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may uhhhh the spirit of trailblaze or something save me im so sick victorian orphan coded and my brain is being weird 😔

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"You couldn't have known. You naturally would've done something if you'd been able to."

Didn't everybody wish that they'd known everything, been able to, by themselves, avoid every terrible occurrence, protect all those they wished to? Yet, life barely ever went that way. They were all stuck in this one reality, where the past could not be changed.

"...Well, the only thing they seem to have caused is, as you're aware of, my mind's ability to impose memories onto me, usually when prompted by something related. They can often be... quite vivid, and feel almost personal, as if in that moment they're not simply someone el– nevermind, you didn't accept to see me just to hear about unneeded details."

Or maybe a part of him still believed that even daring to admit such a fact aloud was wrong, was grounds for punishment, or would be proving them all right.

"Mmm," he agreed with a hum.

But it did little to ease the worm of guilt that gnawed at him. No matter what Dan Heng said, he would always feel some guilt for his failures.

"I was furious with Lingsha's mentor when I found out. Thus why I did what I did."

Yet at the same time, he was somewhat leanient on her. There was no need to continue this cruel cycle of punishment after all.

"Had I known earlier, had I had more control over the situation..."

Things would have been very different, even if he could not free the young Vidyadhara.

"I do not know to what extent her arts affected you. Obviously, she didn't want to incriminate herself further once caught."

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the below was, in fact, my 100th post

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I find them funny :3

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- be massively busy with assignments that took literally the whole day for multiple days straight

- finish and easter break starts

- immediately get sick

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hi, ummm. yap about where i've been under the cut (hopefully not too long)

first off i wanted to say i'm really really sorry to those who have things with me and have been waiting for so long! and i'm sorry if i disappointed anyone. i don't think i'm going to quit this blog entirely because. well i like it, it's fun and i'd feel bad if i had to leave. but also there's something that's been making me. very scared of posting on here and interacting with people? for some reason. like it's something really hard and a chore, like responding to one prompt is a thousand page essay. idk it's just very intimidating suddenly-

but i would like to try to get into a rhythm of posting again, and ig that starts with this post? genuinely i've been putting it off for so long, i'd spend all day thinking of it but hate it so much it made me want to procrastinate and ignore this blog's existence :shameful: but i can't just. slip away and not let anyone know? since i do have a history of suddenly giving up on things i actually really care about and i don't want to do it again-

i do miss posting and the people i've talked to though,, after i post this i'll just check my notifs to see what i missed, then run away to bed, but i might try continuing some threads tomorrow or the day after

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aaaa im so so super sorry for disappearing i just have Not had energy for thinking of things to write :( ill try to get everything done soon i hope everyone i havent seen is doing well!!

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i look. like this irl trust

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honestly one of the main differences between them to me is df is nearly constantly intensely calculatedly masking, while dh wouldnt be able to (for long anyway) nor want to mask even if you paid him a million credits (or however much would make you rich idk the conversion rate)

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" Dan Heng. Do you want to know what the strongest days of the week are? It is Saturday and Sunday because the rest are weak days. " :)

Dan Heng paused in the middle of picking up his cup of tea.

The appropriate thing to do would be to laugh. It could even be taken as offensive or impolite if he didn't.

Yet, all he could do was slowly lower his cup, lean his head on the back of his hand, exhale slightly, and respond: "...I see."

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@spaceship-travels-universes liked for a starter.

After the Wardance had ended, the Express crew decided to at least make the most of the time they had left on the Luofu, hopeful that they wouldn't come across any more danger, or complicated political plots.

Dan Heng was just on his way to the Alchemy Commission to bring some herbs Bailu had asked for, when a pack of dog-like abominations came running from behind a building. So much for not getting into danger. He quickly summoned his spear, fending them off.

He barely managed to get a few strikes in, before a figure dashed into his view like the wind, cleanly slicing through them all. After a moment, he registered that it was the Yaoqing's Arbiter-General.

"...Ah, good afternoon, General. What brings you to the Alchemy Commission?"

