eldestdaughtersyndromeforreal

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this hit me like a truck

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ahhhh so the guilt is NOT supposed to be neverending and haunting and constant and persisting beyond a doubt over even the most menial of things that i would not be upset at someone else for. i understand now.

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they should invent 7 hours between 10pm and midnight

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people will hear you talk about struggling with mental illness and say “you can do anything if you just put your mind to it”. brother what part of the body does the mental illness happen in. what do you think is the problem

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worrying is like worshipping the problem

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”match my freak” match my melancholy. be nostalgic about a past you weren’t even that happy in. find something to be haunted about throughout every second of your day

[eldestdaughtersyndromeforreal]

abusive parents life plans:

step 1: have child

step 2: make child as miserable as possible, make sure they feel bad for every moment of their life, shame and blame them for getting born, costing money, being alive, for forcing parenthood on two innocent people, shame child for being in pain, groom them to be whatever the parents find convenient and easy to exploit

step 3: get upset when child cuts contact

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I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

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me after sleeping ljke shit for the 10,497th day in a row: this is good actually because now i'll be really tired when i go to bed tonight

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having a resting bitchface is so funny because i'll be doing something relaxing, and really enjoying myself and my face will look like this

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Andrea Gibson, "DEPRESSION [VERB]", Lord of the Butterflies

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Just so we’re all clear, it is okay to miss people you no longer want in your life.

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There are two devils in me .

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Does anyone else have this thing where they know that they are loved but they don't feel like they are loved ?