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You lied to me. You hurt my feelings. And yet for some reason I was walking on eggshells around you. I was apologizing for how I was feeling because of your actions. Like I did something wrong? Fuck you for making me apologize when you were the one who ripped my heart into two and handed it to me.

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There wasn’t yelling. There wasn’t fighting. There wasn’t “fuck you” and “I never loved you” and “I’m not going to miss you.”

There were two tired hearts. Still beating, but no longer in sync. Four eyes that never seemed to meet at the same time. Twenty fingers that no longer entwined. Two pairs of lips that hadn’t met in months.

So we said goodbye. We said we’d keep in touch. We said “good luck,” and we meant it. And it hit me:

I spent so long being mad at you, that I forgot you were human, too. That we were both flawed. That I loved you, I loved you, I loved you.

I still do.

“i’m sorry for not realizing you were doing your best”

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“I think we were meant to be but we did it wrong.”

—4:15 PM

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I always knew you’d be the downfall of me

But I didn’t think it’d be like this

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even if we were doomed from the start, I would do it all over if it meant I got to be yours again

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“A part of me is yearning to let go, but another will never stop hoping that it’s you and I in the end. And I’m terrified that part will never leave me. I am terrified of the thought of it consuming me until I am made of nothing but false hope.”

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“People always talk about heartbreaks and I always listened but never put myself in their shoes. I never thought it was going to happen to me. We were going strong. Even the strongest wind in the middle of the Atlantic couldn’t knock us down. But secrets can always be kept and you don’t always find out right away. The way it was unveiled was slow and cautious. I think you didn’t want to make me go through a stupid heartbreak. You were telling me in the smallest ways for a whole month. Five kisses a day turned into one until they started tasting like the fruit you always hated on. I mean maybe it was someone else’s favorite and you just couldn’t help it. Your words started to kill every butterfly you gave me. The flowers that you replaced every week started to wither away and pieces of it started to fall to the floor. People always talk about heartbreaks but the truth is I went through an earthquake. I was unprepared because I thought we were the strongest, but then one day everything hit me and the life we had together was divided in half.”

— — Alexa Evangelista, random #2

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“i should have known better than to fall in love with you. you told me about your heart. told me it was cold, relentless, broken. but i just smiled at you and told you i could fix it. now everything is over and i’m the only one who needs fixing.”

— e.s. // cold, cold heart.

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“The saddest end to a relationship is one where you have to break up with somebody when you’re still in love with them. It sounds bizarre but it happens, because the truth is, as powerfull and as thrilling as it may be, being in love doesn’t always mean you’re happy. You can continue to love someone even after they’ve hurt you, but you know deep inside that it won’t ever be the same again.”

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Deep down I knew that you were too good to be true, but every piece and part of me wanted to believe in you. -Kelsea Ballerini

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“Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts.” - Taylor Swift

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“You’re just one of them people. You know, 20 years from now my daughter may come home crying over a stupid boy. You’re the story I tell her. When she’s aching in bed and I’m running my fingers through her hair to try and wash away the pain, our story is what I’ll tell her. I’ll tell her how something so beautiful has the potential to become so ugly and toxic to the both of you. When she thinks she can’t live without him, I’ll tell her about our story and how I forced myself to heal. How getting out of bed was a mission. How breathing without you was a mission. When her skins burning from every part he touched I’ll tell her about how I scrubbed your hands of me in the shower as I was crying. And when she thinks she can’t ever move on, I’ll tell her about how 10 years ago I saw you alone in a pub whilst I was with her father, I’ll tell her how your eyes watered when our eyes met and how I replied with a gentle smile, because it was the calm after the storm. It hurts darling. It hurts so bad, knowing you love him more than anything and he’s too immature and childish to understand or even care and acknowledge that you’ll love him more than anyone possibly can in his life. But once you heal that hurt, you become an untouchable woman.

—a mix of my auntys story& my future

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And maybe you're just

another bad habit,

that I'm struggling

to let go of.

This might hurt me. //ma.c.a

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Deep down I knew that you were too good to be true, but every piece and part of me wanted to believe in you. -Kelsea Ballerini

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