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A circuit breaker diy photoshoot at home (well by my staircase landing)

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stay home saturday

with the virus rising and trying to avoid human contact for the weekend, i decided to do probably something very impulsive which was to dye my hair, dark navy blue. i’m trying to schedule out my week as intern is approaching and i still want a social life before that’s taken from me too. uss is definitely a place i’m gonna go but max still hasn’t come back to me when he’s free :( but it’s ok. meeting my girlies on the weekend which is a positive note. oh i also wanted to bake brownies today but i realise we were out of cocoa powder and i was too lazy to go down to get some lol. well todays been pretty uneventful heh

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borderline

everything will be ok.

that’s what i say.

life isn’t fair.

but it’s never bare.

sudden impulsive actions.

it’s such an ideal attraction.

random thought’s fill my head.

as i lie wondering on my bed.

why is this happening to me.

I can never be free.

for the demons are quiet

but never quite silenced.

disassociation has become such a norm.

yet it always fails to keep me feeling warm.

i love you

yet i want you to go away.

sunny sunshine please be ok.

i know you’re numb but people still love you.

continue staying strong.

it’s still a cruel yet beautiful world out there.

stop harming yourself.

just sit down and breathe.

hey now, we’ll be ok

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it’s been rough, but you’ve got it

i’ve had a very rough start to 2020, school was pretty much dragging me down, i was not motivated at all to continue studying and was on the brink of dropping out. mental breakdowns were a common occurrence every night when i tried to go to sleep but i think i’ve gotten through it. went through the biggest heartbreak of my life, that happened so sudden that i still can’t comprehend what happened but i’ve finally moved on. the virus outbreak also hasn’t really helped with how the year is going. 2020, you’re a pain in the butt but at the same time it’s been pretty positive now. finally got an interview at a hotel for my internship despite the virus outbreak freezing the hirings of more hotels. I’ve started to make more friends and expand my little tiny ass social circle. cut bangs and fucked it up hahahaha. did well for my exams and started searching for love again? that one’s still in question lol but i’m still happy nonetheless, but i am talking to a guy and he makes me happy too heh. endometriosis has been a bit of a bitch though ahahhahaah. listening to newer artists such as beabadoobee like wtf how did i not listen to her before she’s so good. i’m happy my school life is coming to a close and i can finally enjoy the two week break i have before i start intern, i have a list of places to go and enjoy :) uss i’m coming for you hehe. i think it’s good i start blogging again. seeing my old blog from 2014-2015 made me cringe a lot but brought back good memories. whoever sees these blogs, i trust you so please don’t spread this HAHAHA.