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Appetence Status Update

Hey everyone, I just wanted to pop in with a quick announcement regarding the next update for Appetence. 

I’ve received quite a few messages asking when I plan on getting the next chapter up, and I thought it would be best to make one general post to answer this. I have to be honest: I haven’t made much headway. Earlier this month, my cat that I’ve had for 15 years was diagnosed with large-cell lymphoma, and, despite trying to treat it, she ended up having to be euthanised last week. It took me by surprise with how quickly everything escalated, and I’m still trying to come to terms with what happened. As such, I haven’t really had the motivation or desire to write or edit anything. 

I just hope everyone can understand and be a bit patient with me at this time. But please know that I definitely still have plans on updating— it just probably will not be this month.

On that note, I do want to take a second and say thank you to everyone who has reached out and expressed gratitude/excitement that I’ve picked up Appetence again. It always makes my day to see these comments from you guys— especially right now 💕 You guys are all amazing. 

Until next time 💕

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Hi! I may have missed this but do you have a fancast for Tom? I keep imaging as the 16 year old version and that’s definitely not accurate cause V is much much older 🫠 (just found appetence—on a total binge)

Hi there!

First off, I'm really flattered you're bingeing Appetence right now— it's definitely not a small commitment, so I'm happy it's holding your attention so far 💕

Secondly, I did answer this before— but I'll gladly do so again! Because you're right: the Tom we see in the Chamber of Secrets is a bit too young looking for the Appetence AU. When I first started writing, I accidentally stumbled upon the fancast of Tom Hughes as an older version of Tom Riddle, and I wholeheartedly jumped on that train 😂 He's got that charisma and dark allure that I think is pretty central to Tom's character, and is the perfect age for Appetence's timeline. Like this a man who could be in charge of the country, you know? 😂 And also his smirk 🤭😏 I'm not ashamed to say I do love a good smirk, which Hughes nails.

So yeah, I mostly picture Tom Hughes! There are so many good videos out there as well fan-casting him as Riddle, and I highly recommend going down that rabbit hole, if you're so inclined 😂 But I'll just submit this gif for evidence as to why I personally like him as Riddle:

Anyway, thanks for the question! I hope my answer helped a bit 💕

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Hello there!

Little question that might come off as weird but I’ve had it in my head ever since reading the Jealousy Has Thorns chapters. I know Voldemort is very jealous and would most likely kill anyone who touches Harrie but I’m wondering if she does willingly cheat (kiss, sleep or love someone else) how would that changes the dynamic between her and Voldemort ? How would he react ? Besides the obvious violence he would impact on the other party involved, it’s quite clear he can’t hurt her or kill her. Would that be a case of “cheat on me, give yourself to someone else and you will regret it for the rest of your life” or “nothing will ever be the same between us, you’ve betrayed me” or both and something else ? How do you think this would impact the dynamic between them long-term and their relationship? Would they ever recover ?

If you’ve made this far thank you I would love to hear your thoughts !

Oh my god, anon, stressing me out with this imagined scenario. I love it 😂 But no, it’s not a weird question at all!

I think it would be a little of both, as you suggested, and depend on the "severity” of said cheating. I think if it was solely physical, then he would be more okay with it (and kissing/fooling around more so than actually have sexing). Of course, this isn’t to say he’d be fully fine with it— and yes, like you theorized the person she cheated with probably wouldn’t be long for the world— but I believe he would eventually come around to begrudgingly accept it, especially if it was something that only happened once or twice. In his mind, the rational would be that she was probably curious as to what being intimate with others felt like (seeing as V was her first), and would chalk it up to that. We do know Harri leans towards bisexuality (given her crush on Ginny and Cho)— so if she slept with a woman, then it would be even easier for V to say it was an impulsive curiosity. Overall, I can see him being jealous when he finds out, but not allowing it change their relationship too much. That being said, this scenario is for further into the future when their relationship is more well-established (if she happened to sleep with someone else right now, it’d be catastrophic— he’s too insecure when it comes to Harri’s affections to be presently fine with it). Of course, I can also see V interpreting her cheating as a challenge, the possessive bastard he is 😅😂 Turn it into a whole ‘make her tell him, in explicit detail, everything she did with the other person so he can outperform them and prove he’s better’ situation 😂 😏

