eddierunn

[eddierunn]

A door-knock named desire

I was drawn to it

invasive, abusive, unprotected

Though I sensed the fishhook in the bait

I bit it anyway, yesterday.

I showed up on his front door

He kneed me on his floor

He shoved it in my throat

so tears drowning my moans

His kurbash, whipping my skins, and winds

crushed my balls, and summoned submissiveness

So I was bound, penetrated

I was fed some pills, ingredients kept a secret

‘to enhance your performance’ he said.

so I was shot by migraine, dizziness, flashlights

then I was sent to the front door, once more

If sexe is a temple

then I must have chosen a violent one

curses are bricks, bruises are badges

tortures are my indulgences

they are to compensate my unworthiness.

‘to enhance your performance’ I recalled.

But I felt none.

What a waste of the trouble

what a waste of the pills.