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“Yes. Daddy.”

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I don’t want borrowed time that peels off the walls years later. Or to have to rebuild a roof that caved from under the weight of past promises. Give me a map to your center with ‘I surrender.’ Make up a language where ‘Because of my love for you, don’t go,’ exists in just one word I could get tattooed under my left rib cage. Lets give our mothers something to worry about, how I’m bad for you. How I’m taking her son through new doors and that she’s afraid one day he’ll forget which one is home. How you’ll make my heart ache— worse than the ones before you. How all this inconsistent howling just brings more wolves to the backyard. How I made a home of a boy who was always wandering.

What will it take to get you to promise me you’ll stay? | sjk (via tiredthumpings-of-a-little-bird)

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When you answer someone with sarcasm and they get really offended.

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HOLY SHIT 

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From the Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Handbook [pdf]

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I’m trying to remind myself that redefining my identity does not make me a liar.

Blythe Baird - “The Lesbian Reevaluates” (via buttonpoetry)

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Innate

Sculptors see forms trapped in stone, Musicians see melodies inside notes, Artists see faces on their canvas, Poets see worlds inside the words,

And they only release & liberate spirits from things that hold them down.

© SoulReserve 2017

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And to be truthful, my hands still tremble when they imagine touching you, and quickly turn to tight, balled fists when I picture another girl holding your heart like I did. I grow violent, crack my knuckles and envision another’s bones snapping, not our passion. It’s been difficult lately trying to swallow our pride. This love requires more compromise than we each can provide. And to be honest, I climb into a creaky four-poster bed each evening and hold a shirt still lingering with your scent like a lifeline, like a buoy in this sea of blankets. I am alone in this vast body of water, clinging to the notion that you’ll pull me towards shore or we’ll sink together. Our skin is stained with the color of last summer, and dear, I’d give anything to have the hunger we felt for each other then back. We’re both starving today. We should eat.

we long for more than our rations allow right now // Haley Hendrick (via haleyincarnate)

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Galerie des glaces, Château de Versailles, France

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There are 4 things I learned when I was 25:

You do not have to be affectionate all the time to care for someone, in fact, caring can also mean a couple of texts or silence for a few days while you both live your lives happily and separately.

People do not care for you less when they’re busy with their own lives. It’s your reaction to them being their own person - and your ability to make yourself happy - that determines how they feel about you.

Not everyone reciprocates to your actions the same way. If you want someone to acknowledge, be interested in, or treat you a certain way for your efforts, all you have to do is let them know. They will try their personal best to accommodate that within their personal spectrum of feelings.

No one owes you 100% of them, not even after 30 years, because someone having a percentage of themselves is what keeps them sane at the end of the day and that’s okay.

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The 12 dimensions explained

What is a Dimension?

A Dimension is a state of consciousness and a means of organizing different planes of existence according to the vibratory rate of that which exists. Each dimension has certain sets of laws and principles that are specific to the frequency of that dimension.  

Circular time means three dimensions cubed or 3 x 3 x 3 dimensions which = 27. Circular Time Theory states that over a very long period of time things will repeat.  Over a very long period of time things will repeat almost exactly. All Human Beings are Multi-Dimensional Beings of Light with a visible dense physical body which some of their Consciousness has been projected into, and have the potential to access the first 5 dimensions. 

Usually many of us are comfortable with our awareness being at 3-D level, but with spiritual application (i.e. meditation and reflection and asking our spirit guides for assistance) one can access the 4th dimension usually referred to as the astral plane or “time”, and even the 5th dimension.  

Indigos and Crystals can access the 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th dimensions.  Some Crystals can access the higher dimensions.

    The Twelfth Dimension ~ The All That Is; The Source

It is not possible to envision the Twelfth Dimension.

Numerologically, the number twelve is 1 and 2 joined. It represents the fusion of Unity (1) and Duality (2). In spiritual terms, it is God. Many ancient cultures have defined this God as “beyond words,” and rightly so.

The Twelfth Dimension includes and exceeds all infinities. Beyond definition, it is always more than we can imagine. For instance, you might say, “God is pure, unconditional Love.”

For that statement to be more true, you would need to add, “and then some.” In other words, whatever we can say or conceive about this being/state, there is always something more to it - “and then some.”

Ultimately, this is The Source - The All That Is (and then some). There are no “me’s,” “you’s,” or “us’s.” It is absurd to say, “I am [this] God,” because at this level there is no “I” to say it.

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Be Kind Until You Can’t, Then Leave

Do not give yourself to people  Who do not lift you up  Do not let them take what you give  Offering nothing in return  The world is hard and cold and lonely  But you don’t have to settle for that  Cultivate your wings  Seek your freedom in kinder places  The world is alive and bright and magic You are appreciated  And you are worthy  Peace is coming  Go fetch