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GOALSSSSS 😭😫

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God why didn't u make me blonde and beautiful

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on instagram now💗 @/heavensent012

🦋🦋🦋

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after eating below 100kals i hate waking up the next day and feeling completely dead and so out of energy after just ONE day like let me keep this streak pls

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i feel like im going to be sick ive been trying my best to get better but i can feel myself breaking apart my emotional outbursts are getting more frequent and its scaring me, i dont like feeling this way i dont i just want him to hug me and tell me its okay and hes there for me like how ive been there for him. i want someone to care thats all i want please is for someone to care about me thats all ive ever wanted and it hurts me so much, hes trying but its not doing anything it hurts so much its hurts it hurts i dont want him to have to handle me like this its not his responsibility i wish i never existed so i would never have inflicted so many problems on so many people and hurt people so badly im destructive by nature and i hate that im this way

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so good motiv love it

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Distractions from eating that require little energy

- find a topic of interest & look up videos abt it on youtube, create a playlist & listen while snuggling in bed

- hot bath or sitting down in shower — just need energy to get out of bed <3

- drink water💧

- go for a leisurely stroll — not every walk has to be an 8 mile power walk / hike 🌱

- stretch — I always feel sm better when I stretch. & feeling good & connected to my body in a positive way helps me to not want to eat/binge.

- meditate — so underrated. manifestation meditations r so powerful. I also like practicing breath work, it helps me a lot

- pick a task and set a 20 min alarm & then rest.

- watch or listen to health related videos. I love to watch videos abt y sugar is bad for u. I rly wanna end my addiction once & for all. Interesting topic & very motivating

- flip thru channels or videos wouldn’t normally watch. engage curiosity 🌟

- work on self care routines (morning & night)

- work on breaking tasks + projects into steps (when im feeling fatigue & just wanna lay in bed this helps me start stuff)

[ellie-luv]

107lb i will get better

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I’m gonna focus on my ed this summer fuck everything else

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Reasons to not eat (slight m3@nsp0)

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1. You are what you eat. You want to be skinny? Well you can’t eat skinny.

2. That dream body of yours won’t be physically possible unless you stop stuffing your face.

3. You have years of extra fat and food stored in your body, you don’t have to worry about not eating until you’re actually skinny.

4. Food is too expensive now anyways, might as well save a handful of money while also getting your dream body at the same time

5. Skinny is pretty, simple as that

6. Jiggling is literally so embarrassing, and sad to look at. Let’s stop that and stick to your goal yeah?

7. The beauty standard is ana. Until you are a certain weight, you are not and never will be the beauty standard

8. Clothes look better on skinny people

9. You’ll stay cooler in summer once you shed all of those years of fat off your body

10. Do you really want to keep looking in the mirror continuously disappointed and disgusted? No? Then close your mouth for once.

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i need to be perfect and beautiful so badly this summer i WILL CHANGE until im unrecognizable and it’s starting now i can’t stand living anymore i need this

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that euphoric feeling i got when we’re laying in bed and he ran his hand down my stomach and said, “did you get skinnier? ..you got skinnier”

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i am in control 💞

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wl advice <3

something that really helped me fast for those 2 days were binge eating vids on youtube, it was just like oh am i so desperate to have a life like that? is what they’re eating something i really want to have? it plays into the whole thing too of if your hungry for something imagine a massive serving of it youd have to eat and then as a result u cant even imagine wanting it anymore. somehow that really has an effect on me so thought id share x