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Seeing you again was like gazing into a distorted mirror. I remembered the colour of your eyes, the shape of your lips. The edge to your smile. You hadn't looked at me like that in a long time. If I wasn't careful my own smile would slip. My hard-won composure would crumble. Even though I wanted to turn away, I did the sensible thing and asked about your life. About work. About your family. I wasn't trying to be polite - I was trying not to cry. I guess a small part of me wanted you to cave in and tell me you'd missed me, but from your answers I gathered that just wasn't the case. And it hurt. When you invite somebody into your life, let them see your darkest parts while also showing them how bright the world can be and they still choose to leave - it's the worst kind of pain. Wanting to re-create a connection that faded over time is not enough. You either accept the changes both of you have gone through, or you accept drifting apart. Sometimes there's just no going back. And if it makes you sad ten years down the road it doesn't mean that you haven't moved on. It only means that what you used to have was so special, was so genuine that you are still mourning. And that's okay. So I return your smile and tell you that I'm doing fine and I mean it. But a small part of me hopes you still think of me from time to time with a lump in your throat, wishing you could turn back time.

distorted mirror / n.j.

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“In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, relationship we are afraid to have, and the decisions we waited to long to make.”

— Unknown

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“The hardest thing about moving forward is leaving something behind - and usually it’s a part of ourselves.”

— Unknown

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“We all have one foot in a fairytale, and the other in the abyss.”

— Paulo Coelho

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Photo by Emre Gencer on Unsplash

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Normalize not forcing people to choose you. If they think they can find better elsewhere – let them. Respectfully.

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One of the hardest realizations to face is that someone you’ve invested a lot of time into isn’t the right one for you or isn’t who you thought. Because think about it like this: you’re painting a picture and you go out and you buy the expensive canvas and tons of paint, all different colors, and you spend years on this one painting, making sure everything’s perfect, fixing mistakes, adding and subtracting details, redoing and re-examining, and this painting is all you have to show for the past, say 6, years of your life because it’s what you’ve invested all your free time into and money and effort and tears and frustrations. And then to be faced with the decision to destroy it- no matter how mad it’s making you, even if it came out completely wrong- I just don’t think you could. And that’s why people stay in relationships with people that might not be the best for them. Because after spending 6 years on one painting, the thought of having to start from scratch on a blank canvas is more daunting and overwhelming and terrifying than having to look at a mediocre painting every day for the rest of your life.

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“exercise patience with what isn’t making sense currently. trust that where you’ve been placed isn’t a permanent location but a temporary destination until you learn what you need. less resistance to what you can’t control, more acceptance of the direction the waves are going in.”

— iambrillyant

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“And when I asked you how you’d been, I meant I missed you more than I’ve ever missed anything before.”

— Iain Thomas

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“Sometimes you change your mind about a person. Or your feelings for them change, or they change, or, I don’t know, you just want to make a different decision. And that’s always okay. You don’t owe anyone anything.”

— Emily Henry, The Love That Split the World

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He may be out of my life physically, but he’ll always be a part of me. I can’t let go even if I wanted to.

Simone Elkeles, Perfect Chemistry

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“i still love you. you know that right? i always did, probably always will. lord knows i was never good at letting things - or people - go.”

-and other things i’ll never tell you. c.r.

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“Don’t wait too long. Life takes unexpected turns, and we don’t always have the time we think we have.”

— Unknown

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“You can never really go back to the same waters. Not only are you no longer the same, but neither are the waters you left. The current has changed. The elements of nature have affected the stream. When you return, although it appears the same, it really is a different river and you are a different person. Therefore, you cannot cross the same river twice.”

— Alice Walker