Where it gets reeeaaall messy though is when feelings are involved 😬Fooling around without any attachment is one thing— but fooling around and developing feelings? Yeah 😅 I personally can’t ever see him recovering from it if Harri told him she loved someone else. In that scenario, it would mean she was choosing them over him and saying what /he/ can offer her— his affection, his loyalty, his everything— wasn’t enough, nor will it ever be. At least when it’s limited to the purely physical, she would still have an /emotional/ attachment with V— but remove that? Yikes. Just yikes. We know he doesn’t handle rejection well, thanks to his childhood trauma, and that he suffers from deeply-suppressed doubts of self-worth. In fact, one of his greatest fears is just that: Harri will come to reject him for not being ‘good enough’ (which I could write an entire paragraph about how that’s tied into his ego and psyche to the point he worries his own soul will find himself lacking— but I digress). Anyway, Harri would be confirming these doubts and I truly believe it would absolutely devastate him. Push him right to the extremes, you know? Plus, as you’ve pointed out, he’s an insanely jealous individual who doesn’t know how to share or deal with competition for Harri’s affection. Hell, he already has difficulty coping with the fact she has preexisting /platonic/ relationships— so never mind a romantic once. Also, I think the intensity of his reaction would depend on /when/ she meets this person: was it someone she knew /before/ her life with V? Or was it someone she met while they were together? Because if it’s the former, then there might be the potential— and let me stress this word might— for a degree of understanding since it would be a pre-established relationship. But if it was someone she met afterwards? Well, it would only compound his feelings of inadequacy/serve as proof to it.

I gotta be real with you though, it would be a very, very bleak situation if she ever said she loved someone else. Turn it into a ‘Dead Dove’ situation real fast 😅 I don’t see him ever trusting her again and, frankly, giving up on having a relationship with her entirely. Basically, he would shut down— and not in a ‘I’m going to cry myself to sleep every night’ way, but in a ‘I’m turning off my humanity’ way. In order to cope, he would seek to distance himself from her and the memories of what they once were by viewing her as /only/ a vessel for his soul. To that end, I could see her being locked away somewhere without any social interaction— and then, maybe after a couple of decades, only having V sporadically visit her. There would be a lot of denial on his part that he’s hurt by her betrayal— because he’s ‘Lord Voldemort’ and is above such trifling emotions (or so he’d tell himself)— and this would manifest in how he acts going forward 😅 All of that progress/emotional growth we’ve seen would be obliterated as he becomes closer to the tyrant portrayed in the canon (though probably worse, to be honest) and force Harri to watch as he burns the world down. For the first few months following her betrayal, he would target her weaknesses— just to make her hurt— and wouldn’t have any qualms about breaking his promise on harming those she cared for. Hell, he’d do it in front of her, even—a very much so ‘if I can’t have you, no one can’ mentality. I can even picture him going full sadist mode and having her either kill her lover herself, or keep them around for a few decades to torture. Basically, it would bring out the /absolute worst/ in him. I mean, this is the same guy who skinned a man alive and beheaded a house-elf like it was just another Tuesday 😅😅 He definitely has it in himself to be extraordinarily cruel and vicious, and her betrayal would be the final straw.

Overall though, I don’t think he would look favorably upon cheating of any sort— but he would be able to process/justify one kind more easily than another and move forward. But also tell me why I lowkey want to write the second scenario now……. 😬🤭 Maybe as an alternative ending sort of situation? 😂 Anyway, I could write a lot more on this, but this answer’s getting pretty long as it is— so I’ll leave it here for now!

