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Big Blep

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Look all im sayin is that if someone doesnt want me to call them a cunt, then maybe they shouldn't act like a fuckin cunt.

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I need to be working on things but

I have to finish an app for a group, as well an entire essay that’s due monday BUT BOY do I need to say smth first. I’ve wanted to make a post about this for at least a few months now, probably more. But I always put it off or decide not to do it, however with the stress of deadlines and EVERYTHING ELSE I just need to rant for a lil bit.  

**I originally had this all under a read more block but then it wasnt showing up on my blog so srry about that

Basically what I need to rant about is how fucking dismissive and selfish some people are in group chats. I’ve seen it happen to several friends, but it personally happens to me on a regular basis, sometimes with different people and various chats. Like idk if I ever see someone in a chat who is trying to contribute to a conversation, to get a point across, or even are just trying to be included in some way, I fucking acknowledge them!! In real life too!! I try to not talk over them and to acknowledge what they say in some way or another. But then there are people who honestly could not care less about is currently being talked about, and they turn it around so the conversation is literally just focused on them 100%. I talking about a character? Cool now they are too, expect they completely disregard what i just said, ignores it completely and continues to go on a 30-45 minute spiel about their character and every time I try to interject with something I was originally trying to say, all I get is a very minimal response with them giving me no indication that they are interested in any way with that I have to say. Despite the fact that I will ask them to possibly elaborate or ask a question when they are talking. Maybe perhaps return the favor? 

I show art? Cool they show art too, only they don’t acknowledge what I just sent and again, talk for 30 about a character. I show something that I think is cool, and might pertain to a character? Well now they have claimed it for their own and you can guess what they do next. Also i bring up the character thing bc that happens a lot, but also because thats easy to show example of, its for sure not the only thing people will do....im not trying to allude to certain a certain person or people. 

Though the big one for me is if i say if something is bothering me and I’ll talk a little bit about that, and get NOTHING back. But then some time later a person will send a message, disregarding that and will talk about something else, then immediately more people will reply to THAT. Like alllriighttttt guess no one cares enough about a personal issue of a so called friend, might have. Alternatively, if someone else were to make that same comment, suddenly people are much more concerned and invested, as if only that one person is allowed to have issues that are worth worrying about....Which is probably because they are much more vocal about said problems? Which is fine but its just the fact that when I try to do that, im either shutdown or ignored sooooo.......

Ugh I feel like Im not really expressing myself well enough for this to be impactful in any way but I really just wanted to say this, even if no one really reads it. 

Also this is not meant to be a call out post to anyone/groups/certain chats in particular....I just really wanted to share what I have witnessed and experienced first hand for a while now. No I do not want to discuss this with anyone, yes Im fine, I’ve just been stressed out lately is all and well, this happening just isn’t helping. I just ask to please try to be more aware of what you are doing, and if you realize you are doing this and its not on purpose, you aren’t a bad person but just please stop. Its so disrespectful and hurtful.

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So theres a shitload of stuff that I want....some things are pretty expensive so I’ve been cheap and prevented myself from buying it and debated if I even want it. Then theres also a bunch of little things that i want that are so small and almost not really important enough to buy so I just haven’t... 

The point is that I just opened up a fresh google doc and I was going to very neatly list out all of the things that i want, along with it’s price for my convince. Well its been 45 minutes and I only have one thing listed. Like what now I cant fuckin remember the million things i want just as i finally get around to recording all of it?? Ridiculous. 

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I forgot i had this blog tbh. I really need a place to fucking rant about shit so get ready for that.

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im just gonna talk a lot and post pics of my cats