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[dyosamarj]

3:39am 03.10.21

I have always wondered what it feels like to be treated the way I should be treated. I have always wondered what feels like to be loved the way you love. I have always wondered what it feels like to be cared and appreciated. 

This man, that I am in a relationship with right now, is the man who made all those wonderings become a reality. All those imaginations and thoughts way back was now filled with actions and assurance. I have never been so sure my whole life, until I met him. I have never been so afraid, until he made me feel what it feels like to be losing him. I have never felt such feelings, until I loved him. I never expected it to be this strong and superb. I asked for a sign, I waited for a sign. And then right after that, he came. It was such an unexpected conversation, it was spontaneous. It was at that time that I took the risk again of falling in love. He is such a blessing, a part of the universe that is now a part of me too. I always look at him like he’s a miracle I’ve always been praying for. Everything about him just sweeps me off of my feet. I love everything about him, every particle of his being. I love how he does the little things grand in his own ways, I love how he makes my day brighter and lighter, I love how me makes me smile and laugh. I love that he’s always there to comfort and pacify me when I can’t handle shits anymore. I love how he always asks me how my day went and I love that he always make sure that I am happy. I don’t know what I did anything right to deserve a man like him. Everyday, I pray that I don’t mishandle the things I’ve prayed so hard to God. I see my self growing up with him, having children with him, building a life with him. He’s already included with my everything. He’s my bestfriend, my kachika, my companion, my shoulder to lean on, my handkerchief, my baby, my soulmate, my lover, my home, my always and my lifetime. He will always be the best.

[dyosamarj]

Hindi ako sigurado sa landas na tinatahak ko ngayon, pero gagawin ko ang lahat upang maging maayos ang pagtahak ko sa landas na pinili ko. Lagi ko lang iniisip na may patutunguhan din ang paghihirap at pagpupursigi ko, kahit na madalas gusto ko na lang sumuko at magsimula ulit. Pero naisip ko rin, kung lagi lang akong tatakbo kapag nahihirapan ako, ano na lang ang matatapos ko? I’ll just always live a life running from everything kung wala akong matatapos. Kapag ka ganitong oras talaga, marami kang maiisip, marami kang mapagtatanto. Naisip ko lang isulat ‘to dahil hindi ko naman alam ang magiging kinabukasan ko, kaya i want to know if it will make any difference years from now. 

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i hope someday, it's still u and me :>

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Why do people randomly stop talking to you and you’re just there like oh ok what did I do wrong?

[dyosamarj]

Nakakapagod din ano? Nakakapagod yung palagi na lang ikaw yung naiiwan. Ikaw yung mag-iisa sa bandang huli. Ikaw yung magtitiis na naman sa sakit. Nakakapagod din ano? Yung palagi ka na lang magmamahal pagkatapos sa bandang huli sasaktan at iiwan ka rin. Yung lahat naman ibinigay mo, effort, support, love, care, lahat-lahat pero sa bandang huli mababalewala lang din at masasayang lahat ng mga ginawa mo. Nakakapagod yung palagi ka na lang umaasa. Masakit. Nakakapanlumo. Nakakaiyak. Nakakapagod. Pero come to think of it, if it isn't because of pain, hindi ka matuto. Hindi ka magiging matapang, hindi ka madadala. Sometimes, you need to feel the pain, the hurt, the sadness, to be able to be strong for future instances. May dagok ka man na nararanasan ngayon, someday, or one day you'll thank that person/people who hurt you. Kasi kung sakali man na may dumating na mas masakit, at mas mabigat na problema you know how to handle it kasi nga natuto ka na :)

[dyosamarj]

Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon eh nakukuha natin kung anong gusto natin. Minsan kailangan din nating maghintay ng tamang panahon at wag madaliin ang lahat. Kung hindi ibinigay satin ang bagay na gusto natin, then maybe it is not meant for us. Maghintay lang tayo dahil nakaplano na ang lahat para sa atin. Magtiwala lang at wag mawawalan ng pa-asa and when the right time comes dun mo marerealize na tama ang naging desisyon mo na maghintay. Just wait and it will come to you unexpectedly.

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Hi!!

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Anong tawag sa matalinong dancer?

edi balletdictorian

[dyosamarj]

Sana kahit saglit lang magawa mo akong tignan hindi bilang kaibigan kundi bilang ka-ibigan

[dyosamarj]

that bestfriend ♥ hahaha natets mehh <3

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565? well 💁

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memories 😽

[dyosamarj]

yung feeling na dika marunong sumayaw pero napipilitan ka para lang magkagrade -_- tangina

[dyosamarj]

madaling araw at ako'y magdadrama hahaha hays! nakakalungkot pala talaga kapag hindi mo na makakasama barkada mo. nakakaiyak na ewan! yung bang kapag mag-isa ka na lang at walang kasama bigla kang mapapatulala at marereminisce mo sa putanginang pagkakataon ang mga memories mo kasama ang mga barkada mo😢 yung sabay sabay kayo mantrip ng estranghero, yung sasakit tiyan mo kakatawa dahil sa joke na sinabi ng kaibigan mo, yung kapag may problema ka dadamay sila, yung kapag broken hearted ka papatawanin ka nila at di ka nila iiwan hanggat di ka nagiging okay, yung kapag galit ka sa kanila mo nilalabas, yung bibili ka ng pagkain mo pero di rin naman ikaw makikinabang HAHAHAHA! yung mga times na ganun, yun! yun yung namimiss ko at laging naaalala kapag nag-iisa ako at walang magawa. kadalasan nga iniisip ko na sana yung mga kasama ko ngayon, sana sila na lang yun, sana sila parin yung kasama ko sa pagtawa, sana sila yung nakakarinig ng hinaing ko about sa mga problema ko, sana sila yung nagbibigay ng advice sakin, sana sila yung nandito para padayahin ako. puro na lang ako sana! Hay 😪 kung SANA nag-aral lang ako ng mabuti. kung SANA naging matino lang ako. edi SANA kasama ko pa sila hanggang ngayon :( tsk.

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B&W 💕

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REBLOG IF YOU'RE THE FAMILY DISAPPOINTMENT.

[dyosamarj]

How can I unlove you if the only thing I knew is to love you?