Thanks for the question and the food for thought! 💕

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Appetence Update

Chapter 68 || A Red Setting Sun [9,350 words]

It took a bit longer than anticipated, but Chapter 68 is finally posted 💕 Hope you guys enjoy!

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Ahem... can we expect any smut soon👀

Hi!

I'm dying a bit at this question and the emoji 😂 Mostly because I fully get you— I know it's been a few chapters since they had a moment.

As it stands right now, I'm not entirely sure. I do have a few smut scenes pre-written/drafted for future chapters, and I know exactly where I want them to happen in terms of the overall plot— but I'm just terrible at estimating how many more chapters it'll be until then 😅 Giving concrete answers, if you haven't already noticed, isn't my forte.

However, your request and interest is duly noted 👀 I maaayyyy try to slip in a scene within the next two chapters, since there is definitely potential for it going in that direction. No promises— but I'll see what I can do 💕

Thanks for the ask!

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10 year time-skip?? I don't know what to expect omg. I was wondering how many chapters have you planned for this fic? Do you plan to write about them afterwards?

Oh boy, asking the hard questions, aren't you anon? 😅😅 Honestly, I have no idea how many chapters there will be. I tend to operate on a 'I have Plot Points A, B, C, D, etc to hit' (and usually not in a linear progression, either), and I just keep writing until I feel satisfied a subplot has wrapped up. This is to say I'm a semi-pantser when it comes to writing and often go by the ✨vibes✨

Honestly, every time I've tried to adhere strict outlines of what should be in each chapter/who should be in it, it never ends well. It just kills my creativity and makes me hate what I've written.

But to give you a relative idea, I initially plotted Appetence to have 4 separate 'arcs'. Originally, this was /meant/ to be 4 different titles under a collection called Appetence. However, I held a poll in the early stages of writing, and people collectively agreed they'd prefer it to be a longfic— so this is where we are 😂😅 Currently speaking, we're in Arc 2 with 4-5ish chapters left before Arc 3. I am debating on making Arc 4 its own title— since that's when the time-skip occurs— but I'm not too sure yet.

As for continuing to write about Appetence!Harri and Vee afterwards, I do plan on releasing a vignette collection at some point with little snippets/scene that didn't make into the main fic (things like day-to-day moments with them, some spicy scenes, etc).

Though mostly, I have a horrifying amount of WIPs for other Harrymort/Tomarry stories in various stages of completion that I also want to get posting 💕 It's just Appetence demands to be an only child at the moment 😂😅

Anyway, thanks for asking! I'm sorry I couldn't give you a more concrete answer 💕

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Pretty strange question but what is your headcannons for the characters heights? I know you describe Harrie as somewhat short, Voldemort as very tall and Snape as tall as well if I recall correctly. Just curious lol, thank you if you entertain my stupid curiosity!

Hi!

Not strange at all, nor stupid! I honestly love getting to answer questions like these, since it gives me a chance to talk more about the little details that I don't explicitly state 😂

I did answer this question before (here's a link, if you're interested), BUT this time I come bearing visual aids!!! (can you tell I'm excited over the little chart I made 😂).

Specifically speaking, Voldemort is quite tall, whereas Harri is a little less than average for the typical height of a woman in the UK (due to her malnutrition issues). However, when she does wear heels, she tends to be at/ a little over Voldemort's shoulder).

On the note of other characters not featured:

Lucius is 5'11 (but tells people he's 6' because he just has that energy and an inferiority complex that his son is almost the same height).

Sirius is Barty's height, and Remus is slightly taller than Snape by half an inch.

Hermione is 5'5" and Ginny is about the same (5'4"-5'5")

Ron is 5'11" (I've always just pictured him being pretty tall and lanky).

Anyway thanks for the ask! 💕 And if anyone wants the link to the chart, it's here.

