elainetippit23

[elainetippit23]

Hate..to feel to hate.. who am I... A nobody to you. I don't want friends. No such thing. My I got u is at least realistic. Seems no matter how much I work I put in it's not enough..so enough is enough. I hate how bad, bad can get... I deserve love. Exactly love. Crazy when u manifest that word what comes with it bc you're probably in it. Hasn't done nothing for me. I use to be a use too. Siiike I'm exactly who I say I am. So I was told multiple times that I'm "crazy". Was also told crazy people don't know they're crazy. But ik I am.. maybe not the definition they imposed. I never feel safe. Bc we can't trust no body. So a mental case is still a case. Why hide who I am... Wtf are people talking about. Real recognize real experiences and those people aren't who there supposed to be. Damn it man. So here you go. I'm bipolar 1, PTSD, and schizophrenic... And I still never did you wrong. And I wouldn't. What are you afraid of. I'm not scared of me anymore. Matter a fact I am ready to live bc every day I learn to trust my gut. The things people will bet their life on is sad. I would know. But I've had enough. My name is Kayla Elaine Tippit. Tired and tried being the light for people. So now I do it for me. #2/3/92 #23 #tip

[elainetippit23]

Hurt. Love didn't get me shit but hurt.

[elainetippit23]

For a moment, Cautantowwit burned blue. “Excellent. There are those among the living who can see and interact with our plane. I've heard, though I doubt its validity, that there are some who can even cross into our plane and still return to the land of the living.” Cautantowwit’s black holes grew sadistic. ‘Any if these souls will be powerful assets to me. The choice, as I said, is yours to where you take them. Just know, I desire these souls above all others.”

[elainetippit23]

At night I sit in the room in the dark

I see things appear

Odd shapes

Faces that don't look like our faces

Just faces

This happens no matter the mood I'm in

PTSD

Sometimes I see different textures

Manifesting things based off who I am

Never say never

I go to NA

I've been to rehab

psych Part of the hospital at least six times

Barabbas

That's me, that's us.

I had to learn to protect myself

I pray

I believe

I manifest

I keep coming back

[elainetippit23]

Proverbs 24

Don't envy the evil or desire to be with them, for their hearts plan violence, and their words stir up trouble

[elainetippit23]

You do love me. Not all good things come to an end. I love you dad. I'm following my heart like you said. Mom I love you. I will always love you. #toothemoonandback #cancer #leo