rn. my doctor won’t shut up abt my weight even tho i’ve said multiple times i don’t like talking about my weight since it’s a sensitive AND SHES TRYNA SEND ME TO A WEIGJTLOSS PROGRAM!!! i got blood work done and literally everything is healthy,, they don’t care abt eating disorders unless ur skinny, i’m finna lose tons of weight before my next appointment just to prove a point😐

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god she’s perfect

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nothing hurts more then being so close to your ugw and binging 80+ lbs back. i’m tired of this, i miss the skinny privilege i would experience. i miss being able to only eat one meal (or none at all) a day and being satisfied.

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i just have to get through the school day, sleep, then eat at night. sounds easier than what it is :( technically fasting???

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LMAOOO stumbled upon this on my fyp. are people seriously this delusional?? the chick was only referring to how cold she gets because of her weight? have a fat person say they get hot easily no one would be mad.

like wtf why is this girl putting words in her mouth,let people live. it’s no ones fault you got triggered over something she might not be able to control

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ik i cant be 100% certain abt calories i burn but y’all LOOK!?!? it was so easy i didn’t even feel like i was working out yet i was dripping sweat

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AHHG i just bought a shit ton of back to school clothes purposely a size smaller than i am now- this is either a terrible idea and a waste of money or will motivate me, i do the dumbest shit💓

anyways i got two weeks to get in shape for these clothes wish me luck

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anyone knows any depression meds that don’t make you fat lol

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lunch of champions 😩😩

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AHHH after tonight i’m not eating until tuesday

i’m hanging out with this boy i’ve LOVED for the longest time

wish me luck guys..longest fast i’ve done was for a day

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i’m so irritated 😐 i cant see/send messages on here and i’ve already tried to verify my email

if anyone wants to be mutuals (i seriously need some) please reblog or smth?! idk i might just post my snap yolo

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day two:

i’m 5’5. no i don’t like my height. honestly ik a lot of people on here would love to have model height but really i wanna be like 4’10, super tiny

so delicate i could be picked up and tossed around lol

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i’ve never felt more alone

i’m lying to myself that i don’t mind.

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AHHH i’m gonna start this

Day one: current weight- 225 lbs💔,she/her, 15, 5’5

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my first day water fasting and i start my period 😐 lovely.

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soooo who was gonna tell me danimals smoothies are only 50 CALORIES???!?? i thought they were so much more i’m so happy-