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You got me really curious when you said 'a very V way of handling'. I'm thinking of lots of possibilities but I bet none of them true haha. Also I wonder will they reach a point where Harri won't leave his side even if she can? Will she stay with him just because she wants to? And my other question is that will there be a power balance between them(like maybe 5-10 years later)? I think I'd like to see Harri to challenge V in every way. I imagine her being the 'Dark Lady' eventually but not losing the 'light' inside of her so she becomes even more powerful.

Hi there!

Oooo 👀👀 Well if you want to share some theories, I'm always down to hear them! And who knows, maybe one of them will be right (of course, I won't say if they are or not 😂). 

As for your first question, I would say yes— or at least, she wouldn't leave willingly/if she had a choice. She's already sort of getting there, as evidenced by how comfortable she's gotten to be around him (sleeping in the same bed, laughing at the beginning part of their duel (before, ya know, things got out of hand), etc) and you'll see more of her thoughts on V/what she wants out of their relationship in this next chapter or so. But it's also difficult to say whether their relationship is something that she would've chosen if given the option in the beginning, or it's something she's being conditioned towards wanting, you know? This is why I tagged it as 'Mildly Dubious Consent'— it's hard to make these judgments of whether Harri's wants are autonomous or not when these wants are being formed within the context they are, if that makes sense? This is especially important to consider given that V has enforced the narrative that he's the only one for her/she'll be rejected or despised by others if they learn what she is. To that end though— because this does sound a bit cynical— I will say she certainly has feelings for him which are bound to intensify the longer they are around one another.

Of course, this ties into your second question! The thing with Harri and V is that their power dynamic is rather fluid. While it does tend to skew in V's favour most of the time, there have been several subtle instances where Harri has held power over him. Some of the ones I can think of are when she has information V doesn't, manipulating him to get what she wants, leaving during certain situations and making him come to her, etc. But in terms of it evening out and making the dynamic more balanced, I'll say to an extent, yes. There will always be a degree of inherent imbalance due to the nature of their relationship (V being the original soul and Harri being the horcrux), but Harri will absolutely gain more leverage in the future as she comes into her own and develops the confidence to challenge him outright. You'll see this shift in the next couple of chapters, but it'll get even more obvious later on. I do have a ~10 year time-skip planned, so you'll see what I mean! As for the 'Dark Lady' bit, it's an interesting idea, but my lips are sealed lol.

Anyway, thanks for the questions! I also love getting to answer them 💕

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I'm so excited about Harri and V's conversation in next chapter. I mean what he is gonna say to her? He is definitely not the one to apologize. And Order will try to kidnap Harri right? Oh god, it will be a disaster.

Hi there!

I'm glad to see you're excited! 💕 But you're absolutely right: V isn't one to apologise. I think a lot of readers are expecting him to get on his knees, say 'sorry', and beg for forgiveness. Now don't get me wrong, I love moments of angsty grovelling as much as the next person, but that's not how it's going to play out— it doesn't really fit this universe's Voldemort, you know? 😅 Mostly because I've always approached him as an incredibly proud character with pride simultaneously being his greatest asset and his greatest fault. And sure, in the last chapter, he recognised that he messed up— however, it's one thing to do so in the safety and privacy of his own mind, and entirely another to verbally admit it by saying "I'm sorry". I just can't see him putting himself in a situation where he acknowledges/accepts culpability in front of another person (even if said person is his horcrux).

Admittedly, that's been the most difficult part in writing the next chapter: finding a resolution that will be satisfactory for you all as readers, while also remaining true to his character/faults. So to that end, I will say how he approaches the situation may be unconventional and not quite what you're expecting— but it is a very V way of handling it 😂😅 And, at least in my opinion, it doesn't disappoint. I'm actually quite happy with what I have planned, so I hope you'll be as well 💕

As for the Order, that's a whole other issue I'm going to refrain from commenting on for now. But I will say, true to the general vibe of Appetence, things will get very messy very quickly 😅

Anyway, thanks for the message and for the show of enthusiasm! I always love getting to hear from you guys 💕

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Posting a chapter at what I assume must be 3am for you is so you-coded. I fucking loved it so much and when I tell you I JUMPED at that notification at work, phew Christmas came early ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

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.......you know me too well 😂😅 At this rate, I'm going to have to post during the day to keep you on your toes (let's be real though, that's probably never going to happen).

