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Pleasure

I thought it would help me I thought it was what I needed But pleasure fogged my mind Thickened my heart Now I can’t feel it Now my thoughts are different Always after pleasure Never after a solution Pleasure is an easy detour A devious ending A miserable one nonetheless A scummy awakening of things that should not be Pleasure won’t diminish the weight of my issues It will drown me Making me face the worst version of myself The most decayed one The one where skin and blood have lost its meaning The one where air won't ever feel enough Pleasure is not it  But Peace is I have confused pleasure for peace Pleasure hurts me  Weakens me It gags me While Peace will heal me It will comfort the disturbed And nurture the weak Less pleasure More peace It’s the verdict my whole self demands It’s what’ll grant me freedom From what I became Don't need endless pleasure Just some spare days to try again Note: This talks about addiction and destructive habits. No matter how difficult it may seem, I believe we are capable of rewiring our selves to become better and learn from our wrong doings. Accepting you need help is a start.

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April 1st, 2023. (SAT)

Just finished watching the film: The Royal Tenenbaums by Wes Anderson. It was a bit slow at first, you need a little bit of patience if you are like me, but as it goes on, you just start enjoying the story and learning more of each character.  It is a fairly human and charmingly funny film. Though there is sadness and struggles, there is also comfort and joy. I appreciated the fact that the characters and their stories are flawed, just like in real life. It is a film that motivates you to keep going and to keep trying despite everything.