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It still lowkey makes me sad that someone I thought was a genuine friend suddenly turned on me & ruined my holiday literally just because they were physically intimidated by me?? Like all I ever had was good intentions to spend time with someone I thought understood BPD like I did but you had to let your personal bias against men ruin something I thought was genuine

In your own words you only hang around “men you feel you could physically take in a fight” but because I wasn’t suddenly you hate me???

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I’m so in love with her, I’m actually cooked

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Seems we’re on speaking terms again

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She unblocked me in messages..?

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Everyone at work is worried I’m gonna commit & I have to pretend like I’m not completely dead serious about wanting to with the company gun

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Had a bad dream that I was stuck at work having a nervous breakdown, then dreamt I was texting her & woke up feeling so miserable because I checked my phone to check if it was actually real

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Youre such a fucking BITCH

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FUCK sake, I can’t just have everything I ever want can I? Fuck this fuck people fuck her fuck you all

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Makes me happy to know she’s unhappy since she blocked me, something feels karmically right about that

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At least she removed the post with the pictures I took of her when I paid to take her out to the zoo. She doesn’t have the right to post anything I gave her ever again.

I hope she regrets everything she did, but I’ll never forgive her again. I hope the Wall hits her the hardest whilst I’ll be living my best life fucking fresh 18 year olds when she hits 30. I’ll replace her with younger women with every year she gets older, fuck you

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She got a collarbone tattoo, I just got the worlds biggest ick I swear. Smoking, drinking & now a fucking tattoo? Women really wanna ruin their innocence so bad it’s so gross

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Watching her post photos of her smoking and drinking heavily like it’s a flex leaves a pit in my stomach that feels like disgust

It feels like the girl I knew is gone, corrupted by this stranger who turned her into a habitual substance abuser and a slut

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She’s gone into full on habitual drinker & smoker, im so disgusted I don’t even know this person anymore

I hope she kills herself from the guilt of how bad she hurt me

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FUCK YOU.

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Realising at my older age that my mother is a reactive abusive narcissist has really hurt

I thought I was done having my heart broken by my own mother but she still finds a way to make me feel worthless

I hate her so much, she’s been so selfish my whole life, only caring about how others perceive our family dynamic rather than actually working on our family dynamic

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How could you? How could you??

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That little slut constantly flexing how young & desirable she is while playing that vile “teachers pet” song, I can’t wait until she hits the Wall & starts back-pedalling on that flex. Acting like “ohh no it’s bad because men manipulated me blah blah” once it no longer benefits her.

The whiplash is going to be biblically brutal