Anyway, thank you so much 🥺🥺 I'm glad you enjoyed it and were excited to see a notification 😭 💕

Here's to more to come 🥂

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Appetence Update

Chapter 67 || Priorities [5,046 words]

Do you ever just write a chapter and think "oh my god, this character needs therapy"?

Yeah, that's me spending an entire 5k worth of words solely in Voldemort's head 😂😭

Anyway, hope you guys enjoy this messy man and his emotions. More shenanigans will hopefully ensue.

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Girl i love you so much, I would your lawn everyday, wash your dishes and go to work for you so you don’t have to

Asfghdjk 🥺💕 Okay, but actual footage of me right now reading your comment:

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AHH ITS HAPPENING (elysian!! Drop another chapter and my life is yours💞💞🙏)

Poor draco, getting zapped even though it isnt his fault😔

Tom is about to be in VERY hot water from now on, wonder how he'll recover from that

Hi!

It is indeed happening! I'm so happy to see you're excited 🥺 It's been a bit of a struggle getting back into writing after being gone for so long— but I'm definitely glad that I can continue Appetence 💕

And I know! I feel for Draco (but also, you know me and my angst 😂). This next chapter is going to touch a bit more on some Dark Mark lore (because I can't help myself with this world-building nonsense) before getting to Voldemort and Harri working through their problems. A warning: it's going to be a lil rough and emotionally heavy, but they need this lol. And yes— he is in very hot water (which he's aware 😂). Overall, I think it's going to be a good experience for him— he needs to be humbled a touch.

Speaking of the next chapter, I may post his POV separately as a bit of an appetizer ahead of the main one. I got a bit carried away writing it, and I fear it may make the main chapter a bit unwieldy in terms of length. If I decide to go that route, it should (*hopefully*) be up sometime this coming week 💕💕

Anyway, thanks for the message and the hype! I'm really touched to see it 🥺💕

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Appetence WIP Snippet

Hello everyone! Since I've received a few requests to share a snippet from Chapter 67, I decided to post something 💕 I still have to edit it, so excuse any errors— but it's coming along, I promise 😂

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Just re-read the part where Draco is wistfully remembering Harrie’s wishes about going off the grind, the cottage by the sea and the colors of the walls…-

I need to be sedated 😭

Oooooo, yeah that’s a good scene! I remember dying a little while writing it 😭 But I’m so sorry that I laughed. "I need to be sedated"— afgdhsjakghfjdsk, please 😂😭 (Though, I get it. Trust me, I do. I'm not immune to that pain).

You know, I actually ended up liking Draco more than I intended. He wasn't supposed to have as many scenes as he does— but I just fell in love with his POV and the way his character was developing. Which, I guess I should have seen coming, because it is always the side characters I get attached to. Since his first POV in Chapter 11 though, I was sold 😅

On that lovely note, you're just going to love Draco and Harri's upcoming interaction in this next chapter (it's going to hurt a little, not gonna lie):

Pivoting her broom so her back faced the manor— shielding both her face and Draco’s— Harri sighed, “You shouldn’t be here.” “I know. But I saw you, and thought you looked like you needed some company. Someone to talk to,” he trailed off, unsure.

Like please, this boy. This boy.

Anyway, thanks for the laugh— and for re-reading! I appreciate it 🥺💕

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Now that Harri is 17 does that mean she gained her legal independence?

Hi!

I could have sworn I responded to something similar before on my Tumblr, but I can’t seem to find it in my posts! (Now that I think about it, it also could have also been a comment on Ao3 😅) However, to answer your question, not quite!