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no okay somehow paradoxically,, after posting that i actually feel Less intimitated by being active?

its like. most of my problems with being active come from having days where my brain literally cant bring itself to have enough energy to respond to people, but then i feel bad for keeping them waiting. then whenever i think about writing i just think about that fact, so i just Feel Bad whenever i think about writing. which then makes me. have even less energy for it-

but then like after i posted this i realized people would probably understand after finding out why, and most wouldnt be upset and stuff. which then made me feel Less bad, and so more comfortable with writing, so i want to be active again??

idk at this point chat 😭 i swear i didnt lie though

ummm mental health go brrr so i may be low activity for a while. whoops

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Dan Heng couldn't help but facepalm at the display in front of him. Did Stelle really care that much about him being there that she would perish and turn to dust if he didn't come with her this instant?

The way she seemed to gain the mental state of an overly excited puppy was indeed quite annoying, what happened to starting a normal conversation then calmly asking the other person if they'd like to spend time together? Despite the fact he could never be truly upset at her, he thought he at least had the right to complain in his mind.

Though, it wasn't fully her fault either, having been immediately introduced, and promptly recruited, to March's similar brand of chaos right after waking up in her new life. Yes, it really was all March's fault, as she was also the one who left him to deal with this, while she was out there having fun lowering the monthly Express budget.

Dan Heng waved Stelle's hand away, sighing, before standing up.

"That's really on you for being unable to entertain yourself for even a few hours. But I'm aware I never had an option to refuse you."

oh, he didn't! come on, that's not fair. with a furrow of her eyebrows, she crosses her arms, sticking out her tongue at him. she could just call the bluff right now and end it– but what fun would that be? so instead, stelle gasps over-dramatically once again, pressing her hand against her chest as if she's offended by what he's saying.

❝ oh, cruel world! ❞

the declaration is, somehow, even more dramatic than before, as she pretends to collapse to the floor in a faint. she can feel pom-pom's exasperated eyes on her even from where they probably are in the parlour car, and she can't help but snigger at that.

❝ but march is out, ❞ she whines, pouting. is it endearing or annoying, the way she acts like an annoyed toddler? maybe a combination of the two. ❝ and i'm lonely! ❞

in the best impression of march that stelle can possibly muster, her eyes grow big and shiny and she blinks at dan heng a couple of times like some sort of anime character.

❝ plus... ❞ she pauses for dramatic effect, before pulling out a bag from behind her back and shaking it vigorously at dan heng in a manner that's meant to be welcoming, but is honestly a little violent.

❝ we brought your favourite snacks! and you can choose the movie. come on, please? you wouldn't leave me to be lonely, would you? ❞

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having my timezone in pinned doesnt even mean anything when i post at 3am

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Dan Feng listened as the other spoke, explained and joked cheerfully. He would never understand how Baiheng always acted so... silly and childish, that was a way to put it. But that was simply the way she always was. He supposed he didn't have to understand in order to enjoy being around her.

"I'm glad your trip went well." That meant both 'I'm glad you had fun' and 'It's fortunate you didn't cause property damage of some kind'.

"And, well, there was a ceremony at Scalegorge Waterscape recently, and another one next month. Later this week, I'm meant to be recieving messengers from other ships," he explained. Vidyadhara were generally secretive about their affairs, it'd never been standard practice to just prattle on about cultural duties to anyone who asked. But, well, it was Baiheng. It was pretty certain she wouldn't do anything harmful with that knowledge.

"The Council of Preceptors insisted I stay home to prepare for it, so, really, I'm not supposed to be here with you. Though I believe they're overexaggerating, spending a little time with you will not suddenly make me the least capable High Elder in the history of the Alliance."

"Really?  That's fantastic.  Dan Feng, thank you.  She was aware that the High Elder rarely smiled, therefore it was uncommon to see him do so, especially when they were around their friends.  As they strolled to Aurum Alley together, she gave him a smile.  When it came to casual talks, he was more of an observer and listener, but he was always the first to speak when the subject of politics and battle plans came up, drawing everyone's attention.

 "Yes, despite the fact that the entire planet is a deep sea ocean. But they were not kidding when the people said it would take eons to explore the whole ocean. Still, it's a vibrant planet filled with life and the people there are very friendly." I didn't cause trouble over there, so don't worry if I did, you will hear a complaint from the sky-faring commission." She chuckled." So what has the High Elder been up to?"

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ummm mental health go brrr so i may be low activity for a while. whoops

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