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I dont post much art here but uhh heres some that ig is good for this blog? (text based off paralytic states - against me! (i think thats right its been a while lmaoo))

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Negative shit/venting srry

This might as well just be a vent blog but uh anyways dysphoria is a BITCH i havent gone more than 50 mins without binding for like a month probably and bottom dysphoria hit me like a truck and i want to saw my lower body off and it wont go away and. Ugh? Every way i sit and turn my legs and every thing i think is wrong and everything is wrong and i can feel it being wrong and i cant sleep and i want to be angry but i feel pathetic and my body wont let me cry let me get it out ! Fuck!!

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Hey trans men (/probably applies to women too) any of yall have people/celebrities/whatever that youve used to attempt to pass or is that just me? P sure ive spent a good amount of time analyzing like... Bo Burnham and Will Roland to decide How To Be Clearly Male But Also Still Me

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Me, gesturing towards a lesbian: i love her

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Any other dudes kinda ashamed of playing uke? Its such a trender and soft twans boii uwuuuu instrument and. Yikes. I love playing it but it gets a Big Bad Rep and makes me feel shitty zoinkerrsss

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rb if u fucking wish u were cis

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I made some ADT flag aesthetics cause tbh they fun to make (last ones kinda a fail) use them anywhere u want?? Nobody will see this anyway

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I made more ADT flag edits! If ya wanna use any of them give credit!

Also I think the quote from the third one came from a post but I don’t remember what post, if anyone knows please tell me.

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mogai is like clickbait lgbt

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A little personal stuff. A rant, i guess.:

So my mom. I came out to her as a trans guy, after a life of feeling uncomfortable when people "found out" i was a girl. Feeling wrong telling people my name because it felt not sincere. Wanting a smaller chest size ever since i started developing boobs, and being uncomfortable having a vag and wishing i had a dick instead. My coming out letter, which i still have stuffed in a drawer somewhere, didnt have much detail. The way i came out was by writing something along the lines of "im trans. I hate my female body and it all makes me so uncomfortable. Please dont make a big deal out of this. Id rather go by the name (not saying out of fear people will link me to my main blogs and i dont want discourse there)" This was a few months ago, i believe. She now prides herself in being an accepting parent, yet still calls me by my birthname and female pronouns and telling me to "shut up" when i correct her. My friends call me by my name and male pronouns in front of her and she acts like its just some fun little thing. She refuses to call me boy and uses boyo instead, which ive expressed how i dont like. She prides herself, as well as my dad who has never called me by the correct pronoun or name and told my mom i need to "stop focusing on gender and start focusing on school" when he found out, that they are supportive parents. While i know it could be worse, they couldve kicked me out or abused me, its still very annoying that she flaunts being a progressive parent when it seems like she didnt even try to change. Because they arent supportive. Theyre tolerant. They tolerate me, but arent willing to change to make me feel less terrible all the time. So still, i have to live as a girl and i dont get any break, when i feel like i should. When she thinks she gives me one. Idk i just needed to shout about it and if you actually read this. Who. Who are you. But anyways bye.

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if you’re trans and a top you’re automatically stronger and more crucial to world peace than anyone else on the planet and i pledge my allegiance to you

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@ cis people: how do i become you because GOD being trans SUCKS

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@ my fellow truscum

hey don’t tell people they aren’t trans.

just because they claim to not have dysphoria doesn’t mean they don’t. you don’t know how their brain works. if they say they’re trans then just let that be. you aren’t arguing with them about whether or not they are trans, you’re arguing with their ideals regardless of who they are personally.

it is disrespectful at best and it won’t help prove your point. just don’t misgender people and don’t go after them personally.

(and no, not using their neopronouns does not count as misgendering. if they don’t go by he or she just say “they” instead. you are not obligated to go out of your way to appease their delusions, but don’t go out of your way to be a dick about them either.)

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“All trans people are valid! Mtf, Ftm, pre-op, post-op, straight, gay, bi, ace, Dysphoric…”

“…and Non-Dysphoric!”

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💖if you’re male and bisexual, i love you!💖

💖if you’re male and gay, i love you!💖

💖if you’re male and just so happen to be trans, i love you!💖

💖if you’re male and truscum, i love you!💖

💖if you’re male and cishet, i love you!💖

💖if you’re male and straight, i love you!💖

💖if You’re male and cis, i love you!💖

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Having a genital preference is not transphobic, have a good day

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Shout out to trans men who have large chests and can’t bind.

Shout out to trans men who have a hard time hiding their chests because of their size.

Shout out to trans men who can’t bind for medical or safety reasons.

Shout out to trans men who have dysphoria but can’t pass.

Shout out to trans men who have traditionally feminine and womanly attributes who can’t pass.

Shout out to trans men who still have a hard time passing no matter what they do.

Shout out to trans men who we have lost because they just could not take feeling so wrong in their bodies for another day.

Shout out to trans men who don’t look like men.

I’m sorry you can’t do anything to help with your dysphoria, and I’m sorry that you can’t do anything to pass right now.

But it will get better. You won’t have to feel this way for the rest of your life, I promise.