How I have approached this is a blend between canon and my own ideas. In the canon wizarding world/ Appetence, 17 is generally seen as the age of magical maturity. This is when one’s magic matures and stabilizes, making one less prone to bouts of accidental magic and allowing them greater control. With this also comes a slew of new abilities and ways of utilizing magic. For example, Apparating is only taught to those 17 years or older as their magic is considered stable enough to channel it without the risk of splinching. In terms of the Trace, it also falls away at 17 because this is when the magic of a child and the magic of an adult becomes indistinguishable. For Appetence specifically, this is also when one’s disposition for magic becomes known (i.e. whether they lean towards using light-oriented or dark-oriented spells). 

However, it is not the age of legal independence. This is where Appetence deviates a bit from the canon universe. I ultimately decided to make the legal majority and magical majority two separate things because many students have yet to graduate from Hogwarts when they initially turn 17 (and are therefore still under their parents’ or guardians’ care in the summer preceding the term or during the holiday breaks). In my mind, it makes sense they are legally considered full-fledged adults once they turn 18 and have consequently graduated from Hogwarts as this is when they complete the mandatory schooling that makes them productive members of wizarding society. For example, they can’t pursue a career, like working at the Ministry, without graduating first and completing their N.E.W.T.S. Also, having two separate ages of majority allows a transition period for the parents/guardians to get affairs in order and make any necessary arrangements to transfer holdings, property, vaults, etc to their charges. This process usually begins when said charges turn 17 and is completed by their 18th birthday. In my headcanon, this is a particularly arduous process as it involves re-signing deeds, getting new vaults or keys, manually shuffling around money, removing names from accounts, etc— basically, it's a whole year of numerous appointments and going back and forth with Gringotts (in case you're wondering what parents/guardians are up to while their students are finishing their schooling 😂). This, of course, is further complicated when a family owns several residences and property allocation has to be decided. You'll see this process explained more in-universe sometime in the following chapters, but that's the gist of it!

So socially speaking, 17 is seen as being the age of consent/ the age of recognition of magical adulthood. However, 18 is legally the age for complete independence wherein a person can make their own financial or legal decisions. So really, it’s just a matter between what is socially accepted versus what is actually written into the law. 

For Harri specifically, she has reached her magical majority, but not her legal one. That being said, Voldemort should be getting preparations in order to transfer over her assets— but we'll see how that goes 😂

Hopefully this explanation helps a bit!

Thanks for asking 💕

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Hello!! Thank you so much for taking time to answer my questions. For resentment part, I get it but still i think i'm having a hard time how she is being forgiving over her parent's death. Wouldn't that kind of hate and resentment last forever? He killed her parents, took away her family and a life that she couldn't even imagine. But I do get 'preserving herself' and the apathy. Her life is traumatic so this is how she survives.

Oh and the children. I do agree, it would be a disaster especially now(or soon). But my imagination goes like this: Minimum ten years later, Harri somehow got away from him(yeah its impossible) and raising her children on her own far away(and then she is coming back!! How? Why? Where? What happened? Nobody knows haha) Its an impossible scenario but yeah. I feel like even though she'd have lots of issues with 'being a good mother' i think she yearns to have a family. She'd try to give her children everything she didn't have. Would she struggle? Definitely, a lot. And as for V, yes, i just cannot see him as a father. You are so right about him seeing children as a competition and a threat. I guess she'd have this kind of family with Draco maybe?? *sighs* I just want her to be happy and content at the end but so much for living with the devil. I just cant stop thinking about their children and in my mind, they are twins -a boy and a girl- and they are the perfect image of 'royal' pure-bloods. I imagine they'd have the deadly grace and cunning of V and, spirit and braveness of Harri. Super powerful and eventually will clash with their father(my brain cells are writing their own story at this point haha). Anyway, they are living in my head rent free and its your fault for writing such a good story!! I can't wait for the next chapter!

