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edward sitting in his car, composing Bella’s Lullaby on his air-keyboard (colorized)

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“Emmett, you are not getting a cannon. Especially to shoot your brother out of.”

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Fog over the Pacific, somewhere off the northern coast of Washington

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No one else is doing it like him i swear....

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The cheap Halloween vampire fangs stay ON during sex

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Edward:

Me:

Alright, which of these did he use. ‘Snails? It was ‘snails, wasn’t it.

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bella: im so much happier now that im dead

bella: well, technically “missing”. soon to be presumed dead

edward, about to bite her: please stop that

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i’m just so BITTER that we never got to see bella heal from the trauma of losing edward. there was never resolution, any conversation, just “i’ll stay this time” and she accepts it.

bella deserved to have time for herself, separated from edward’s memory. she should have had time to sever her connections from the supernatural world that she never was supposed to know about, and to rebuild positive connections to the human world around him. she should have had happy memories of bonfires on the beach with good friends, of game nights with charlie and billy and jacob, of studying with angela and ending up laughing over something ben said, of late night movies cuddled with jacob.

bella deserved to fall in love slowly, not all at once attracted by supernatural beauty. she deserved found family, ones that weren’t constantly arguing about and belittling her opinion concerning her morality. she deserved a friendship with leah, bonding over losing somebody they both loved, learning to heal and grow apart from it together.

bella deserved love. she deserved her mother’s care early on; she deserved charlie taking care of her in her teens. she deserved friends who were there for her during her depression. she deserved jacob’s warm laugh when she felt like crying, she deserved his kind words when she talked down on herself. she deserved his hand in hers, walking through sunlit parks, tanning with renee in jacksonville.

most of all, bella deserved a chance to tell edward that he hurt her irreparably, that she would never be the same. she deserved to let go of him, to rid herself forever of the monster who, ultimately, took her life.

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I’ve gone down the ‘worm on a string’ rabbit hole lately and I thought of this. Ur v welcome 🤠

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edward sucking the venom out of bella, unsure whether he’ll be able to stop. the montage of bella’s life in forks interspersed with the fire in the ballet studio and finally scenes of the hospital while robert pattinson’s let me sign plays

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our fav spanish influenza victim

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672 pages into the mind of an immortal 17 year old with depression falling in love. ugh i can't wait for this.

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that midnight sun feel

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thinking about all that fresh cullen content we’re going to get because edward legally has to interact with his siblings at least every chapter unless he chose to live in a ditch during his initial relationship with bella which would be on brand for him but still

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We really got Midnight Sun, huh?