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Wish I could do something stupid

Be kinda reckless while I can

Say I don't give a damn

But I'm older than I am

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tired and unmotivated

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I wish I was rich enough so I could take a rest whenever I don't feel well (Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually) without the looks and the unsolicited remarks from my co-workers 🤷‍♀️

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Dear Self,

Remember when you used to tell your friends that you wanted to get married by 27 with your partner for 5 or 7 years?

Guess what? It's too late for you now hahahahaha

Hello there 23 year old self 😂

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Made a little something for Mother's day ✨

Kinda excited about it 🥴

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My father was so adorable

I told them yesterday that I uninstalled my Facebook including the messenger app to do a little social media detox (tumblr not included haha). They were all so worried behind my reasons because I didn’t explain it that much, but later on, they just let the thought go.

The actual reason why I uninstalled these apps is to have a peace of mind. A lot of things have happened in the past few days and I feel like I really need this one. I don’t share my feelings to parents most of time because I always had a hard time explaining it to them.

But this morning, unexpectedly, My father texted me that he misses me and reminding me to eat my breakfast. This was really adorable because my father isn’t fond of texting. Like he can sense that I don’t feel good.

I’m really lucky to have the best parents. 

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We deserve some good after all the shit we've been through

a random post online

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No matter how much you tried, there are things you can't  control. All you can do, is to let go.

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Me when I re-read my post: Really?! I posted that?!

📷Originally posted by diostukos

Good thing no one knows me here 😏

Btw, Hi to those few people who follows me here.

Hope you find your happiness

keep safe  ✨

📷Originally posted by zibaldoni-elzapoppin

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I hope you knew

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I just realize that I don’t have a Solid Character.

Everything about me was a portion of all the people I know and have known.

I don’t know if I should be happy or sad about it.

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Are you becoming what you’ve always hated?

Charles Bukowski (via quotemadness)

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Happy Valentine’s Day, Darling!

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I just need 4 more years of living in an average life

Some people were telling me that I am a simple person who wants a simple life.

Nothing grand, nothing special, just a life were I can survive my day-to-day life.

Little did they know that the reason I was living a simple life without any challenging part is because I can’t fail. I have responsibilities.

I can’t just pack my bags and wonder to places and try new things whenever I wanted to.

But I just need 4 more years

4 more years so I can spread my wings and wonder to places.

Just give me 4 more years and I will free myself for any excess baggage.

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4 more years

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I wouldn't be surprised if I turn out to be a Bisexual 🥴🤷

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I choose to be love

I choose to be happy

I choose to be grateful everyday

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I don’t know who to share this to, so let me just write my thoughts here.

I’m scared. I’m really scared.

Before, I used to think that my life was useless and I’m not worthy for this.

Sometimes I feel like there is someone out there that is way worthy of this life than I am.

I take for granted the life that I have.

I didn’t value my life, my body.

Now, my laboratory result  came in. I have a follow up check up this week but I’m already scared about the result.

I remember the time when I take my body for granted.

I’m scared, I’m really scared.

So it is really true, We  only value something  when we  know  that it won’t last long.