Hi!

You’re so welcome 💕 Thanks for asking! 

That’s totally fair you’re having trouble understanding why Harri is forgiving when it concerns her parents’ death. I think a lot of people are, especially since canon!Harry’s loyalty towards/love of his parents was a pretty defining trait that shaped a lot of his experiences and how he related to others in the story. However, when writing Appetence, I was thinking quite a bit about developmental trauma— especially for children who have lost their parents at an early age— and how this can often manifest in a complete detachment as a way of coping. And for Harri, that’s really what has happened. We get some insight as to how she frames their death and how she has removed herself from it. For example, there’s a point where she mentions that she doesn’t think of Lily and James as individuals or as her parents, but more-so as a vague concept— and that it’s difficult for her to mourn them when she doesn’t possess any memories or awareness of who they were as people. I believe it was in Chapter 51 (??) when she’s walking with Snape in the maze that this gets brought to the forefront. In Harri’s inner-dialogue, she mentions how she can’t bring herself to miss James or Lily because they might as well have been strangers to her. Everything she knows about them comes from second-hand sources, and when you think about your own life— such as hearing stories of a friend’s friend that you don’t really know—  it’s hard to care about them on the same intimate level that you may care for someone you personally know. This is compared to Snape who has pretty intense feelings of grief when it comes to Lily as he grew up with her. For Harri, however, she never had that chance to make any meaningful connection with her parents and this has resulted in a pretty apathetic, detached stance. 

Of course, while she does think about, and sometimes mourns, the idea of what having parents may have been like— what life could have been— when it comes to hating Voldemort for specifically killing Lily and James and taking that away, she doesn’t feel that. But it’s like I said in my previous answer: she doesn’t like to expend the resources on entertaining the could-have-beens and constantly resenting not having them be true. It’s not productive, and she knows it— she has to keep moving forward and try to be content as she can with reality. After all, it just would be a waste of energy to always be upset with Voldemort for something that can't be changed any more. That being said, however, if Voldemort did end up killing someone close to her— like Sirius, for example— yeah, that would 100% result in a great deal of hatred and resentment. This is because she knows Sirius as a person and has made certain attachments that she doesn't have towards Lily and James.

However, I totally understand why you have a hard time relating to Harri when it comes to this issue. For a lot of people who grew up with their parents or with some form of parental love (which Harri also did not get until far too late in her life), this sounds foreign. But it’s a rather real phenomena for those without these connections— or where these connections were severed prematurely— that detachment becomes the defining characteristic of their attitude towards their deceased or absent parental figures. And frankly, I just thought it would be a fascinating idea to explore— an alternative to canon!Harry's mentality towards his parents.

Also, just as a side-note on making the Voldemort and Harry ship work as well, there definitely needs to be either an element of detachment/apathy— or forgiveness— on Harry’s end when it comes to dealing with Lily and James’ death. You know, you can’t really have their relationship move forward if Harry constantly feels an overwhelming amount of resentment towards Voldemort— which is why I believe Harry/Tom is a bit more popular and, perhaps, easier to write than Harry/Voldemort. It’s less complicated at times— because, let’s face, Harry/Voldemort is such a messy, messy ship 😂 But that’s why we love it. 

Anyway, regarding the children, wow– that’s an interesting scenario, for sure! I know that actually is a pretty popular trope/outcome for many fem!Harry plots— the boy-girl twins, especially— and, if Appetence was a different type of story, then maybe it could work. But unfortunately, it’s just not a viable outcome in this universe 😭 Though perhaps it could be an AU (an AU of an AU? 😅😂). I like hearing your thoughts though and your take on what Harri desires/wants, especially when it comes to potential motherhood and a family. It’s always interesting to read other’s interpretations, especially when they differ somewhat from my own! But thank you for the compliment— I’m flattered that my story could inspire your imagination! 💕

Until next time 😊💕